Matthew groaned as he woke up from his dream. The dream that was haunting him since he was hospitalized. Since then, those nightmares never left him and it was kinda scaring him. They were all just blurred but he always heard someone calling him but when he woke up he already forgot the voice if it was someone close to him or not. 

"Fuck! When will it stop? Or at least I need to remember who was calling me. That fucking voice!" He hissed. 

Kahit masakit ang ulo at medyo masama ang pakiramdam, pinilit niyang makabangon para makainom ng gamot na palaging nasa katabing lamesa lamang. Kahit gustuhin man niyang maalala kung kaninong boses iyon ay wala talaga siyang mapala pagkakagising mula sa panaginip. Kahit tanungin man niya ang kaniyang ama ay wala itong maisagot dahil wala rin itong alam. 

Tatlong magkakasunod na katok ang pumukaw sa malalim niyang pag-iisip. Isang buntong hininga ang pinakawalan niya bago buksan ang pinto. It was his Dad. There was an evident concern on his face while looking at him. Hindi naman niya ito masisisi sa pag-aalala kung palagi na lang hindi maganda ang gising niya. 

"Dad," mahinang sabi niya. Isinandal niya ang sarili sa pader at pilit na ngumiti. 

"Nightmare again? May naalala ka na ba?" Tanong kaagad nito. 

"Still nothing but the voice calling me. Dad, it's been 2 months but until now it was haunting me. Fuck, maybe I should see a specialist. I'm ready now."

Since he woke up from comatose, his Dad persuaded him to see a specialist but he refused. Not that he didn't want to but he was afraid. But now, he was ready to know that fucking dream. 

Halata sa mukha ng ama niya ang pagkabigla pero agad itong nakabawi at masayang tinapik ang kaniyang balikat. "That's my son. I'll arrange a schedule with Dr. Rico, okay?"

Marahan siyang tumango. "Hope this fucking ends now."

***

One year had passed but still there was still no clarification about his dream. The nightmare was still haunting him but not always. He just dismissed it, not minding now who was that voice. 

He accepted his father's offer to handle their company. At iyon ang ginawa niyang pampalipas oras sa tuwing naiisip niya ang kaniyang panaginip. Masiyado siyang nag focus sa trabaho. And sometimes, he could hear some humors about him that he was a monster when it came to work. And he really became like that. 

Especially when his father came home with a woman. 

His father's mistress.