Cecilio stood in front of a night club confusion written all over his face,this is the address that doctor gave me,did he make a mistake? Cecilio thought out loud,he walked to the security guards who asked for his ID card,he pulled it out and showed them after which they let him in,Cecilio stood at the entrance few seconds from turning back and going the other way but he pushed forward half expecting Rosa not to be here he wondered what she would be doing in a place like this,the loud music was ear wrecking,people were making out in every corner,some where stealthily giving drugs to others, Cecilio could tell cause he had done something like this before for his dads clients,the place reeked of alcohol and smoke
God please let me not see Rosa here Cecilio prayed a fruitless prayer cause he suddenly saw Rosa standing with a very familiar man ,they shook hands and Rosa handed the man a suitcase,Cecilio took another look and recognized the man it was Santiago toribio's younger brother,why was he here and with Rosa
Rosa finally spotted him,he couldn't tell the look on her face was she angry or ashamed the look on her face said both, she hurried up to cecilio holding his hand for them to leave but Cecilio was fixated to the ground,I'll tell you everything you want to know just come with me rosa said almost yelling so Cecilio would hear her,Cecilio followed behind her staring at his and Rosa's hands intertwined,he wished she would hold him more often,he wished the world would stop so it could be just them holding hands like this
Rosa let go of cecilio's hand only then did he notice that they were no longer in the club,get in the car Rosa said sternly and Cecilio obliged,they sat quietly through out the drive,rosa pulled over at an apartment letting herself out of the car without saying a word to Cecilio but he still followed behind her into the house,as soon as she was in she lit a cigarette taking in a few drags till the cigar was halfway gone,ask away what do you want to know? Rosa asked sitting on the sofa and shutting her eyes,
are you tired?Cecilio asked in a low tone
Is that really what you want to know?rosa asked now looking at him
If you don't want me to ask then I won't Cecilio replied Calmly
Cecilio you... Rosa lost words inhaling deeply before talking again,I own the club you just went to,I didn't stop selling drugs it's part of my main source of income,I lied when I said I was controlling my drinking,I still drink a lot and I added smoking to my list of bad habits what else do you want to know? Rosa said almost yelling
That's not really what I asked you know,I asked if you were tired Rosa Cecilio said still very calm
Rosa couldn't hold it in anymore she felt like there was something huge in her chest suffocating her, tears began to escape from her eyes but she put her head up to prevent it from falling,in a whisper she said I'm very very tired Cecilio,
it doesn't matter how much she tried to stop the tears from falling they still rolled down uncontrollably and Rosa tried to hide her face away from Cecilio
Rosa why won't you let me help you? I know you want to stop all these and rest but it's not going to be easy and I will help you and be with you through out the journey,you don't have to do this alone Cecilio said moving towards her but she suddenly backed away.
Cecilio I don't deserve any of that,you should live a better life one without me, you should be with a normal girl and be happy, I'm already a dead person,and you.....Cecilio cut her short by hugging her from behind and whispering in her ear,let me decide who I want to be with,why are you always thinking of what is best for me without asking what I really want Cecilio said
Then what do you really want? Rosa said calmly
You! That's all I want,you're not dead Rosa you're living for me, in both of us I hope I die first cause I don't want to live without you,the world would be shallow and dark without you, a big world that I'll never fit in,you're the reason I live Rosa and you will always be.
It's when you say stuff like that it just makes it hard for me to push you away Rosa replied
Then don't push me away,let me stay with you Cecilio replied
Rosa suddenly broke down crying loudly like a child almost losing balance and falling on the ground but Cecilio held her firmly and let her cry the pain out,hoping that after this it would be a new beginning for the both of them.