It felt cold, so cold that I thought it was hot.
It's not like it's the first time. I feel it everyday, everyday of my life I feel that hot pain in my heart.
Does she even like me? Was i a mistake? I spend everyday of my life wondering what went wrong, what I broke.
As a princess, they are rules I have to abide to, things I had to do to be a 'princess'.
I've done those things all my life and honestly, I'm starting to get pissed by it every single day.
Walk like a princess, eat like a princess, sleep like a princess, talk like a princess, blah blah blah...it's sickening.
I wanted to run away, far away and start a normal life but who was I kidding? I'm only eighteen. My parents doesn't let me go out the palace walls without a dozen guards following me around and sticking like glue.
I once tried to run away but I was caught immediately and was locked in my quarters for a week.
It was morning again. Another new day for the same old routine, same old schedule.
Bath, breakfast with the family, history and math lesson with Zeke, horse riding lessons, sword training, lunch e t c too many to count. I got up lazily as Ann walked into my room looking as neat as ever.
" Good morning, princess Alexa" she bowed slightly.
"Good morning" I spoke while yawning without covering my mouth, it's what my parents would call 'unethical' but I don't mind since I was alone with just Ann; my hand maid.
Ann was two years older but sometimes spoke like someone over a hundred years old, it made me wonder if she was an old woman in a young pretty girl's body.
She was pretty with dark brown eyes and thick black hair that fell over her shoulder. Long lashes and perfectly pink lips. Honestly, I get jealous of her sometimes. How could someone be so beautiful. It wasn't rare but it was perfect.
I made my way to the bathtub. I washed up and now was time to pick a dress for today.
I have a lot, i mean a lot of clothes but they are all not my type at all. I decided to pick a blue long dress, A shape, deep v neck at the back and small u neck, front. Flower designed and just for a princess not Alexa - me.
Today is Dora's engagement party. She was getting married to a business man, not royalty but he has what my parents could kill for; money and fame. No doubt Dora and Aaron loved each other but sometimes I think my parents only approved of their relationship because of what Aaron Jackson had.
A royalty in Galvia was allowed to marry from a non royal family if his or her family was well off, that is, rich and noble.
I'm my father's sixth daughter of his nine girls and after Dora's wedding, mine will be next. My stomach clenched at the thought of me waking up one random morning and hearing that I would be getting married to a stranger from another country or kingdom somewhere and leaving with that person. I was scared .
I couldn't focus the entire time as I was drowning in thoughts but one thing I noticed was, someone was watching me. I couldn't see them but I could feel it. They were many people staring at me but the feeling was different.
I looked around to see if I could find the person but like I said, many people were staring.
The room was filled with at least a thousand guests but big enough to contain two thousand more, it was extremely big, so big I could get lost in the crowd.
I still felt it. The feeling of someone watching me closely. Was i imagining things? I wasn't sure.
The engagement was done and almost everyone was talking business, history and so on while drinking and some eating at the table on a side of the huge room.
I needed fresh hair. It was cool in here but this dress is sickening. I wear dresses like this every day but I can't get used to it. Not even a little bit.
I scanned the room first looking for the perfect way to go out but the large doors was surrounded by guards. I could easy pass them but my stepmom would find out and ask questions later, questions I don't and never really like answering.
I took a deep breath as I threw away the uneasiness in my heart and walked towards the door I could reach.
Was someone following me? Why do I feel like I'm being followed? Just a while ago, I felt like I was being watch by someone and now followed. I didn't have good instincts like my grandma or Ann but I trust this one.
I turned to look but found no one behind me. Was i imagining things? I didn't know. I tried to push the feeling and walked far away from the ball room to a place where I could breath; the royal library.
I liked it in there because it was quite and I like quite. I didn't really like books, that's me.
Even if I still felt like someone followed me here, I still tried to ignore it because anytime i turn to look, he disappears.
I was searching for book in the political books area when a book fell.
I bent to pick the book but before I could reach it, but someone else was faster.
"You dropped this" he said as he got up with the book in his hand.
Instead of just accepting the book and showing appreciation, I was lost in something called his eyes ..