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Chapter 4 - Chapter 4 memories

Dreams can bring back memories that we don't want to see, thoughts and feelings that we don't want to feel. Suppressed memories hidden in our minds. Suppressed thoughts that we don't want to have. When we're young, our mind sometimes suppresses memories that associate with intense emotion and traumatic feelings. When we get older, especially into adulthood, sometimes images, certain situations, or emotions can re-trigger these memories, and they can come back to haunt us again. Sometimes it's important to remember to confront these unwanted memories to better understand our thoughts and feelings. We have to confront these uncomfortable thoughts, even if we don't understand why they make us uncomfortable.

Anima saw a woman. For some reason, he couldn't remember who it was; he never saw this woman, didn't know why she was there, but his soul was saying something else. His soul was telling him this was a woman that he believed was dead. After all, that's what his father told him when he was younger—that she died in a "car accident." So why is he seeing her? Anima didn't understand; after all, as far as he could remember, he never met this woman. He never saw her in life, so why was this his first trial?

Anima: What..?

Anima didn't understand why he knew this woman. It felt like it was yelling out loud, screaming almost. He could feel his heart racing, beating extremely fast—almost felt like he was going to faint. He didn't get it. His heart hurt; his soul hurt; his body felt pain. He couldn't move; he didn't want to see this; he wanted to leave. He didn't know why, but that's what his soul was saying **"MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUT*MOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUT"**

Anima quickly left the room; he closed the door.

Anima: What the hell was that? Why did I just act like that?

Meanwhile, back in the physical world:

Vera: Is Anima doing fine?

Mr. Arakin: His heart is beating extremely fast. This is weird; the first trial should simply be about understanding what pathway you want to be on. Something's strange; nothing in that trial should be making his heart race like that.

Vera and Eros wore very panicked faces.

Eros: There's no way, Anima; it's just the first trial. Don't lose here.

Vera: Can't you speak to him? Can you ask him what's going on? You're starting to make me worry.

Mr. Arakin: I'm trying, but he isn't responding. If this keeps going on, I'll be forced to pull him out. Let's see how it plays out; his heart rate did start to calm down, so maybe it's just shock...?

Eros: _Pffft,_ so that loser was scared.

_Eros laughs._

Vera, with a frustrated expression:

Vera: As long as he's fine.

Back to the first trial, Anima prepped himself to enter the door again.

Anima: What the fuck was that? Why did I just act like that? Well, I'm better now; let's try this again.

Anima reached for the door handle. As he reached for it and grabbed it, his soul started shouting again, "**MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE, GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUTMOVE GET OUT, MOVE GET OUT, MOVE, GET OUT, MOVE GET.OUT"**

Anima: SHUT THE FUCK UP!

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Anima slammed the door open and entered the room. Inside, he saw his mom, dad, and his baby self—they were playing with a toy together. His mom and dad were there, and then they left the room.

Anima started shouting.

Anima: WHY ARE YOU SHOWING THIS TO ME?

Anima didn't understand why he was being shown this, but he went and followed them downstairs. He could see his dad holding his baby self and his mother leaving them. He saw his mom leaving them. A man was beside her. His dad was shouting, his baby self was crying, and his mother was leaving him and his father, to never return to them again. He finally started to remember what his brain had blocked out. He couldn't make out what they were saying, but he remembered hearing, "Forgive me, darling." Why would his mother leave them? He didn't get it; he didn't understand.

**WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?**

All he could remember was that he hated her—hated her for leaving his dad, hated her for leaving him, hated her for not being around for the rest of his life. Hated how she looked. Hated how she smiled. Hated everything about her. He wanted to hurt her—hurt her so, so badly, no matter what.

Anima had a furious look on his face. He could see a knife on the counter, and he grabbed it. Anima started running after her with the knife in his hand.

Anima: WAIT! JUST FUCKING WAIT!

Anima began chasing her with the knife in his hand, sprinting past his dad and his baby self. Before his mother knew it, as she turned around, Anima had stabbed her through the heart—but there was no blood.

His mother wore a very shocked expression on her face.

Anima: WHY. WHY DID YOU LEAVE US?

She looked into Anima's deep, dark purple eyes—eyes just like hers—and saw all the rage and anger in them. She grabbed his head, looked into his eyes, and then she spoke.

???: I'm sorry. Please, come find me.

The woman proceeded to kiss Anima on his forehead.

???: Anima, my son, I truly love you. You are my miracle.

Anima had a shocked expression on his face.

But all of a sudden, space started distorting. A huge amount of water rushed in, washing everything away.

Suddenly, he was in an ocean, with thunder everywhere and extreme waves crashing around him. He was standing on an island, and all of a sudden, he saw a 100-foot-tall pink dragon towering over him.

Anima put both his hands up to block whatever was coming.

The dragon screamed.

Dragon: ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Anima could feel the shockwave from the dragon's roar.

The first trial had officially begun.

**Chapter 4 End.**

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