I head back into the bar feeling drained. I don't even know why I came back in. It would have just been easier to go back home to stew on how I have just probably ruined something good we had because I just could not mind my business.
Gabe keeps throwing glances my way. He knows something is wrong but he doesn't ask because he knows I won't tell him. Ignoring him, I pull out my phone and dial Malachi's number. It's rings but he didn't pick up. I try several more times, same result.
I sigh, feeling agitated. I'm crazy, I know I am. If I weren't, I wouldn't be obsessed about someone irrespective of their gender. I try his line few more times before I give up. For today.
I desperately need to build our friendship back. If I knew he would react like that, I wouldn't have approached him to cause a mini scene.
When I think back to our conversation in parking lot, I flush.
I'm not a stranger to obscene sexual words, but the way he said those words, the idea of him fucking into me- shit. I feel hot all of a sudden. Arousal pool in my gut.
Just of the thought of sex with him has my body feeling warm. This is not good. What if he isn't interested in me the way I am with him. I know him being bisexual doesn't mean he is automatically attracted to every male. I don't even want him to be attracted to any male at all aside me.
I massage my forehead, trying to relieve tension.
"Are you sure you're good? Gabe asks while runny his eyes over me. I nod, not feeling the urge to speak.
"I think I'm gonna head home. I'm done for the night." I say as I quickly get up.
"What? We haven't even stayed up to two hours."
"yeah yeah I know, I'm not feeling too good. I wouldn't want to kill the vibes here tonight."
He nods and then raise his fist and I bump mine to it.
"catch you guys some other time." I say and they all mutter their "yeah" and I go home.
I wake up the next morning to the sound of my phone ringing. I wipe crust from my eyes and try to locate where my phone is. I sight it on the top of the bed side drawer. I groan because I either have to walk over because of my big ass bed or roll so I ignore it.
What if it's Malachi? Not that he has ever called , but I did drop several missed calls on his phone. Maybe he decided to call me back.
I quickly roll over my king size to my phone. I pick it up, the call has ended so I check my call logs, it's not him. It's the girl from last night.
I almost threw my phone across the room, then I saw a new message notification. It's from Malachi.
I open the message.
I'm sorry for the way I acted last night. That was highly improper and rude of me. I shouldn't have done that. I hope we can still be friends.
A smile light up my face. He apologized. Not that I need it anyway. I thought he was angry at me and all this while he felt bad because of how he spoke to me.
I dial his number, but then end it before it rang. Maybe I shouldn't call him. I'll just text him.
Good morning, I got your message. I accept your apology and I'll like to also apologize for the way I interrupted your date. It was entirely uncalled for. I didn't know what came over me. And yes, we can still be friends.
I press send.
Few seconds later I receive a message.
Apology accepted.
I'm probably smiling like a loon right now but I don't care.
My phone rings again. It's the girl. I sigh deeply. I need to put an end to this before she thinks I'm dragging her along.
"Hello, good morning." I say after picking the call.
"hey Tobi good morning. How are you now? Hope you're better?"
I remember I said I wasn't too feeling well yesterday. That's probably why she called.
"Yeah I'm good. Thanks for asking."
"It's no trouble. I was wondering why you weren't speaking to me, I thought you didn't like me, I didn't know you weren't fine."
"yeah, about that." I wanted to blurt out 'I don't like you' but I imagine if it were me Malachi repeated that word to I wouldn't like it, so I looked for a way to soften the blow. "I don't think I'm in the right frame of mind for a relationship right now. Or anything else." I say slowly. "I'm sorry" I add.
"Oh" she say. I hope she don't take it badly. "that's cool then. I was hoping we can start something, but if you say you're not ready that's alright." She says disappointedly. "maybe we can be friends. What do you think?" she says hopefully.
Friends? She'll run off before you know it, but who I'm I to deny anyone from my awesomeness. "yeah, that's cool. We can be friends."
"okay, I have to go, I have some things I have to do. I hope we can talk again?"
"yeah we can."
"alright. Later."
The call ends. Well, At least she won't be expecting anything relationship like from me. I fall back on the bed since I don't have work today. My day will mostly be filled with me lazying around.
Previously, my weekends were usually filled with me going on dates, hooking up with girls that show interest in me. But ever since I met Malachi, I've had zero interests In keeping my previous hobbies. I want to explore what intimacy with him will be like. With how curious I am, I doubt anyone can distract me from thinking about him.
Fuck you into unconsciousness.
My thoughts keep wandering back to that statement, and I get thrills each time. I don't know what it entails because I have limited knowledge of gay sex but the fact that he knows what it means feels almost heady.
How would sex with Mal be like? With how sexy and alluring he is I know it must be mind blowing. The thought of kissing those full and pink lips, sucking on them has desire clouding my vision and I feel my dick start to harden and I grind the heel of my palm on my dick.
Then I run my palm on my clothed dick and imagine it's Malachi stroking me instead of my hand. He would look into my eyes with those deep and intense eyes of his and tell me how well he wants to fuck me. All the blood rush into my dick, I feel precome gush out and pool at the tip and a light tremor runs through me at how horny that thought makes me.
Fucking me will mean his dick will be inside of me. My asshole. I should be upset at the thought, but I'm not. Instead, I shove my hand into my shorts and pull out my dick that's almost as hard as stone. Fuck. I run my thumb across the tip and don the vein leading to the base, back up before I stroke down to up again. I'm breathing harder with each pass of my palm on my dick. Just the thought of us doing it has me leaking profusely. He'll probably tell me how deep inside me he wants to be in. kisses on my neck as he strokes me hard and fast, his other hand might be thumbing my nipples, not that I'm really sensitive there. I don't think I am. I mindlessly move my free hand up my taut stomach to my chest while my other hand strokes my dick faster.
The moment my finger graze my hardened nipple, I shock at how sensitive it is and how it intensifies my arousal. My orgasm cresses and I tighten my hand on my dick and my eyes roll into the back of my head. I pinch my nipple and the dam broke.
A loud groan tore out of me as cum shoots out of my dick, warming my hand as it flies up and down on it.
I'm left boneless after that insane orgasm. My hands are sticky but I don't mind. I just lay on the bed feeling the calming after effect of cumming and imagining what it would be like to experience this with him.
This will be possible with Malachi if he wants me too.
Only if he wants me too.
That's the last thought on my mind before I doze o