the last ever time I got to talk with my online crush was the last time she had streamed.
Pretty weird right? Being in love with a person you don't even know if is a real girl or no.
But yet, still my heart fell for her, for the one I had and still love. The one who my heart is preserved for, I wish I could tell her my feelings one last time.
One last time before she completely left me alone, took my heart, soul, and emotions with her.
I wish she would atleast answer my question, the question I asked months ago. The question I asked to deepen our bond of not only a streamer and a viewer. But a girlfriend and a boyfriend.
Did she even feel the same way? Did she even think about it? Or the most important question should be... Did she even take me and my love confession seriously?.
I guess I will naver know now will i, well, I guess the closer you wish to get to the one who you truly love, the further you are pushed back.
But I naver knew how far I would be pushed back, but now that I see it, I now know.
I know feel how they who might have loved me must have felt to be ignored, but it seems god is always with me. Dragging me into the worst accident so that I barely lose my memory so that I won't have to suffer from the pain of remembering her voice every few hours or even minutes.
But it seems my Brain has fallen too deep within her love hole that even god is unable to lift me up. Why, I ask why do I remember her sweet little voice ? If her answer to my question is ( NO ) then atleast say it, that way I can atleast die peacefully.
I don't want to remember you forever and ever, i want to either lose you forever or be with you forever, forever until one of us is dead.
You know, or rather you knew, giving no expectations and promises is better than giving false expectations and fake promises.
I still wander, has it not been a week yet? The one week you asked me to wait for you to think of an answer?
Did you really think If you die before answering my question then I will forget about it?
No! No I won't, I won't ever forgive you for giving me a fake promise and not answering my one simple question.
Or have you forgotten? The question!.
If you have than I must remind you, it's, it is....
" I have a crush on a girl, and since you are that crush of min. Would, you.. would you be my wife? Or we can start by being in a relationship! "
I guess you naver took it as a serious question in the first place huh.
Well..... This is a good bye from me noobsuper, to you kaibo !
Good bye and good luck.