Was it bitter, was it worth it?.... To grow the feelings I once wished to burry?
Did I enjoy it? Of course I did not, but will she understand it? Of course not...
I had always wanted you to know who I am !, I had always wanted you to know who I could be, I had always wanted you to know just how much that " who " mattered to me.
Did you try to understand me ? I hope you did. Because I did,,, I did everything i could to be even closer to you... So close that even the wildest dreams or strongest wills can not separate us...
But truth lies, it was only I and only I who had held that feeling underneath my heart... Mabye you don't know how scared, left, alone I felt when you last said " I'll tell you next week for sure "
Wasn't that what you really meant ? Last week? Or did you mean in the afterlife. Because if you did,then I am more than ready and happy to wait even that long...
If it means i get to feel you warmth, if it means i get to feel you by my side, if it means i get YOU to be my wife...
Please, give me the answer I want, or maybe the answer you really have behind that fake smile of yours.
There will come a day when you forget me, and I too probably will forget you. What do you wish to happen that day ? Mabye try again to remember my off looking face?
My stupid wodrs ! I just want you to know how much I loved you when you loved someone else...
BOBO---
To you, from me