WARNING NOTICE; THIS CHAPTER MAY INCLUDE MATURE THEMES INCLUDING, DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, EMOTIONAL ABUSE OR TRAUMA. READERS DISCRETION IS ADVISED.
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Natalie's POV
I paced up and down my room looking baffled. I had been dialing Sebastian's number but it keeps going to voicemail. He is always used to keeping late nights and it got me worried.
I checked the wall clock. It was almost midnight and my husband wasn't back!
I furrowed my brows and my concern heightened by every second. What if something had happened to him?
I sighed as my shoulders dropped. I claimed my bed and covered myself with the duvet. I don't understand why I always care about Sebastian, knowing fully well that his arrival spells the continuation of my doom.
I thought about Rachael's words. Maybe leaving Sebastian was the right choice but I just can't, I feel trapped. What would become of me if I walk out of this marriage?
My golden crown; how would I get it if I don't endure. Not every woman is happy in her marriage, so I don't have to make a selfish decision. I would hold on to Sebastian no matter the situation I face.
Suddenly, the door flung open and Sebastian walked in. I came down from the bed and moved closer to him.
"Sebastian, where have you been? I was worried." I said, my voice laced with concern.
But as I saw Sebastian pull off his suit jacket and pants, I moved backwards, my heart pounding in utmost fear. I knew what was about to happen;another merciless sex.
He approached me with a smirk on his face. It sent shivers down my spine, he really looked dangerous with that look. Jesus! I'm done for tonight!
"Natalie, where are you running to? You obviously have no one to rescue you, don't be ridiculous." He whispered into my ears, trailing his fingers down my body.
I cringed as I felt his hand on my bare body. He was about shoving his finger into me when I moved away, making him frown.
"What's wrong?" He asked in his baritone voice.
I answered, "I'm tired Seb..can we do this some other time?"
His expression turned dark as he brought me closer and gripped my throat. I coughed continuously, trying to free myself but it seemed impossible. Sebastian was stronger than I was.
"Are you insane! I need you now, Natalie! Don't make me lose my temper, I have the upper hand here and you should listen to me!" He fired at me. I seriously prayed for the ground to open up and swallow me, Sebastian finally released my throat and the coughing increased.
"Now strip!" He ordered me and I knew better than disobeying him again. I quickly obliged, slowly pulling off my nightwear.
Now I was stark naked and my big boobs shot out, he took them in his hands and engaged me in a hot kiss.
His tongue fought for dominance and I couldn't resist him, I kissed him back. He lifted me up and threw me on the bed, pouncing upon me like a lion who was ready to devour its prey.
Yes I was the prey and Sebastian is the lion, he always made me obey him and do it against my will.
We had sex until the next morning and Sebastian never stopped. I looked to my side but he wasn't there he had left for his room. I hissed loudly when I remembered what happened yesterday, how Seb dealt with me mercilessly.
I couldn't even lift my legs and my thighs hurt badly. My husband is a sex addict and we make love almost everyday, he is never tired and he often leaves my body aching.
I felt the urge to go back to bed but I had to make breakfast for Sebastian before he leaves for work. Getting to the living room, the first person I saw was Abigail Sean, my mother-in-law.
Hah.. gosh this sharp mouthed woman, she was staring at me with her eyes full of contempt, her tongue was at the ready, I knew she couldn't wait to begin to call me names.
I stood rooted to a spot, my eyes fixed to the floor. I greeted the woman who gave me an eye roll.
"Oh will you shut up you piece of worthless trash! I didn't come to receive your meaningless greetings, I have come to ask when you'd give me a grandson. My patience is running thin, I can't wait forever and you know that!" Abigail spat with disgust evident in her voice.
I knew she was here to throw tantrums about desperately wanting a grandson, but it isn't my fault that I've not had a child.
I've been trying my best to get pregnant but it seemed like an impossible task. I've visited many hospitals and the doctors told me I was fine but I wonder why I haven't conceived. What is wrong with me?
"Are you going to stand there and act dumb? You aren't going to say anything?" She paused and chuckled, tapping her stilettos on the floor impatiently. She tsked and folded her arms with a smirk dancing on her lips.
"What could a barren woman possibly say?" She mentioned it in mockery.
Did she just call me barren? I hated to hear that but she just wouldn't stop addressing me by foul names. I'm just on a waiting period, not barren and very soon just very soon, I would have my own children.
"I am not a barren woman, Mrs Sean." I summoned up the courage to say. Abigail laughed out hysterically like a witch in those fantasy movies, she looked really scary.
"You're just a pathetic soul, Natalie. You're giving yourself false hopes. Don't be surprised when I throw out your things the next time I come here." She threatened me.
Coming downstairs, Sebastian witnessed the way his mother insulted and spoke harshly to me but instead of intervening, he supported her.
I wasn't surprised at his actions, he had done this many times. He would always humiliate me in the presence of his mother and also take sides with her.
Abigail was like the captain of his ship and he succumbed to everything he told him.
"Mom, don't stress, I'd replace her soon with someone better." Sebastian told his mom.
My eyes widened in shock, what the heck was Sebastian saying? He is planning on kicking me out?
Those night calls, now I guess he has a mistress somewhere and is planning on bringing her in. Why must he act like this? I do everything to satisfy him and yet he wants to send me out?
Later that day, I visited the hospital again, I really wanted to know what was wrong with me, I knew something was amiss.
But the doctor told me the same thing. "Mrs Sean you're perfectly okay and there's nothing wrong with you." The doctor had told me, I walked out of the hospital in annoyance.
I clutched the test results close to my chest, weeping bitterly. I ran a pregnancy test but it came out negative. I am so disappointed in myself, I should blame myself for my predicament and not point accusing fingers at Sebastian, only.
Out of the five fingers, I deserved one, probably two. Any man in Sebastian's shoes would be disappointed, three years of marriage and not even a child? I'm so pathetic, Mrs Sean was right.
I found a nearby tree and sat under it. I need to cool my head, I have to think about my life.
"I am so unfortunate." I said to myself but an unfamiliar masculine voice replied, "No you aren't. Wipe your tears, your problems won't last forever."
I looked up at the stunning man in front of me. Heavens! Who was this handsome stranger?