Nearly two months have pass. My father returns to court with a proud moment that no one can forget. As he had already retired, he hand the glory to his men. We meet in the gardens at the emperor's quarters. I bring the little one for him to see. My father is delighted and he cry at the same time. He said he will bring my mother and little peach the next time.
Before the baby three months celebration day approaches, the dowager and the empress have return from the holy temple. The baby's name will be reveal during the celebration. In addition a monk had follow them back to the palace. The dowager said that the monk is to bless my son.
The empress who return to her living quarters have a fit. She rage and storm to find the emperor. She scream at him for removing those ladies from the harem. She scream also for the change of her maids within her living quarters. She has now male and female servants. She also scream for her father claiming that the emperor had disrespected him publicly. The emperor who seems to know that she will be acting like this remain calm. They continue to exchange words and later she storm off to her living quarters.
The dowager who is pleased to have a heir to the throne had ordered the best garments and accessories for me. I can't reject them but i sent them all to the Su mansion. While my son is given the best of everything in this nation. She is so please that she got greedy, she asked for another grandchild. I wanted to talk back but i learn to keep my silence. I have learn thought out the years that talking back doesn't do me good.
During the celebration, my son's name is reveal as Tian Long. He is the sky dragon that will put back peace and order. His crown prince name will be Xian Long. The beloved dragon so shall he be. During the ceremony, my little dragon did not cry nor make unnecessary noise. His eyes are darting everywhere. Looking a round and his hands pointed to a lot of different directions. What started him is the lion dance. He bawl and cry out loud. His little hand keep grabbing my breast. Excusing ourselves, i heard to the nearest room to breast feed him. Unexpectedly, the emperor follow along. "I need to breast feed him. Please..."
"Let me watch." He said softly. Once i sit down, he push my breast out and lead my son to suck for the milk. Personally i dislike him for doing that. It feel strange. It's not strange when i do it myself. The emperor stare at us for awhile. He move nearer and kiss my cheeks. Surprise i look at him. "Thank you for being in my life. I am longing forward for the rest of our lives together."Before i say a word, he reach out and put his hand in my top and remove my other breast. He lick and suck. I hated it but there is a strange emotion that sweep inside of me. As he suck and lick, his eyes look at me. His hand squeeze the breast to push more milk out. Some if the milk leak onto the side as his tongue lick the nipples. Even spray some onto his face.
My son after drinking becomes sleepy. I carry and shake him to sleep. Once i put him down, the emperor force me around and kiss so hard. I want to push him away but he is stronger. His hands find their way into my skirt. "Let me have it. I can't wait. It's been so long. I keep my promise. I have no other woman except you."
"We are in the middle of the ..." He force me to kiss to keep me quiet. In the end we did it. It was painful and uncomfortable for me. I find myself bleed a bit. The next day, the physician is call in. Medicine is given and told me not to engaged into sex so fast. I wanted to tell him to convert this message to the emperor. Again i hold my tongue and shut up.
For the next few day, we keep doing it. It is unbearable for me but it's a pleasure for him. Every time i need to breastfeed my child, my fear grows when i see him in a distance. Most of the time, i give in to him, i begin to enjoy whatever he does to me. I become his wanton whenever he wants and needs it. If i can't break away from him then i should enjoy my time.
one afternoon, i carry my little dragon to find his father. We walk hall to hall to find him. Till i spot his eunuch that follows him around. He is standing by the door. He bow to me. "Your majestic is reading his book and told me not to let anyone in." Somehow he looks nervous and perspiring. "Let me in, he will want to see his son."
"But... i ... i will go in to tell him..."
"there isn't a need. I will walk in."
Using him aside, eunuch Chen beg me not to go in. I keep walking him with my sleeping dragon in my arms. Walking pass rolls and rolls of books, i hear sounds of moaning getting louder. In the end what i see was him engaging with a maid. I stand at that spot for a while. He still doesn't know i am there. Till little dragon wake up and make a noise. He turn to see me standing in a distance where they are. He quick pull up his pants and the maid bow down on the floor. Eunuch chen too bow down to the emperor and ask for forgiveness. We stare at each other for a while. Quietly and calm i walk out with my son. While i can hear him yelling at eunuch Chen and order his men to drag the maid out for execution. I can hear her screaming while being drag out.
I continue to walk out like an empty shell. The empress was right about something. All men are the same. We are just a vassal for a son. Why are we allowing them to do this to us.
For the next few days, i refuse to see him and moved back to everlasting beauty. Everyday i watch my son gets bigger and stronger. I watch him learning to walk and curious about everything. He is growing more hair so i tie them up like peach when she is growing up. Two little cute pigtails.
Months later, the eunuch Chen came by to inform me that the emperor will be taking in a concubine. She is the blood sister of the empress. I am already disappointed i said nothing.