Ridding a horse surprisingly is easy for me. I don't know how long i have been riding for, my butt is not hurting. Maybe is the sturdy saddle they had place for me. When the sun is high on the sky, we find a shaded place to rest while the horses are glazing the grasses some of the men close their eyes to nap. While for me i look around where i am. The mountains are high, the grass are green, there are little flowers spread everywhere. There are birds flying high in the sky. The tree i am leaning on, have small animals in it. I wonder did i look around before i lost my memories. Did i stop to admire what nature have? What was i busy doing? I close my eyes. In the back of my mind, i keep seeing the girl running away from me.
When the sun is not that hot, we start to travel. Out of no where, we find an inn to rest and get some food. With the number of us in travel, we occupy 4 tables. The food are served hot with chinese tea. Tang Li, keep placing food on my bowl, saying that i like those kind of food. I look at the bowl of vegetables and meat. I can't remember if i ever like them but i am not choosy. I ate everything that is given to me. Nothing is waisted. The next day, we packed food and set off. The scenery on the way keep changing. The vast wasted land, the deep forest and now some paddy fields. Finally i see a village. We look for a place to rest after nearly a day on the road. Finally a house by the paddy field is wiling to allow us to stay but there is no rooms for so many men. I told Tang Li to stay in the house since its an old lady and her daughter in law living there. While the men and i camp out in the barn with the horses. The whole night i fiddle with the hairpin. I am worried and excited what to do when i see the owner of the hairpin. Could she my mother? Or a sister? Or the one i love? All these time with Tang Li, i feel like, i treat her like my sister. There is no way she is my wife as she claim to be. I don't feel that i have those kind of feelings for her. When i talk to her, I feel like i am talking to any other man.
We took another 6 days to get to where the capital is at. When i pass through the main gate. I am overwhelmed with happiness. I keep smiling and want to laugh as i walk through while holding the horse reins. In front of me, i see rolls of people selling their goods. There are lively sound people talking, children screaming with laughter as they play, the air is fill with the aroma with cooked food. There is also many other goods. Is this what i have been doing before i lost my memory? To safe guard a city of people. To let them have peace and lived a life of happiness.
She take me to a huge mansion. I stop to stare at the wooden tablet that hangs high on the front door says, House of Prince Xian Wen. When i enter, i feel that i know every corner of this place. Every hall seems familiar. The study room, it seems like i know the books all in here. However i see there is actually two study desk in there. I touch the one that is facing the main door and sit on it. I look to my left which is the other desk is at. In my mind, i see a girl busy copy a book. I don't know why i feel sad. I pointed to the desk. "Who's desk is that?"
"Mine. I sit there." Tang Li reply with her arms fold across her chest.
"I don't think so. I think, it should be another person. That person is a girl too but she is not you." She looks annoy and keep quiet.
Walking around i come to a room and a big courtyard.In my mind, I can see a group of men exercising and a girl dress in a man's attire. Her long hair is roughly tie up in a bun. She is trying to catch up what they are doing. My feet walk me up to a room, i push open the door. a vanity table that once she sit on. My mind tells me i sat there too. I comb her long hair. I turn around and look at Tang Li.
"Where is she? I though you said that you are bring me to meet her."
"She is living somewhere ... i will arrange you to meet her family first. Stay in your mansion for the next few days. I will sent you there once they are ready to meet you. "
"Did i do her wrong? Why her family ..."
"You never hurt anyone. You always there to protect us. Now i am trying to protect you but you don't remember me. You only remember her."
Tang Li's tears fall and she turn around. She wipe her tears with her sleeves.
"Stay here. or you can choose to stay in any rooms. I will get the cook to start cooking dinner for you." With this she walk off.
At night, the sky is unlike the sky i remember. It's dark and noisy with the dogs barking. I lay on the tree brunch in the middle of the small courtyard. I take out the hairpin and look at it again and tuck it back into my garments. It should be a happy ending when we meet right?