They got married around autumn. I was forced to drink up the wedding cup for the approval of this reunion as the first wife of Prince Xian. BoWu comes with wedding gifts but he is unhappy. He whisper to me while the Ceremony is ongoing "How many times must this ugly cock marry? He already made a few woman suffer now this general too?You are lucky that you are still alive. Better leave him soon. As i said many years ago, if you have no where to go, i always have my mansion open up for you." For this cousin of mine, i am truly grateful.
That night dingbat got dead drunk. He is yelling and screaming. His men had to lift him up and bring him to the bridal room. I have no interest in it however eunuch Fang who was there to report to the emperor persist that i should go into the room behind the screen to be a witness. Again i find myself sitting behind the screen. its really an uncomfortable position to be in. I did not want t see or witness anything. After sitting there for an hour, we hear nothing. In the end, before i fell asleep, i hear snores. The eunuch hear this and get up from his sitting immediately. He walk towards the bed. He turned around to look at me. In my sleepy state, i stand up. kick over the screen causing loud sound but the groom and the bride is not awake up it. When i walk up to the wedding bed, the two of them are snoring their way. Eunuch Fang looks disappointed and signal me to leave the room. Finally it ends, i am able to go to bed in a peaceful mind.
The next day, general Tang wakes up early too, right before the sun rise. She greet me as the bride of first day to the first wife. Later to the ancestor tablets. Also into the palace to give respect to the emperor and empress. For the nest few days, i did not talk to the newlywed couple. I spend most of my time with little peach. Even though i am not busy, u will stay with little peach. Avoid them as much as possible. Because of old general Tang's health, Tang Li keeps going back and forth from mansion to mansion. Finally, two months later, old general Tang pass away quietly in his sleep. As the old general had contributed to our country, his funeral was organised in the grandest style. It was held over nearly a month. Finally, he was laid to rest. Tang Li is now the heir of the mass military army with Prince Xian as her husband. Their power in the court is stronger than ever.
Soon Autumn comes, dingbat is hound by the royal family for a male heir. His frowns on his face is back and i can't be brother with him. Having little peach in my life is the joy that i want. She reminds me of my childhood where i learn to climb trees. Dig the ground with a stick. Catch crickets and butterflies. Sometimes the leaves falls from the tree and we try to catch it with our bare hands. I allow her to do everything that a child should do even if she gets herself all dirty. In the end of the day, she needs just to bath and wash off those mud or sand. The only thing i don't allow her to do is to sit and study. She can do that when she is older. For now, i am doing what i learn. It's important to know how nature works. It is important for her to build up her sense in this world. Not like those noble ladies who know nothing how the outside world works.
I had moved my bedroom next to little peach. It is easier for me to go check on her in the night. also there is a swing in the small courtyard. I can sit on the swing and watch the moon. The night might be cold and lonely but it's comfortable for me.
One afternoon while play catching with little peach, Tang Li appear infront of us. She smile and greet me. I stopped the game and ask the maids to take little peach to do something else. After they are gone, both of us sit at the pavilion. Tang Li pour tea for both of us. "Is there some thing that you need from me?"
"I ... i ..."
"Just say whatever is in your mind.Saying repeating I, makes me, upset."
"Fine. What i want to say is that... Prince Xian and i have not consumed our wedding!"
i nearly spit my tea. I look at her and said "Is that my problem?'
"Can you advise me what or how am i should do. The empress told me to drug his wine. I can't do that."
"Well you can tell him to strip and go to bed with you. I think he is willing to do that. after all he sleep with a few woman already. With you adding in the count, its nothing to him."
"He said to me before the wedding, he see me as a brother. He can't do things with me like a couple. I..."
"Look, i don't know why are you asking me what to do about this. Whatever both of you want to do, i won't interfere. How are you doing to do it, i don't know. To be honest, i don't want to be in this marriage with both of you. If he wants to divorce me, i am glade to do so. I have given up on everything except little peach."
She stare at me in silence then she play with the cup of tea in her hand. "Are you saying that you want to leave him. If you leave, he is mine."
"I already have moved out of the main bedroom, if you don't know. The moment he choose to marry you, i know that i can't accept him anymore."
"I know he marry me is to keep the military power intact. I know he marring me was for the country not cause he love me but i still hope that one day he will actually love me. If i can give birth a child with him, he might love me. I can always give up all my military rights to him, if he give me what i want. But now, he choose to avoid me. He choose to stay away. He still in the end choose you."
"I will make him give up on me. I don't love him. Not like you. Just that i am trap now in this mansion. I can't do anything. My life is in his hands. Unless i'm dead then i will be free."
She look up at my eyes. "Then let me help you to leave this mansion but you have to die inorder to do so."