l escaped from death once, but twice! It's sure the end of my life. Why? If you have to take it after all…
So, why did you (God) save me?
I couldn't even do anything to my family. I can't die with that damn regret.
There is no one who could risk their life, and save me.
Here neither Gods exist, nor Angels. Here only one do exist, it's none but, me. Who have the ability to save me, is me, and nothing else.
Enough! Enough, l suffered, hurts, being an object of mocking—I don't care about those anymore. Now, or never. l have to choose, life or death.
Bip! Bip! Vroom-
Ahaaaa! l flowed all my strength into body.
l sought, l want to live, l refused to death.
l wouldn't care anymore about another, besides my life, my beloveds.
Vroom! l rolled on the road, like a child. And saved my life.
Haa…haa…haa…Ahaaaa! I refused to death, l will live, l will live. l'll become strong that no one can't hurt me
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Thud! Finally l have finished my assignments. l already decided, my next plan.
Knocked! Knocked! May I come in madam Sanjana.
"What do you need?" Madam, l need one month leave, it's urgent!
" No, l can't, until you have finished your assignments" l already finished all my assignments, so…
" Let me check" Sure, madam.
Rustle! Rustle! Thud! " Okay, for one month!" — "Also, why do you need one month leave?"l told her the truth. My family has searched a girl for my marriage, so l need to be there.
Although she surprised, yet act cold hearted. l don't care. we are strangers.
l'm leaving, madam.
Thud-thud-thud!
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It's lunchtime. " Hey, Ayush wanna eat lunch together?" Sure, why not?
hum, What you ma made today? "No, today my is sick, so she can't make lunch"
who is taking care of your mother? "l have a sister,and she's taking care of her"
Is your sister in college? " Yeah, she soon be here, that's she mentioned"
Tap-tap-tap! "You is Mister Ayush?" Yes.
suddenly, someone came at me, and informed me, that the CEO summon me. For What? CEO called me, l'm just a joiner.
l put my lunch into my bag,and keeping walking , with my broken leg. l keep tugging until The CEO'S caven.
May I come in? "Yes, and sit here".
as order, l sat on the chair. l sensed a big is trouble upcoming.l sat comfortablely, CEO remain silent. It's seemed, a serious matter.
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Click! Click! Haah, so tiring, hum…let's make a coffee.
It's a day had passed, after l become Sales Department Head.
The more l promoted, the more duty arose.
l hooked up the work, and went to the cafeteria. It's nearing from the CEO caven.
Tsk! That Damn Basterd. Haah, l can't do anything for this unlucky woman, who is his wife.
Tap-tap-tap! l reached the cafeteria.
at first, after boiling Milk, put some coffee powder. l like less strong, also less sweet. Actually, coffee doesn't make like this, but l like to drink this coffee.
Sip...Nice, well balanced of sweetness. l eat sugar the less as possible as.
Especially, l like vegetables, and spicy food.
Thud-thud-thud!
hum, it's Ayush, what's he doing in CEO caven?
" May I come in" It's Ayush voice.
" Yes, and sit here" It's CEO kabir voice.
What they are talking?
" So,You didn't know the reason, why l called you? Or you acting to be unknown" suddenly, CEO change his tactics, as well as voice. It's seemed he is threating Ayush.
" I don't get it?" Ayush said, he really don't know the reason.
"Sanjana is your Girlfriend, right?… Your beloved one" the CEO said sudctivly, " You love her, with the deepest of your heart, isn't?"
Ayush had gotten it now, why The CEO had called him; Despite of he remained silent, and listen.
"You also heard that we are dating each other, also fucked eachother!" The CEO became boldly and spit everything out of mouth.
Gritting! What? Why Kabir said those to Ayush? is he planning to snatch everything from me! Don't listen him Ayush, he is a liar!!
" I know everything. l saw you both with my naked eyes" it's…Ayush voice. No… so, he break up with me for this reason. He knows everything.
" So, I took your dearest virginity, What you will do? Revenge?" Shut your dirty mouth, liar!!
" No. I'm a fool that l wasted my time, hoping she will notice, and love me back…but"—"Now she is not my girlfriend, she is a stranger"
" And, Revenge. Why would l take revenge? From whom? and, it's bring everything back as before?"
"Smart, like your attitude. l have a offer, would you like to take?"
" What kind of offer?"
""Our company, opened a new branch, and there a skilled person as you, need"
"hmm, Okay"
Thud-thud-thud! He left the caven. Ayush know everything?! So that's he break up with me. I know before, he break up with me for his unsatisfied desires.
He also after my body.
But, that's not true, he break up with me, for my greedness.
I betrayed him, so why would he stay with me!
Sob-sob, l ruined everything. My
self-esteem,
my life,
also the most valuable person.
Wait! the accident, it's not an accident, it's happened for me.
He injured for me, l'm the criminal.
Sob-sob, l'm sorry, please forgive me…l'll do anything, don't go…don't go Ayush.
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l returned from office. l'm laying on my bed, thinking about the office incedant.
CEO offered me, to join the new branch, as a manager.
would l take it, or decline?… hmm, there no reason to decline this offer. But, l have to attend my engagement, so after this finished.
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I'm a shameless woman, and he love this shameless woman.
I think he's annoying, always asked about me.
But…he ask, since he care about me. l couldn't notice, he love me deeply.
He love me, just me since highschool.
He never cheated me, instead, he supported me, promoted me.
And what l gave him?… pain, nothing else.
He left me, and now he is going to married…soon, he become other. I
'm sorry, sob-sob
l swear, l wouldn't come across to you.
Please, be happy.
Sob-sob,
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Ayush, how you'll support that branch with you broken leg.
I transfer you, since l don't trust any. Now, enjoy this company.
If you made any loss, instead profit…l'll forgive, but the boss wouldn't.