The mood became gloomy for her. I'm not anger, nor avoiding her, l understood. I'm not a perfect match for her. l tried hard to make a space in her heart. But, everything was waste.
Now, there nothing between us.
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After changed four trains, l took a bus and heading home.
The bus had filled with passengers. I took a corner beside, the window. I like to sit beside window, there no one who couldn't like to.
My family consists of grandfather, and my grandmother had passed away.
I have uncle, and aunty.
Also, a brother one year younger than me, and a sister . Although my father is the Head of family, after my grandfather, and my father have only son, is me. So, l will eventually be the next Head of family.
Thinking about them, l found myself in a puzzled. How do l tell them about my accident?! Even l try to hide it, this broken leg!…haa!
All the way, l was lost in thoughts and worried.
The bus had stopped on the bus-stop singe. I left the bus and took auto.
A few metres had remained before l reached home. The more distance had less, the more my heart pounding fast. I was nervous, and afraid of those reactions, when they saw me. Unconsciously a vaguefull image of my family had flashed in my mind, made me more uncomfortable.
Vroom! Thud! The taxi had left .
Just a little walk.
Th-ud! Th-ud!
my heart, it's beating.
My feets it's had become stone.
l can't make any courage to move.
Thud-thud-thud! now, or never. I have reached my home, tugging my body.
Two floors, white in colour, and looking vividly, that's my house.
Also, l can hear them…
"Hey, Brother, did you eat my icecream?"
" No. look carefully, the icecream should be there" Pitt, my sister.
"Don't eat the icecream now, it's for the dessert" It is my aunt's voice.
"When, he will arrive?" my father.
Creech! suddenly the door opened. It's my mother.She saw me standing, and smile.
"Aray! Ayush, when you arrived?…" she Halted in half.
"What is?…
when it's happened?…
why…
didn't you tell me?" I'm sorry. l know, she shocked seeing my condition.
I'm very sorry for my nonsensical act. I know, l hurts myself as well as my family. Please, forgive me.
I went in the house.
Everyone was astonished, and asked.
"When did the accident happen?" my grandfather.
"Why didn't you tell us?" My father. "hah, you always, like that. What happened with you, you didn't tell us" my aunty.
"Hey, how did you get in the accident, your not a careless man" my sister.
"Now, step aside this, it's enough that he is fine" my brother, always support me. Hah, l'm sorry for the trouble. Please, forgive me.
"So, what is your condition?" as my grandfather asked,so l said.
there no grenty that my leg might fully recover, even so, l could move it. But, it's hurts.
"Now take a rest, tomorrow morning l'll bring a best doctor…l have fate in him, he can cure your leg" my grandfather! always care about the family.
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I'm in my room. I used to here, during my childhood days.
One by one, my past memories are popping up. I'm laying in the bed, thinking about the past.
Now, we all grew up. Soon, we will all bond in responsibility.
Wham…, suddenly, my mind get empty.
As well as the room is silent and filled with emptyness.
I'm thinking devorusly, everything that happened in my life.
The most thing is bothering me, it's her.
Haa! I want to move on. I already forgive her, and left her.
If l try to return, so what is the meaning of my words.
Even so, it's her who did this!
Why l felt sadness?
Haah, please help me my heart.