At 22 I had no idea what I was looking for, but I knew that I still didn't have it.
I grew up in a house full of siblings which I feel left me with no sense of direction.
Everyone had such large and loud personalities, and I had always been more on the quiet side.
I would rather spectate in most situations versus lending a thought or my opinion.
I carried that habit throughout my life, even to this day.
So much so that at times it would cause me to simply miss out on key things due to inaction.
This next journal entry is partially about that, but more so about...
Well, I'll get to that lol.
Enjoy.
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January 11th, 2012.
Journal #009.
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So I got my new ID for free.
Free is good.
I think I might vote this year.
Or whenever it comes around.
I don't know.
I took a written test again. It's been years.
A lot has changed, so I failed, unfortunately.
But I'll get it.
I can do this, I need to.
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I let many things slip by just not taking action when I could or should have.
I still don't have my driver's license.
Partially because I have simply never really needed it.
Partially because my older brother racked up over $5000.00 worth of tickets in my name (by saying he was me whenever he got pulled over...) that I had to go to court to fight off...
Lastly, the court system took so long to do anything about it that now I am 35 and I don't currently own a car anyway so my bother?
Besides all that, my life had been such a rollercoaster between the ages of 12 and 22 years old, that I simply had little to no time to stop and go take the test, and when I finally did?
I honestly underestimated it and ended up failing due to that and that alone.
I didn't study, I did ask about it.
I simply assumed that I would know most if not everything because how hard could a test about driving really be?
I was young and ignorant and a bit full of myself, you know?
We live and learn.
If we are so inclined to do so.
See you soon folks.
-Redd.