Mass release: 2/25
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The faes and all the surface, underground, ocean, and sky races believe that nine-tailed foxes are a legend, a legend of an ancient divine demon that has long been extinct and its remains thrown in the depths of the Tartarus. In fact, even the demons believed that, until I came to be, not even my parents were able to tell me why I was born a hybrid of fox and succubus when none of them were foxes, nobody was, that shouldn't exist. I shouldn't exist.
Foxes in ancient time were the divine for the demons, like dragons are for the fae, they were the purest of all the purest, they were the legendary type of rare, untamed, dangerous like nothing ever seen before in Hell, and that's why I am the apex predator in there. I shouldn't fear anything, they should fear me. I'm more than a demon, I'm a transcendental being.
However, it takes hard work, sacrifice, and true heart-felt despair to awaken our tails, the more you have, the stronger and wounded you are, it's something I learned on my own. For some reason, I was born a two-tailed fox, it's a mystery I was never able to understand. And I was still a two-tailed when I came here the first time, I awakened my third tail as soon as I got back to Hell, and though I didn't want to admit it, I know it's because of the pain I felt when I left.
In the millennial I spend in Hell before coming here the second time as Alamea, I had a huge black cat as a pet, it was a cat sìth, what some call a hellcat, it was huger than a lion, and it was like my baby, I had named it Hope because it's what she made me feel, I found her in Tartarus while wandering there, but then, in one of times wandering around Tartarus, a 9 feet tall monster ate her, and I lost it. I awakened my 4th tail then, and I destroyed the monster to dust, together with everything alive twenty feet away from me in all directions. I was never able to have another familiar in my life, it felt like I was cheating it, it broke my heart.
My 5th tail I awakened when Kat begged me to take her to play in Tartarus with me, she was a kid back then, she had yet to turn 50 years old, and I was unable to say no when she begged me with those beautiful dark pink doe eyes of her, pouting, my big sister's heart couldn't handle it. So, as I thought she would be safe with me, because of what I am, and I took her there, when we were sitting down near one of the seas that run deep into Tartarus, a demonic sea serpent grabbed her by her feet and dragged her into the water, I went berserk. I didn't even feel the awakening, all I felt was the rawest kind of desperation.
Before I could even think on what to do, I had already awakened and I was diving into the damn sea to get my baby sister, without a care. I think I went more than two hundred feet deep, I don't remember, I couldn't give a shit then, all I could think about was that I had to save Kat, and then I found the sea serpent hiding from me. I cut it's body in a half as it had swallowed her whole, and only after I saved her by taking how out of it and evolving her in my magic, did I kill the beast, I turned it to nothingness, and then I returned to land and made her vomit all the water, and she got so traumatized she doesn't get anywhere close to deep water.
The spikes on the tail of the demonic sea serpent had cut the right side of her ribs from the middle of her back to the middle of her belly and she still got the scar from it, one that she's proud of, but I know it haunts her as it haunts me. I never forgave myself for blinking and letting her get taken like that, maybe that's why I feel so close to her, because we went through that.
I came back to my fairy-tale land as a five-tailed fox, but after all that happened between me and Eric, I awakened my 6th as I passed through the portal, and it didn't take long, with how much I despaired because of how I left him alone in here in the last millennial, for my pain to consume and blind me enough that I would awaken my 7th. 15 years ago, also in one of my wanderings through Tartarus because I couldn't help it, but totally alone, I was bitten by a nightmare demonic snake, and though I killed it and came back home, I blacked-out for a month and through that month I had nightmares with Eric, with how I broke him, with him dying, and that awakened my 8th.
And though I know what got me here, it doesn't feel right that I awakened eight tails in less than three thousand years, it feels... off. I don't think foxes were supposed to be like this, or maybe it's because I'm a changeling fox, because I'm the first fox hybrid with succubus, or maybe something is really different in me. Something I can't put my finger on, but that I feel in my bones, a mystery that is out there for me to discover.
I did such a great job hiding my nature in my last two times in here, but now I barely got here again and I've already screwed up. Maybe it's because I've been too much on edge about being here again, or maybe because the more tails I have the stronger my fox nature becomes, the hardest to contain, the more overly protective over me and those around me it gets. But that doesn't erases the fact that I've just screwed up majestically so, Tartarus under me.
I turned during my land from the portal, changing entirely.
All my senses felt clouded as I stood up, my long hair now white with the edges dark cherry red and wavy, falling beyond my hips, an aura of divinity covering my entire body, my claws crossing throughout my black leather gloves, as red as blood with no nail polish in them, in my right arm I was carrying Bianca, while the other was lifted in front of me for combat.