Is my mind not so fickle, I want to die one day yet now I scream Live,fight, struggle and keep going. I tell myself, there will be light at the end of the tunnel, and I get there just to see the tunnel fall. BUT again I scream to fight if the tunnel collapses dig Yourself out. No matter how hard the world hits me I'll give it back ten fold. With my fellow brothers and sisters a eye for a eye is terrible. So if my friends harm me I can forgive them, because I know the world has also harmed you. But if the world were to stab me I'll take more then an eye because the world isn't fair, so why should I be fair to it. Maybe tomorrow my greatest desire will be death, or maybe I'll have none. But all these thoughts are because of the fickleness of the mind. When the world is dark understand someone else's world is dark. So be the light, be there helping hand, so maybe they can help someone else. What is the point of doing Good if you want something in return, I say to you that if you truly want to do good just helping someone should be the light of your world. What kind person holds your trauma over you, who says "I helped you when you were down so you owe me" that isn't kindness, it's fear. You're terrified of being alone when you're hurt. Just like I am, but does your fear out way the Good of you, does it out way your love. I want you to understand we understand you. You are not alone.How much I yearn to be held to hear the sweet words of "I love you" yet never hear them. How I crave to what others have yet know I can never take them. But does this stop me from showing kindness no, why, because I know what it's like to not find love. So how could I leave you alone when you go threw the same as me. When you see yourself what do you think, truly what do you think. Figure out who you are because you are beautiful. What does beauty matter to fool like me. A man who can't understand it. A man who sees the world and sees blues and grays. I ask you to search for that understanding. To form thoughts and ideas of how the world works. It doesn't matter if it's been thought of before,or even if it's believed by many. All that matters is you figured it out yourself. It becomes that much more meaningful to you. It will stick with you far longer than being taught something. So find love and understand it and you will be happy in the darkest of times. Yet take these words with a grain of salt as all your reading are the thoughts of a fickle man.