"William!" I walked over to him to apologize for hurting him but he bent the knee right in front of me and bowed his head as he said: I'm sorry Luna. I was completely astonished and lifted his chin to look into his now misty eyes before asking: I could have killed you! What the fuck do you have to be sorry about?
I must have said it harsher then I meant because I saw Anna in the corner of my eye flinch at my tone, William answered: I scared you Luna. I cupped his face taking him by surprise and I felt Leos hand touch my back. I spoke calmly but firmly for him to take me seriously: I am the one who is sorry for hurting you, I couldn't see clearly or hear anything but William… you did nothing wrong, do not ever apologize again for doing your job.
I took his hand and pulled up signaling him to stand and when he did I leaned up and hugged him around his neck and thanked him for doing his best. I turned around and Leo wrapped an arm around my neck as he walked me back into the group with William following behind.
We sat together while we ate breakfast and drank coffee, we talked about the preparations and the expectation of what the night would bring. All the while Lorna talking in my head about each person and their wolf who spoke, It started to feel like an extra layer of protection and I found myself feeling at ease with her in my head, I didnt expect it to be so comfortable but it was.
Leo said he had work to do so I took Annas hand and drug her away from the table and back to the room, we stopped by her and Doms room to pick up the clothes we had bought her, once we were back at my room I started to run a bubble bath and got in as I listened to her talking about tonight and what to expect with the transition.
"I dont know, after what Leo found out about me, it might actually be a lot worse then what others feel" Anna walked in as I spoke, she jumped out of shock and her eyes slammed shut as she yelled out: Oh god Luna I'm so sorry, I didn't know you were in the tub. I laughed and replied: Well we're both girls its no big deal Anna, I thought you Werewolves weren't weird about being naked? Hell I think you're more freaked out about it then I was and I was human.
Her head fell and I could see tears fall to her shoes below I reached my hand up and quietly spoke: Anna come here, whats wrong? She walked towards me taking my hand in hers and falling to her knees crying. I leaned over the bath tub to hug with just my arms as she sobbed, we sat like that for near 5 minutes before she finally spoke: I know it's abnormal to be a full grown Werewolf thats afraid to be naked around others, its completely natural to be naked especially when we shift as often as we do but after the things I've been through I dont know if I can. Tonight will be my first shift with the pack and Im feeling anxious.
"Well talking about it helps, why dont you tel me why you're scared" I leaned back to look at her and gave her a supportive smile as she took a deep breath and continued: My parents had died when I was little and the Alpha from my former pack ordered a couple who couldnt have kids to take me in, they were nice at first but the husband drank and the wife resented me, she wanted her own pups and I was a constant reminder that she couldnt have her own. They kept me in my room the majority of my life there and would tell people I was shy. As the years went on the worse they got with their abuse, it started with just telling me I was nothing and that no one would love me, that the Moon Goddess would never give me a mate because I wasn't worthy of one. Then it started to get physical, at first just a slap here and there then it progressed until one night the husband came home drunk, he beat me with his belt so badly that I ended up in the pack infirmary, the Dr. said the cuts were so severe that even our wolf healing couldn't prevent the scaring. The Alpha took me from them and I stayed in the pack house after that until Dom found me.
I was never allowed to shift with the pack when I lived with them but after the scars I didn't want to. I haven't told Dom and it is the reason we haven't fully mated yet. I'm so scared he will reject me, or worse that he wont but instead he will try to avenge me and die in the process. Its been a million scenarios that have played in my head over and over since the day we met and I dont know what to do.
I listened to her trying to keep my face expressionless the entire time but inside my entire body felt like molten lava as anger pierced through my entire being. I wanted to rip off their heads, I wanted to make every single person involved pay for hurting one of my people What the fuck is wrong with me? Hearing what they did made me feel f sick to my stomach. My face became red with anger but I held it in as Lorna kept me calm. I listened as this sweet soul told me her life story and when she was done she looked at me with anxious tear filled eyes to see how I would respond, if I would look at her differently. I pulled her into my embrace and held her head to my shoulder as I said: No one will ever hurt you like that again Anna. No one! You're safe here and no one will reject you. I pulled away to look at her face as I said: If Dom was to exact revenge on those who hurt you, he wouldn't die, because we would be right there with him. But I know he will not reject you and I think you should tell him everything you told me, and I also think you should complete your bond because it will give you the strength to move past all if the pain and the fear.
I smiled as I said: I am not the most comfortable being naked around other people either especially those I dont know, you will shift with me tonight! Her eyes widened but she relaxed and nodded her head.
The door flew open causing the door handle to go through the wall and we both screamed at the surprise of Leo standing in the doorway seething in anger his eyes were pitch black and there was a vain popping out of his forehead that I hadn't seen before. He started looking around us frantically as if he expected an enemy to pop out of the cupboard: Leo whats wrong?
He looked at Anna making her bow her head in intimidation before he moved his head slightly towards me as he mind linked me: Lilly what the fuck just happened? I looked at him dumbfounded and responded: What are you talking about?
He sighed and said out loud: Anna can you please excuse us? She quickly made it to her feet and ran out the door shutting it behind her without saying a word. He walked over to me looking over my body and my face and into my eyes as if he was searching for something, I shrugged his hands off me yelling: Leo what is going on?
"I was in my office with Dom and William going over plans for tonight when I felt you, it felt like someone had physically stabbed you, I felt your anger too, as if someone had done the worse possible thing to you. I thought someone was hurting you" His eyes started to well with tears as his hands returned to my body and he collapsed the bubbles that were covering my body as he took me into his arms.
I cupped his face and kissed him gently and wiped the tears from his eyes as I explained: No one hurt me, Anna told me what had happened to her in her past and I did feel pain for her, I also felt more anger than I knew was possible. Is that a normal thing?
"Its normal for your feelings to be heightened but with your Primordial genes, we have no idea what you will experience, my father said you were practically royalty because of how rare you are but that really just means no one will know what to expect." He helped me out of the tub and wrapped his robe around me lifting me in his arms and carrying me out of the bathroom to find Anna on the bed suddenly very uncomfortable, she stood looking both ways like a cornered feral cat.
"Anna its okay, Leo is leaving and its tie for you to have your own bubble bath" I wiggled out of his grip to stand up and he pulled me to him, kissing me deeply before letting me go and slapping my butt as he turned to leave. I heard a low growl and he stopped to turn towards me before I realized the growl cam from my mouth, from Lorna. My eyes got big as Leo raised a brow at me, Lorna was turned on by him smacking my ass, the feminist in me wanted to be angry but the Werewolf in me wanted the man in me. He knew exactly what I wanted as his eyes flash ed black and then back again, he walked out laughing and I was left aching with desire.