I got under the covers to take my clothes off and laid completely naked in the bed hoping he would take the hint and make love to me without me saying anything but instead he wrapped his arms around me and fell asleep. It took me a while longer to drift off to sleep and when I finally did it wasn't much better. I was in Leo's bed once again, hundreds of candles lit the room, I laid out on the bed completely naked and waiting for him. When he entered the room his face was stern and he asked: What do you want? I looked at him confused because I thought it was quite obvious what I wanted: I want you, I want you inside of me, I want you to make love to me. I stood up smiling as I went to him, I slid one hand up his shirt from his abs to his shoulder as the other hand unbuckled his pants, I want y…
He interrupted me by grabbing my shoulders and forcing me to take two steps back. He sneered at me with a look of disgust as he pulled his shirt down and his words were like venom burning through my veins as he spoke: Let me be clear. I will never want you, this whole thing was a mistake.
"Leo… I don't understand" Tears instantly flowed down my cheeks as I shook my head not wanting to accept the reality of what he was saying.
He just looked at me indifferently as he added: I don't expect you to understand, your just a human.
I fell to the ground sobbing hysterically as I watched his feet withdraw from the room, reaching out and screaming for him to return as the door slammed shut. I felt my shoulders being shaken as I turned to find myself back in bed and Leo was calling my name: LILLY! LILLY PLEASE WAKE UP! I looked at him momentarily unable to tell my dream apart from my reality as I said: Why did you leave?
"What are you talking about? I never left you Lilly, I will never leave you, it was just a dream, just a bad bad dream" I looked at him and before I could gather my senses I spoke again: You will leave though, because I am just a human, you said it yourself.
"Lilly I never said that, I don't think that and I never will, please baby believe me." His tears were now falling down his red cheeks as he panicked trying to convince me. My mind started to clear and my dream started to separate from the waking world and I sat up to look at him. I sat for a few moments him waiting patiently for me to speak before I finally did: I'm scared… I'm scared you don't actually love me even though you show me you do. I'm scared of giving all of myself to you for you to discover you don't want me because I am just a human.
He looked at me and sighed before saying: Lilly did you not understand? I looked at him confused and he inhaled sharply before emptying his lungs into an exacerbated sigh as a stray tear rolled out the corner of one of his eye and down his cheek. I lifted my hand and wiped the tear as he continued: I'm so sorry Lilly I thought you understood, when we mate and we mark each other we become as one. That means you would become a part of the pack… You would become a Werewolf.
My eyes went wide and my mouth parted as I jumped up putting Leo's robe on and started to pace the room as I tried to process everything he had just said. What are my options really? I either let him mark me and become a Werewolf or I don't and the counsel comes after me. Best case scenario is that I go into hiding and maybe get away but that would mean either ruining my family's lives to take them with me or never see them again and maybe the counsel leaves them alone or maybe they kill them. The only thing I am 100% sure of in this entire mess is that I love him, I can't live without it, it will kill me. I looked over at Leo sitting on the edge of the bed, his whole body looked deflated in defeat as his gaze was locked on the floor. He thinks I'm leaving him, that I cant handle it. I don't know if I can handle it but I know I cant handle losing him I walked over to stand about 2 feet away, taking in the sight of him. That's when I saw it, he looked the way I felt in my nightmare as he walked away. He is just as terrified that I will reject him as I am of him rejecting me. It felt like my heart skipped a beat and butterflies attacked my stomach at the realization of his feelings for me, not that he hadn't told me how he felt, but knowing it and believing it are two different things.
I closed the distance between us and lifted his chin for him to look at me his eyes were full of worry. I took his face in my hands and kissed his cheek below his eye, I kissed his forehead and then his lips softly, I pulled back to see worry replaced with confusion so I clarified: I don't know if I can handle being transformed into a Werewolf.
His face started to lower and I tilted it back up towards me and continued: But I know that I cannot handle losing you Leo. I allowed myself to be filled with longing for him and I felt a heat rise inside of me as I became aroused by the thought of him touching me. I took a deep breath Here we go I untied the robe I was wearing and let it fall into a puddle around my feet. I looked at his stunned face and for the first time in my life I didn't turn red or feel afraid, in fact I felt free. I took his hand and placed it on my hip, I took his other hand and kissed the bottom of his palm before lowering it to my breast. I looked deep into his eyes and without hesitation I said: I feel like I have waited my entire life for you to set me free. I've waited my entire life to say I want you, I want you to make love to me.