I always knew that I was different than the rest...but I would've never expected that I was that kind of different. What happened with Mary those years ago is something I'll never forget ever.
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August 29th, 1952Manhattan, New York
My name is Mary Taylor. I am 13 years old! Most people don't like me after they get to know me! But... it doesn't matter to me; they're all mooks! This is my life, therefore it's my story, and I'm the main character. Everyone else is just there for my character development! Or, to be frank, to be my pawns for my own benefit! Call me crazy, selfish, whatever; like I said, I don't care! You're nothing more than a pawn too! <3Anyways... it's my first week at a new school because I had too much drama with the girls at my other school! There's this one girl in my class... her name is like... Vicky or something? I don't really know. But I heard the girls in our class whispering to each other that they think she's a total lesbo! Gross, right? Of course, she doesn't know about these rumors or that that's why she doesn't have friends, but I do! And I'm going to use it to my advantage.My plan is to make her fall in love with me... that way, she'll do anything I want! And, I just like the attention too! I do hope she's not too unbearable, though... we'll see!I approached her already with a flirty tone and gave her a stupid nickname, "vita". I could tell that my plan was already working because she teased back...gross...lets hope she doesn't get too attached to me. Is this going too far? Oh, well! A gal's got to do what a gal's got to do! Wish me luck! <3
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September 1st, 1952Manhattan, New York
Haha! She's actually stupid! Today, I asked her what she thought about lesbians!"Hey... Vita? How do you feel about... 𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘣𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘴?""Um... I don't really care... I think they're... over hated?""Right??? You get it!!! Like, why do people care so much!? It's really not that big of a deal!"And then, I began joking with her about going to the drive-ins and making out! Perfect! What really pulled it together is when I drew her in a damn wedding dress! I saw the look in her eyes... I just knew I succeeded!I learned the smartest tactic to getting someone absolutely obsessed with you is to show them interest in the beginning, and then pull away! They'll be confused and wonder what they did wrong! Then keep doing the cycle over and over, and once you're done with them, just toss them aside!Victoria Payne, you are an utter idiot...but, it's not my fault! You only have yourself to blame! ✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦September 8th, 1952Manhattan, New York
Maybe this is kind of mean... but the only way to survive in this world is to manipulate or get manipulated, so who cares! I'm just surviving.Anyways, today, I've been teasing her nonstop! She's kinda gross-looking when she smiles... but she's also kinda cute...? Ugh, ew! Never mind, I never thought that. ✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦September 14, 1952
Manhattan, New York
I've been practicing for drama club by making her act out a romance story with me. Somehow, our faces get really close... I kind of blush at it...! Ew, but no! I'm not a perverted lesbo like that girl... she's only there to help me. Nothing more, nothing less. ✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦September 20th, 1952
Manhattan, New York
Ugh! I got into a fight with one of the older girls today! I know I'm in the right; I'm not gonna say why we fought because it's gonna look like she's right when she's really not!Anyways, thank God I got Victoria to be obsessed with me so she could help back me up! Perfect! <3 ✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦September 22nd, 1952Manhattan, New York
Omg! Today we had a math test I didn't even study for! But Victoria let me copy her answers. Our hands touched a few times, and it kind of set my heart to beat... but I rebuke any good thoughts about her!
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I'm documenting this in combination because there's nothing interesting that happened! Other than Victoria being a fool! I mean, she lets me copy off her homework answers, tests, etc.! And she always defends me in fights. I mean, how dumb does she have to be? All because I give her the slightest amount of attention. Easy!This feels so great! Or... maybe a part of it doesn't? ✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦October 28th, 1952Manhattan, New York
Today, I suggested we dress up as Cinderella and her prince for Halloween, but she said everyone would think of us as queer (weird), so instead I suggested a sleepover. Maybe that's not a good idea, though... don't want her pouncing on the other girls! Hahaha! Well, maybe I do kind of want to spend time with her? She's not sooo insufferable.
I also told her I was bi so she thinks she has a chance with me... but I'm not a freak, so it's a lie! I have a crush on our class clown, Auggie! I mean, how can I not? He's so funny, and cute, and everything!!!✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦October 31st, 1952Manhattan, New York
I think I went a bit too far...? When she got here and tried to call me the stupid nickname she gave me, I told her not to call me that because I wasn't a lesbian and I'm normal. But, I mean, it's the truth, ain't it? And the girls are already beginning to make rumors about us! Gross.Whatever... To somewhat make up for it, when we went to the shopping center with the other girls, I snuck off with her and told her it was our own little date. Later, we played a game where we revealed our crushes, and obviously, I spoke all about Auggie! She looked disappointed, but, oh well! Her fault for thinking she had a chance. Or for thinking I was a gross lesbo like her!Later, we watched a romance movie, and I laid on her lap. Not gonna lie... when we made eye contact... I felt something... but, gross! No, no! Ugh... I'll get rid of her soon. Then my mind won't lie to me telling me I like her. Besides, I don't want to be known as a lesbo like her. Yuck!✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦September 2nd, 1952Manhattan, New York
I think I did something a bit too mean. Today, I told everyone Victoria was a lesbian, and they all laughed at her. I did too! But... it's not really my fault! They started saying stuff about me after our sleepover, so I had to remove the attention from me and onto her! It's only fair! It's either eat or get eaten in this world.✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦September 3rd - December 31st, 1952
Manhattan, New York
I'm putting this all together because, again... only Victoria being a fool. I mean, because of me, all of our classmates make fun of her and call her a lesbian. Christmas break is almost over as I'm writing this... maybe she'll have thought things over.It's not my fault she's not smart enough to realize that I don't actually like her! I pity the dumb girl. Even I make fun of her, and she deals with it for what? Just a small bit of attention? When will she learn her lesson? It's not my fault though... her fault for being a mook!✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦January 5th, 1953
Manhattan, New York
Well, today was our first day back from Christmas break... and shoot! Someone's finally learned their lesson. She's refusing to help me cheat on tests, do my homework, and she told me to knock it off when I was calling her a lesbo! Ugh... she was fun to play with for a while. At least she's learned her lesson!Maybe she won't be such a dumb girl. I mean honestly... she's gross to think I could like her. Also... I don't know how I managed to forget to write about this, but Auggie and I dated a bit, and then he broke up with me! Ugh! How could he!? I did nothing for him to do that! SO mean! Breaking up with me? Mean...! At least the girls in my class still see me as a perfect little angel! <3✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦January 6th, 1953 - May 31st, 1953
Manhattan, New York
Victoria is SUCH a jerk! She refuses to do ANYTHING for me! She called me a "morally incorrect" person! What a damn nerd! I never liked her in the first place... she's so annoying. I can't believe her? Just WHO does she think she is!? I hate her.✦•······················•🪻•······················•✦June 1st, 1953
Manhattan, New York
Victoria is going to a high school in Brooklyn now. How stupid! Is she trying to get away from me? Whatever... I'll tell everyone she left because she was obsessed with me and I told her I'm not a gross lesbo like her!I go to theater class with some girls from the Brooklyn high school... I'll tell them the same and tell them to warn the other girls about her! She wants to give me the cold shoulder? I'll make sure high school is hell for her!୧‿̩͙ ˖︵ ꕀ⠀ 🖊️ ⠀ ꕀ ︵˖ ‿̩͙୨June 1st, 1956(Victoria pov)
Freshman through junior year were hell. I'm glad it's over. I walked down the hall, and the girls screamed, "Pervert, pervert!" "Ewww... dyke!" "Ohh no! Someone help! The lesbian is here!" I mean, what the hell? Damn you, Mary... I bet you told them stupid stuff.I wonder how they would feel if they knew the things you said to me in middle school? How you manipulated me and played with my feelings.I'm so glad it's over with, and I'm moving to Los Angeles. I hope it'll be fine there... I'll be more careful this time. I won't fall in love nor get too attached to someone too quickly. I swear on it! Never again!