I smack his hand from my shoulder and turn to glare at him. "Tell me that you really believe that. Please say you truly think they're alive, that she's alive. Cause if you don't you have to stop telling me that, it's cruel. I'm scared, scared that I'll be all alone, that nobody will be left at the end of this catastrophe and it feels like you're not even taking me seriously. It's just you and me at the moment, if I can't trust you, who could I? You're only lying to me so that I don't break down cause that would stop me from protecting you, you don't even care about me. And yes, we just had our first decent conversation so I can understand that but if you don't care about me you have to stop pretending to. I can fucking handle it, okay? I'm used to people not liking me. And If...", I take a deep breath, "If nobody is in there then there surely at least is evidence of their whereabouts and i-if there are...b-bodies...then I will find my new purpose in life in avenging them but I won't break my promise, you're safe with me until I brought you to your house successfully." Yes, good, I have to think like that. I may sound confident on the outside but I'm nervous, I don't know what to do, don't know if hoping that she's okay is nothing but a silly dream. I really don't want her to be gone.....Rein.... he's already gone I-...I don't want to loose her too. Without her I'll be all alone, there will be nobody in this god-awful world that cares about me anymore. I know the idiot doesn't, he's just scared to die.
He interrupts my dark trail of thoughts. "Really? You really think you can handle it? Then tell me why you're already shaking when we haven't even stepped inside yet. You're strong, Khestri, I know you are, but I can clearly tell see that you're panicking. You're being unfair right now. I'm just trying to help, I know that I'm pretty useless in combat but I can at least support you mentally. Yes, I'm scared to die but who wouldn't be?", he snorts and looks at me, really looks at me with a sad smile, "Pretty much everyone I've ever met is probably dead already. I grew up in this town, we both did. I've never been outside the walls and now we have to run away or else we're dead just like everyone else. Do you really think there's a single person existing that wouldn't be scared if they were in our situation? Our whole life has been completely ruined in a single day, we're completely fucked."