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Chapter 36 - Chapter 6: Cold Feet

As the wedding day drew closer, a subtle tension began to creep into Samuel's usually calm demeanor. It started with small things—his mind wandering during conversations with Tatiana, his sudden silences when discussing wedding plans, and the way he avoided talking about the ceremony. Tatiana, always in tune with his emotions, could sense something was off, though she couldn't quite put her finger on it.

One evening, after another long day of finalizing the wedding details, Tatiana found Samuel sitting on the balcony of their shared apartment, staring into the distance. The cool night breeze ruffled his hair, and the usual warmth in his eyes was replaced with uncertainty. She knew it was time to address what had been bubbling under the surface.

"Hey," Tatiana said softly, taking a seat beside him. "You've been quiet lately. Is everything okay?"

Samuel didn't respond right away. Instead, he sighed deeply, his eyes still fixed on the horizon. After what felt like an eternity, he finally spoke. "I don't know, Tatiana. I just... I've been thinking a lot."

The weight of his words hit Tatiana like a wave. She had expected something was wrong, but hearing him say it out loud made her stomach twist. "About what?" she asked, her voice gentle but probing.

Samuel hesitated, running his hand through his hair. "The wedding, the future, everything. It's all happening so fast, and I don't know if I'm ready for it. I'm worried that maybe... maybe we're rushing things."

Tatiana felt her heart skip a beat. They had been planning this day for months, and everything had seemed perfect. But now, here he was, questioning it all. "Are you having second thoughts about marrying me?" Her voice wavered slightly as she asked the question she had been dreading.

"No," Samuel quickly replied, his voice firm. "It's not that. I love you, Tatiana, more than anything. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, but... I'm scared."

Tatiana exhaled in relief, but she wasn't entirely reassured. "Scared of what?"

Samuel turned to face her, his eyes full of vulnerability. "What if I'm not good enough? What if I can't give you the life you deserve? I'm not like you, Tatiana. I'm not as outgoing, not as... well, I'm just me. And I'm worried that someday you'll realize you could've done better."

Tatiana's heart ached for him. She had always known that Samuel carried these insecurities, but hearing him voice them so openly hurt more than she expected. She took his hand in hers, squeezing it tightly.

"Samuel, you're everything I could ever want," she said, her voice full of conviction. "I didn't fall in love with you because you're like me. I fell in love with you because you're you—quiet, thoughtful, kind. I don't need flashy gestures or constant excitement. I need you, just the way you are."

Samuel looked at her, his eyes searching for reassurance. "But what if I mess it all up? What if I'm not good at being a husband? I don't want to disappoint you."

Tatiana smiled softly, leaning in to rest her forehead against his. "You won't disappoint me, Samuel. No one's perfect. We're going to make mistakes, we're going to face challenges, but we'll do it together. That's what marriage is about. It's not about being perfect—it's about growing together, supporting each other, and loving each other even when things get hard."

Her words seemed to ease some of the tension in Samuel's shoulders. He closed his eyes for a moment, taking a deep breath. "I just... I don't want to lose you."

"You won't," Tatiana whispered. "You're stuck with me for life."

Samuel chuckled softly at that, the warmth slowly returning to his eyes. "I guess I can live with that."

Tatiana leaned in and kissed him gently, letting her love speak louder than any words could. They sat there for a while, wrapped in each other's presence, the cool night air carrying away the weight of Samuel's doubts.

As the night wore on, Tatiana realized that this moment, this conversation, was just another step in their journey together. Samuel's cold feet didn't mean he didn't love her—they meant he cared deeply, enough to worry about their future. And that, in itself, was a testament to how much he wanted their marriage to succeed.

By the time they headed back inside, the tension had lifted, replaced by a quiet determination. They would face the wedding day, and every day after that, as a team. Together, they were stronger than any fear or doubt.

And Tatiana knew that no matter what, they were ready for whatever the future held.