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Chapter 4 - I Did Marry My Crush CHAPTER 4

Hostel

SHAH

(Typing…)

Can I ask you a question?

FIONA

Yes meow?

SHAH

What do you like about me?

I mean I'm not that good looking.

I'm not wearing branded things too.

FIONA

Pfffttt.. Oh, just that. I thought you were asking a serious question. Meow

Well, to me you look cool. First impression, you got me looking at you.

I like your style somehow. Meow.

NANA and KINA thought the same too. Meow.

SHAH

(Both of them too? Their level is too high for me. I'm outta their league.)

(FIONA alone already gave me a lot of insecurities.)

Do you think so? 

All this time I have insecurities.

Thanks for telling me that.

FIONA

No sweat! meow.

Don't worry. A lot of people have insecurities. Hahaks

(͠≖ ͜ʖ͠≖)

We continue chatting and as times fly, next week is Semester Break for 3 months. FIONA and I planned to have dinner together along with some of our classmates.

We had dinner after class and talked about how we survived during the first semester. FIONA said she bought a firecracker and wanted to play it with me. We separated to take a bath, FIONA will borrow one of our girl classmates for a bath and we decided to meet at Children's Park around 8pm.

Suddenly I got a call from FIZ.

(Phone Ringing)

SHAH

(It's FIZ, What does he want now?)

Hello, FIZ what is it?

FIZ

SHAH, help me… I have a fever, I can't move…

SHAH

(This time? I already had plans with FIONA. But he looked fine at our dinner before…)

Is there anyone home? KIM or someone else?

FIZ

No, I'm alone. I don't know where the other's.

SHAH

O-ok, wait I'll come to you.

I use BOB motorcycle to fetch FIZ and take him to the nearest pharmacy.

(Phone Ringing)

FIONA

Hello, SHAH where are you?

I am already at the park with WAN.

SHAH

I'm at the pharmacy now, taking FIZ to buy some medication. He has a fever…

It'll take some time, maybe 15 minutes or so.

FIONA

Ok, I'll wait for you here… Be quick, bye.

SHAH

Ok, I will… Bye.

15 Minutes have passed…

(Phone ringing)

FIONA

Are you not done yet ?

SHAH

Y-yeah, done already.

I'm going there. I'll send FIZ back first.

FIONA

Ok. 

After sending FIZ back, I quickly go to the park and see a very unsightly event. KIM is there…He's playing firecracker, the firecracker whom FIONA wants to play with me is in his hands. FIONA at the swing alone. She saw me and stood up but I just couldn't react or say anything. My heart breaks right there... I was speechless, my ears couldn't hear anything, my head felt hot, my hands were sweating and I got a cold shoulder... Felt like time stopped for a moment. I start the bike, and go straight to the hostel. Turned the phone off, I don't want to hear anything… I want peace, I want to sleep.

BOB

Look at our guy, what with your face? Something happened?

(I can't speak, but tears come out and I go straight to bed. I shared a room with ADYB.)

ADYB

WHAT'S WRONG?

SHAH

....

ADYB

SUITS YOURSELF!

(Continue playing guitar. It's a sad vibe, damn you ADYB.)

(Then I went to the AME room because it has a veranda.)

ZAM

What FIONA do this time…

AME

ZAM! Let him cool down first, you come downstairs.

ZAM

O-ok, SHAH if you need anything we are downstairs.

SHAH

Thanks…

(I just sat on the veranda alone and cried…)

This hurt so much, for the first in my life I felt heartbroken.

(1 hour passed, i'm collected and went downstairs. Tell all my friends what happened. They were furious and shocked. )

AME

It's ok buddy, you have us all here…

BOB

Yeahhh, forget about that bitch. She doesn't deserve my friend.

ZAM

You still have ADYB. They're the same though.

ADYB

FIONA IS BITCH!

(Continue playing guitar.)

SHAH

Thanks guys…

The next day is Semester Break. All of us are going back to our home. We all said goodbyes and separated. I turned the phone on and there's so many missed calls and texts from FINA. It hurts just by seeing her name displayed. We promised to make memories before Semester Break but she chose to be with KIM. She shouldn't have invited me in the first place.

Home

(Phone Ringing)

SHAH

(It's FIONA, She never stopped.)

What do you want? I'm not KIM, you mistaken?

FIONA

Why are you ignoring all my calls and texts?

I tried to reach you and even called BOB, he said harsh words to me.

Sorry about what happened last night, I didn't invite KIM.

You know I waited there until 11pm. I waited for you, SHAH.

SHAH

Why are you wasting time waiting for me, KIM is there. You guys had fun right?

Playing firecrackers together, OUR FIRECRACKERS.

Hmph, I've been suspecting you guys for a long time. Now god has shown me seeing KIM together with you in front of my eyes.

FIONA

Didn't I tell you I did not invite him, he came by himself.

Why won't you believe me?

SHAH

This is the second time, there will be no third time.

I want a breakup. I can't stand it anymore.

You go to KIM. That's what you always wanted right.

Now you and him can do anything you want.

BYE.

(FIONA didn't contact me after that until night came.)

(Phone Notification)

IZA

SHAH, you broke up with FIONA?

Why? 

SHAH

Why don't you ask her, she's beside you right.

IZA

Whoa, don't be mad at me.

She's not talking much today.

She is just being alone all the time.

SHAH

Then wait till she speaks.

Hah, not talking much. She's busy texting with KIM.

IZA

Who's KIM?

SHAH

You are asking too many questions, Bye.

IZA

Wait, since you broke up with her.

Why don't you and me… together?

SHAH

What do you mean?

IZA

(Received MMS)

It's me.

SHAH

(What the hell, She's only wearing a bra.)

Why are you sending me this?

IZA

Am I good? Do I catch your interest?

SHAH

It's sexy, too revealing.

Do you always do this?

IZA

No, I only showed it to you.

SHAH

I don't understand.

IZA

Let's do it… with me..

Sex…

I want to do it with you.

SHAH

(What the hell!)

(Is she real? Or is she just playing.)

(But she did give me her photo, it's very tempting though.)

(This is the first time a girl asked me for sex. I wanted to try.)

In an instant I was so hyped, my sadness was gone instantly. Since I don't have anything with FIONA, I thought it was a good idea.

SHAH

Ok then, where will we meet?

IZA

I don't know. Do you know a good hotel?

I don't have experience.

SHAH

(Do I look like I have experience?)

I'll survey first and update you later.

IZA

Alright dear, hehe.

SHAH

(Whoa, what is this? A Break up is not so bad after all. I should buy a condom too.)

(Phone Notification)

FIONA

YOU WHAT!

ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?

SHE'S MY COUSIN, MY FUCKING COUSIN!

SHAH

(Fuckkkkkkkk!!!!, It's FINA, How did she know? Of course, It's her cousin, damn it. They are side by side. Fuckkkkkkkkk! Oh god what do I reply, what do I say damn it!)

FIONA

You have shown your true self eh. Funny, you dumped me and then this?

You want to have sex with my cousin, of all people. Do you forget you have me?

SHAH

I just tested the water with her, I knew it's not gonna work.

I'm just playing with her. 

IZA

Dear, you said you want it. Why are you denying it now? Do you want it or not?

SHAH

(Fuck, they must be plotting together to trap me. Damn… this situation, there's no turning back. Whatever happens, gonna happen.)

I don't want it, I'm just playing with you before.

Even If I want, it's with FIONA, not you.

(The hell I said.)

FIONA

We are done, you know… We had nothing after this.

You're the one who said it, you're the one who wants a breakup.

SHAH

Yeahh, you must be happy right, should be planning what to do with KIM when the new semester starts.

Lots of things, no SHAH anymore.

FIONA

What do you know? I'm crying day and night.

And here you are, FLIRTING! We just had a breakup today.

It's enough SHAH. Bye.

SHAH

(Damn it, what did I do? I'm not thinking straight.)

IZA

Hello? Are you there?

SHAH

Why are you telling her?

IZA

I thought she wouldn't care because both of you had broke up. I just wanted to share with her my new boyfriend.

SHAH

You what? you crazy bitch you know. I didn't know you and didn't even meet you.

I only love FIONA, I love her.

(The way I try to fix things, I make it look even worse.)

IZA

Dear, why did you say that? You said you wanted sex with me right?

SHAH

(Fucking bitch, should block her number.)

Damn it… In one night. All the blame was turned on me.

God… What did I just do… FIONA… She must be hating me by now.

I'm sorry…

A week later I worked part time at a fabric retailer, and started working there. On some random day I met RIN.

RIN

SHAH? Are you working here?

SHAH

Eh, RIN! What a coincidence. Haha.

I'm in Semester Break, not doing anything so I work here.

RIN

Oh I see, I'm on Semester Break too.

I always come here to buy fabric for my cosplay project.

SHAH

I see… Are you okay with your boyfriend?

RIN

Yeahh, we are on good terms. Fighting sometimes is normal.

How about you?

SHAH

No, I've been single since day one at college. Haha

RIN

What about the anime girl?

SHAH

Well… she likes her senior, not my chance haha.

RIN

It's ok, you will find someone later. 

SHAH

Haha. Yeah… hope so.

(We talked a bit more and after she paid I walked her out with goodbye.)

I spent all of Semester Break working while trying to forget FIONA, so I thought of switching courses. I submitted my proposal to switch to Graphic Design courses. It's too embarrassing to see FIONA after this, after what I do... There's no way we could be together again because it's her family related. My proposal was accepted and for the next semester I will be in a new environment and start fresh.

New Semester will start today and the lecturer will announce my courses switch in the class. I was called to the front and talked about my switching. I saw FIONA, she's not even looking at me. Yeah… to her I'm the grossest person ever. Then the lecturer walked me to Graphic Design class and introduced me. Besides me, there's another new student from the new batch. 

Class

ERYN

Hei, SHAH

Why are you switching?

You left FIONA alone there.

SHAH

(She didn't know about our breakup.)

I like drawing, maybe Graphic Design is my path since I can't do medical.

FIONA's ok there I think... She has a lot of admirers.

ERYN

You don't get jealous? Hahah.

SHAH

Why would I? We're not together anymore.

She got KIM with him. They're lovebirds now.

ERYN

What! You guys breakup already?

KIM? He is a joke you know…

Anyway sorry, I didn't know.

ERYN then left. In Graphic Design courses ERYN is most popular among guys. I can see some seniors even have the hate look on me for the first impression because ERYN somehow closed with me as a newcomer.

After lunch and on the way back to class.

NANA

SHAH! Wait up.

SHAH

(NANA?)

Y-yeah what's up.

NANA

Your switching courses is shocking news to us, why?

SHAH

I think I can't go on, Medical not suit me. I like drawing though.

NANA

You're good at it I think, I can see you can answer most of the questions during class.

This is so sudden.

SHAH

(She's watching me all this time?)

DEEBAH

Something happened with FIONA? You guys have not talked yet this new semester.

We all notice it.

NANA

Y-yeah, is it?

SHAH

(Damn, my cover is blown.)

We have nothing anymore, please don't talk about her.

DEEBAH

I see that's why…

Let's go NANA. Class starts soon.

NANA

Alright, See you SHAH!

SHAH

Yeahhh… have fun

FIONA walked out of the library, I turned around and ignored her. ERYN was with her.

Hostel

Tonight DEEBAH and her housemate cook extra food and invite us to join them over.

BOB

Noiceee, free food!!!

DEEBAH

We are celebrating for the new semester, it's good to see you guys again.

SHAH, follow me Inside. I want to talk with you.

NIZA

Hei, don't rape him yet!

He's still heartbroken.

DEEBAH

Shut up! Like hell I'll tell you if I rape him. (Giggle)

SHAH

(What the hell with these girls.)

What is it?

DEEBAH close the door.

(The hell, is she really gonna rape me now?)

DEEBAH

You broke up with FIONA right, we all know KIM like her. Almost every day he will wait for her at the entrance.

SHAH

Yeah, KIMI likes her and she likes KIM too. I knew about it…

DEEBAH

How do you know? From what I see, FIONA always avoids him. There's a day FINA asks us to accompany her too. Where are you all this time… KIM always showed up, but you… Nowhere to be found. Always with your friend… If you won't prioritize her over your friends then don't confess to her in the first place.

SHAH

I'm shy around girls, I don't know… I feel awkward.

DEEBAH

Are you joking! Then why are you not scared now? I'm not a girl enough?

SHAH

I don't know…

DEEBAH

Damn it you, I'm pissed! Now I'm really gonna rape you.

SHAH

H-hei It's not what it means. Did you talk to FIONA today, how does she look?

DEEBAH

She looks okay I think. Do you miss her?

SHAH

Nope, just asking.

DEEBAH

Now you're single, you want a new girlfriend? I have a friend who's single too. I will give you her contact, text her and see if you guys can work together. 

SHAH

(DEEBAH gave her friend contact, maybe I should move on.)

Later that night I tried to search for DEEBAH friend on facebook, her name is QUE. She's actually good looking, I thought she would be the same as DEEBAH.

(Texting)

Hi, are you QUE, DEEBAH friend?

QUE

Yeah it's me, who is this?

SHAH

I'm SHAH, DEEBAH college friend. She said to text you.

QUE

Oh, you're SHAH. DEEBAH did tell me about you.

SHAH

(She really told her about me. Am I being a topic for girls?)

We continued texting about things until she asked me a question that really smacks me to reality.

QUE

Do you have a car license?

SHAH

(That's it… I don't have a license. I don't have a bike or a car…)

I don't have it.

QUE

Oh. I see.

We ended our conversation there and it had me thinking. Why do I want a girlfriend now, I don't have anything to provide… No car or bike to take them out, even my allowance is not enough… Having a girlfriend right now is a joke. Breaking up with FIONA was the wise choice… She would suffer from how boring I am.