Reminiscing of the past, actually nothing more happened, even after what happened that night, they would kiss sometimes, or she would let him touch her breasts a little, but nothing more.
The problem happened when one of those times, his mother, Selena, happened to see them, and from that time, Clara started distancing herself from him, not even giving him any explanation.
And Ellis, after waiting one year and seeing nothing improved, from frustration and anger at what happened, started to date one of the girls at his school at that time.
Shaking him from his deep thoughts was the replay of his sister.
"It's not because of mother, I was growing anxious about our relationship. If others knew, what would happen. While asking myself that, and especially feeling like my last straw of reason was fading away at that time. I wasn't confident that I could restrain myself from wanting more," saying so, with tears welling in her eyes, Clara with a cracked voice, continued
"I was really scared. I felt that crossing that last line would bring us to the point of no return. Mother was no more than a trigger, helping me harden my resolve, while giving me a reminder and reality check."
"Like if even my mother, who knows how much I love and treasure you, how much you were attached to me, how much we mean to each other. Gave such a stern warning and didn't think of our positions at all. Do you really expect others would?"
Seeing his usually cheerful sister and after what seemed like a very long time, now crying. Feeling guilty and responsible because of it, he extended his hands and wiped her tears.
"You could have talked to me; you know. There was no need to distance yourself completely because of it," he couldn't help but reprimand her, but seeing her cry harder, he tried to console her and ask the most important and crucial question.
"While I will try to be more understanding about the past, what about now? What our relationship would be?"
Seeing her brother staring intensely at her with those ethereal gray eyes, seemingly hypnotizing her to do whatever he wanted, and while also wanting their relationship to advance, Clara still didn't feel it was the right time; the hurdle of society was still hard for her, even now when it's crumbling.
"I don't know if I'm ready to have a serious relationship with you at the moment. But still, I know that I will not be able to stay away from you like before any longer," she said.
Hearing this kind of bullshit answer that reminded him of some Shoujo manga where the heroine would keep all the handsome males in the story around her at arm's length, not letting them go but not letting them come closer either. Ellis started to have some dangerous thoughts but tried to suppress them and think more rationally.
And maybe feeling the dangerous vibe coming from her brother, fearing the thread of rationality snapping out and really assaulting her, while she didn't mind, she still preferred it to be more romantic. Clara thinking of patching things up hurriedly continued: "Maybe I don't have the right to take pity from you, especially after everything that happened; but it was really hard for me too."
"It's been almost six years, but I'm still hanging on and thinking of you. But you went and got a girlfriend just after a year. Did you think I don't have feelings? Will I not be hurt? I was really jealous; you know."
"Especially seeing you with her in public; I too look forward to something like this but will never be able to do the same; my relationship with you getting acknowledged, is something I dream of too."
"When you came home briefly after dropping out from university; I had a fight with Father too; trying to defend you."
"And with how Mother is; did you think it didn't feel hard for me? I even thought of going out of the house with you; but with tension in the house at the time; and seeing how you felt different; it just didn't help me while making the decision."
Hearing what his sister said and knowing how it was all true did cool Ellis's head. But at the same time; feeling like she was guilt-tripping him and seeing how much indecisive she is, and wanting his relationship with her to advance; not wanting to wait any longer, finally sighed and said:
"Even if everything you said is true; I will not wait any longer. I plan to have some conversations with Father and Mother. Like I will sort my feelings and problems; and maybe even meet my ex-girlfriend. But after that, if you still don't give a clear answer; I don't mind giving you a push myself."
"What do..."
Interrupting her Ellis continued: "You know; if you were really against this relationship maybe I would have a different thought, but your reason just feels like bullshit for me."
Looking at his sister's dropped eyes and seeing how she became silent now and wanting to release some of his bent-up emotion Ellis finally went up to her enticing nape wanting to have a taste.
Suddenly getting to feel her brother's lips upon her nape, and seeing how he started kissing her, Clara while straightening her back couldn't help but moan a little from the sensation.
Ellis getting a nice reaction from his sister continued his kisses going from her nape to the side her neck and started sucking wanting to mark her, leaving some hickeys,
"Wait; you will leave marks!" panicking Clara hurriedly said.
But seemingly not hearing her, Ellis didn't stop and continued till he felt he left enough and went up to her lips wanting to silence them. Kissing her hungrily and getting a taste of her, he sent his tongue inside her mouth wanting to get more. But feeling how she was also responding in kind trying to battle him for control, like she forgot she was shouting at him to stop before. Ellis couldn't help but feel amazed.