Yesterday's conversation really made me feel angry and annoyed. Imagine me as a guard devastated.
"Yang, what's wrong with you? Why are you so gloomy all the time? I'm doing something wrong?" Edi said while playing with my hair.
I looked into the brown eyes of the person I loved. His eyes were so shady with thick eyelashes covering them. He is so handsome with a firm jaw and thick lips.
I shook my head, "No, I think I'm about to menstruate."
"Do you want to eat? Let's order food online, okay?" Edi immediately struggled with his smartphone when I nodded at him.
Today I was at Edi's boarding house, Edi is an overseas child from East Lampung. He works while attending school here.
We have been dating for more than 2 years. Our relationship is smooth, there are no big fights. He is a good and mature man.
I lay facing the ceiling, closing my eyes. I am still 17 years old, in 3 months on August 17th I will be 18 years old. And my Guardian will be perfectly bound to me.
I'm really confused, how something like this happened. I used to be very happy if my Guardian was a man and now I regret it.
In Maheswari, a guard will be the same gender as the Mahesnya. But my condition is different, my Guardian and I are of different genders. There was only me in the previous 10 classes. (Father said)
Uncle Yeksa said that the guard's lust works to fuel his strength. If that fuel is not available, its power is lost or diminished.
And the lust of a male guard is greater than the lust of a female guard. IRRITATING.
Cups
It's like something is moving on my lips. I immediately opened my eyes and sure enough Edi was kissing me.
We did kiss, but not for long and never more than that. Because I really limit myself from getting too close to him. Because Edi's lust is quite big.
"Ehmmm stopmmh."
I thought for a few seconds the kiss was over, but no, he deepened the kiss even more. I hit his shoulder to end this, but no, Edi kept doing it and his hands started groping my body.
I was getting more and more restless, Edi was getting more aggressive. Tongue playing on my lips. His hands moved up to my chest. I rebelled, but his strength was much greater than me.
"Emmhhh AHK."
I screamed reflexively when Edi squeezed my chest. Edi really went too far, he knew that I was a woman who really guarded my chastity.
Knock knock
A knock on the door sounded, Edi broke the kiss. His saliva dripped down my lips. Before he got up, he smiled slightly at the corners of his lips, "Sweet."
I immediately stood up, straightening my clothes and hair. I shed tears. If the ojol doesn't come, who knows what will happen.
"Thank you, sir," Edi received the package from the ojol's hand.
I took my bag and cellphone then walked out, bumping into Edi's body at the door.
"Where are you going? The food has just arrived."
Without looking at his face with a curt voice, "Go home!"
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"Sob sob." My tears filled this room.
"What's wrong with you, Aruna? Since you came crying, Mulu, you didn't tell me the reason." Agnia protested and worried beside me. He kept patting my back trying to calm me down.
I shook my head and continued crying. Since leaving Edi's boarding house, I have come to Agnia's boarding house. Not that far, just less than 15 minutes.
I don't know what to explain to Agnia. I felt disgusted with myself, I was very disappointed in Edi but I really loved him.
"Well, if you don't want to tell me," Agnia was annoyed, she took a snack and gave it to me, "Here's something to eat, at least it will make you feel better."
"Thank you sob sob."
I don't know how long I cried, I fell asleep and woke up in the afternoon. Agnia is still always waiting for me. He is my best friend.
"Aru." Agnia called next to me, "Where do you want to study? I've registered at that big university, I hope I get accepted."
I rubbed my eyes which were still not fully open. With my mind still recovering, I answered, "I'm going to Dimension 10 for Nia's education."
"Huh? Dimension 10? You still dream Aru?" Realizing that I was going too far, I immediately opened my eyes. Luckily, Agnia only thought it was a dream.
"Ah no, I'll take a year off first." I rubbed my eyes and saw Agnia continuing to play with her cellphone, occasionally smiling while typing.
"Eh Nia, you already have a boyfriend, smile like that." I said while tidying up my things and cleaning myself. There was no answer, he just laughed a little. That's how a woman falls in love, "Agnia, I'll go home first, don't smile like that all the time like a crazy person."
I put on my shoes and went home on my father's motorbike. Even during the trip, my mind was still not distracted by Suar and Edi.
I don't know why Edi became like that, I haven't seen Edi's contact since this afternoon.
And Suar, I'm confused about what to do, confused about what to do. There's no way I can obey his lustful abilities. Moreover, the appetite of male guards is greater than that of female guards. And once I regretted my laughter when I found out my Guardian was a man.