MARYAM'S POV
Sunday THE 14TH OF JUNE.
"Okay we are going to try again Maryam, I know you did your best the last time but please we have to go to the hospital again to get to the bottom of why you are not able to walk" Dana said as she rubbed my back in her effort to convince me to go with her because I agreed to do the same thing yesterday, little did I know she was going to make me relive through the whole thing, worst part of all this is i won't be able to know who actually did anything to me and I would just end up getting nightmares and all.
"No" I said strongly disapproving of what she said, I refuse to be put into the same pain over and over and to get nothing out of it, what good does that make?
"Come on" use said again as she tried to persuade me into going to see the hipnotic doctor.
"No, maybe you should leave me alone" what's going on? Why does she want to take me there again, they did not learn anything for the betterment of my health or for my legs so why?
"Okay cool, let me do your massage and you practice your walk for the day then" she said as she got up to go to the bathroom.
"Okay" I replied.
"Which leg should I start with first?" She asked, like she doesn't usually do whichever leg she chooses.
"I am fine with any" I said as she proceeded to start with my right leg, her whole attitude towards me just changed like someone flipped a switch but I couldn't be bothered though. She does understand the mental pain she was subjecting me to and I feel like it's not really her fault though I blame my parents for leaving me here uncared for, what if she decides to just take me there without my permission and somehow manages to get me to keep shut or something, or worst what if she wants me to continue feeling the same pain over and over again to the extent where I am incapable of walking because of my trauma? What if?
Besides I wonder why mom and dad aren't doing to much to find the culprit for me, Instead they are busy traveling the world, what if something happens to me again? Do they even care about me? Are they even bothered by what is going on in my life? Do they?
"Okay, I would give you some minutes to rest we would practice on your standing and today you would move some steps" she said as she walked into the closet to go get my walker.
Steps? When and how would I be able to walk few steps? I don't think that is possible I just only started moving my foot some days ago and now she wants me to walk? Does she even know what she is doing? I read somewhere online that rehabilitation takes months and here she is trying to accomplish that in days, is that even possible.
"Okay, are you ready?" She asked as she began to wheel me to the wall that supports me when I usually practice my standing.
"I don't think I can do it" I said
"Well you won't know until you try" she said, "just grip tightly on the walker and move your legs as it moves " she Instructed.
"Okay" my legs began to shake vigorously as I stood up while supporting my body weight with the walker.
"Good, your stance is getting better and your leg is becoming more stable" Dana praised.
"O.. k.. a.. y" I said panting as usual, this was taking all my energy again, my hands began to weaken and I could feel my legs pulsating as if it was going to explode.
"Come on now, it has only been 6 minutes today we would reach 20 minutes" she said cheerfully, is she punishing me for what I did?
"2..0 20?" I asked as I could bearly talk due to lack of energy.
"Yes, since you refused the hipnotic therapy I have to help you some other way" she said "besides the scan showed that nothing is wrong with your bones so I wonder why you can't walk" she added, my whole body was weak and i could feel sweet dripping from all sides.
"Don't worry dear, you are almost there 12 minutes 8 more minutes to go" she said.
Thinking thinking, I should get my mind of the excersie maybe that would help, if I focus my mind on something else I am sure I can do the remaining 8 minutes but my arm feels weak and I don't know how much longer I can hold this in, okay something to distract me, chicken? Soup? Rice?
"5 more minutes, I knew you had it in you, I am rooting for you"
Something to get my mind of the excersie, something to think about?
"3 more minutes, you go girl".
Ummh eggs? Fried eggs? Right, I like eggs chicken too I love chicken with cheese okay now I want chicken.
"1 more minute"
Oh I am tired I can't stand this pain, oh no.
"Done" she said as she held my hands to get me back on my chair.
"You see you had it in you and I knew it" she Said as she help get my legs on the chair.
"Ye. a. h" I said as I was still not recovered from it yet, I can't even feel my legs and my hands also my back hurts like crazy i need to rest.
"Water" I mumbled clearly out of my mouth, I need to dehydrate after all the sweating, my throat feels dry.
"Okay" she said as she walked to the dispenser in my room to go get me water.
"Here you go" she handed a cup of water to me as I hurriedly poured it in my mouth "more" I said as I handed the cup back to her, my entire body was shaking still.
"Relax, you don't need much water" she said as she robbed my back slowly.
"Okay" she was right, I have started to gain my energy back again and my stomach was full, I don't think I need more water.
"Sorry about the hypnotic therapy , I guess you don't need it after all you are doing just fine without it" she said as she began to wheel me to my bed "you must be tired, you should go to bed"