Viola
Nikolas hadn't returned to his room since he asked me to go to sleep and refused to have sex with me.
I should have been glad he wasn't paying attention to me but I wasn't because I knew it would have consequences.
What was I going to tell Mother if she asked me how the night went? She would hit me or Angie if I told her he didn't find me attractive enough to have sex with me.
What if he returned me to my parents and decided I wasn't worth staying married to? What if he went and told Father about how ugly I was or how unattractive my body was?
I pushed away the negative thoughts and decided I would do everything to make up for my mistakes. I might as well have tried to make the marriage work because I would spend the rest of my life by his side.
