Later on, how did they reach such an impasse? Xiangyu wondered. After that day, they actually had little communication . Xiangyu washed the jacket and returned it to Xiao Zhanyuan, and bought a thick sweater as a gift and give it to him, and once again thanked him sincerely. Xiao Zhanyuan's reaction, she couldn't memorize.
After that when they met, it was just normal greetings. Sometimes they would chat for a few words, asking about work, school, and such, but nothing out of that. It was just so simple, Xiangyu couldn't understand why Xiao Zhanyuan suddenly made those crazy actions. Because of the trauma left by the previous bullying, Xiangyu was always particularly vigilant when returning late, walking fast. One day, someone suddenly grabbed her from behind, and she immediately screamed loudly. When she turned around, she saw it was Xiao Zhanyuan, and instantly relaxed. Xiao Zhanyuan seemed to be drunk, his eyes shining brightly. He was very close to Xiangyu, almost advancing towards her step by step, forcing Xiangyu to step back until she was against the wall. Xiao Zhanyuan pressed her against the wall with both hands, staring at her without blinking. He said, "Xiangyu, choose me, okay? Choose me. Can you love me, just a little ? Xiangyu, be my girlfriend, I like you, very much." Xiangyu was stunned. There was almost nothing between them, and she didn't understand why he suddenly confessed his love. Subconsciously, she thought of Lu Heng. Subconsciously, she opened her mouth to say, "I have…" She had only said two words when Xiao Zhanyuan suddenly kissed her, his lips sealing hers, preventing her from speaking. She struggled and whimpered, but she couldn't break free. As their lips intertwined, Xiangyu bit his lip, but he didn't let Xiangyu go, until both of their mouths tasted of blood. Xiangyu was very angry and couldn't help but shed tears, mixed with the taste of blood and a hint of bitterness. Xiao Zhanyuan released his control over her, but still held her in his arms, burying his head in the crook of her neck. "Xiangyu, choose me, please? I won't let you down." Xiangyu didn't dare to struggle, his breath blowing on her neck, making her shiver. In retrospect, she realized that at that moment, she was more wondered than afraid. In the previous life, she had never seriously reflected on it, just blindly avoided. Later, she seemed to have threatened sternly, saying that if there was a next time, she would call the police and have Xiao Zhanyuan arrested and sent him to prison. But she never did, not even once. It turned out that she should also take a great responsibility for what happened later. Although she had never mean to flirt Xiao Zhanyuan, she had actually been indulging him. A chill ran through Xiangyu's heart. She had stumbled through a life without proper self-reflection. Xiao Zhanyuan should take responsibility, but she was not innocent either.
Xiangyu deliberately avoided seeing Xiao Zhanyuan, but he would wait for her on her way to university from work, blocking her at the dormitory door. Xiao Zhanyuan blatantly declared his possessiveness towards her. When he saw her, he would embrace her, and if Xiangyu struggled, he would act like he was going to kiss her. Every time, Xiangyu didn't know how to deal with him. She was even afraid of Lu Heng finding it out, but the more she acted back off , the more Xiao Zhanyuan flaunted. One day, a young man blocked Xiangyu and said, "My buddy wants to see you, he got his head broken for you." Xiangyu avoided him, "I don't know your buddy." "My buddy is Xiao Zhanyuan." Xiangyu stopped in her tracks, but eventually she went to the repair shop. Xiao Zhanyuan really had his head broken, looking a bit embarrassed, but when he saw Xiangyu, he smiled heartily. In Xiangyu's impression, he had always been cool, and she had never seen him smile so belly before. "Where's the gauze? Let me bandage you." "Xiangyu, I don't believe that you don't have any feelings on me." Xiangyu gave him a disdainful look and went to search his medicine box. Suddenly, Xiao Zhanyuan hugged her from behind, carried her and walked towards the room. Xiangyu struggled, but she was still pressed onto the bed. Xiao Zhanyuan held her restless hand with one hand and held her waist with the other. His lips found hers, not as violent as last time, he licked the corner of her lips with his tongue. She had never been so intimate even with Lu Heng. She felt dizzy and wanted to escape. Xiao Zhanyuan kissed her earlobe and whispered her name in her ear, "Xiangyu, Xiangyu." His hand slid down from her waist, reached under her skirt, and stroked her leg. Xiangyu's heart was beating so fast that it seemed to want to burst out of her chest. Xiao Zhanyuan was hot, his kisses falling on her earlobes, neck, and collarbone. His large hand glided over her skin, as if igniting a fire within her. She felt trapped until his hand gripped her hip, kneading it incessantly. She heard him emit a groan from his throat, and suddenly, shame surged in her heart. Xiangyu pushed Xiao Zhanyuan's face away. "Xiao Zhanyuan, have you gone mad? What are you doing?" Xiao Zhanyuan's eyes were hazy, "Doing what one does to someone they like, don't you like it?" Xiao Zhanyuan smirked at her. Xiangyu burst into tears once again. Xiao Zhanyuan's hand paused, retracting from under of her skirt. "Don't cry, I won't force you. I'll wait for you, wait until you're willing." He leaned close to her ear again, deliberately speaking softly and slowly, "You really don't like it when I kiss you, touch you? Like this…" His hand squeezed Xiangyu's waist over her skirt. Xiangyu felt his affection was still lingering, his eyes like whirlpools, and she found herself forgetting to cry, even forgetting to be afraid. In this life, Xiangyu wanted to give a resounding slap to her previous self. What she have done at that time, how she can act like that? Xiangyu felt her life in a chaotic situation, she messed it up, that even in this life she still need time to button up.