Xiangyu remembered tat it was nearing graduation, feeling torn when thinking about Xiao Zhanyuan. At that time, she wanted to confess to Lu Heng, to break up with him because she didn't know how to face it. But at that time, her professor, a middle aged man in his forties or fifties, overtly and covertly hinted that he could recommend her a position for an internship, but with a price. To avoid trouble and can graduate well, she played dumb, but he didn't let up. One day in his office, he grabbed her, trying to kiss her, and she pushed him away and ran out from his office. Later, he even dared to hug her in the school building and touched her inappropriately. Disgusted, she wanted to vomit but could only cry alone by the lake. She had no one to confide in, didn't know what to do, the only thing she did was weeping. But not long after, that professor disappeared, rumored to have been stabbed. During that time, Xiao Zhanyuan also vanished, and for a long time, she didn't see him again. Xiangyu has wondered and troubled herself, even feeling like she's had a daydream. Xiao Zhanyuan, he suddenly appeared in her life, then suddenly vanished without a trace.She visited his repair shop a few times, but no one was there, and there was never anyone.
After graduated, she worked in the south area of the city, and Lu Heng retired from the football team and found a job as an assistant coach. They rented a house and shacked up. Sometimes they cuddled on the couch watching movies, sometimes they played badminton together. Lu Heng made breakfast for Xiangyu almost every day, when he was busy, he remembered to text her every time . Lu Heng would hug and kiss her, but often she would evade, feeling she shouldn't. But Lu Heng would ask if she felt uncomfortable, if she had something on her mind. What was on her mind? She would think of Xiao Zhanyuan, even when with Lu Heng. Xiao Zhanyuan was right, didn't she feel anything? But then he suddenly disappeared, she couldn't find him any more. Feeling guilty towards Lu Heng, she suggested breaking up. Lu Heng adamantly refused. Xiangyu said, "I have someone else in my heart." Lu Heng asked, "Whom? Where?" She couldn't answer. Lu Heng looked at her, as he always did. "Xiangyu," he called her name, "Xiangyu, shall we get married?" Xiangyu shook her head. They had been together for ten years, did she love Lu Heng? She asked herself, or did she love the feeling of Lu Heng loving her? Her heart was filled with weeping, unable to argue, unable to explain, only left with tears.
Xiangyu's heart ached, in her youth, she didn't understand, Lu Heng, that stubborn youth shining brightly in her life. Later, there was no later for them. She didn't even have time to recall those past memories, didn't have time to hold his hand again, didn't have time to look at her boy more.
Lu Heng, between her and Lu Heng, Lu Heng was always the one who held her hand and never let go, no matter what she acts.