Chapter Thirty-Nine:
"And why should I not? If the person I want to question is not willing to tell me the truth."
I couldn't believe that she would really ask Kanik directly and it really hurts because he trusts him rather than me.
"Why?" I asked and I couldn't hide the pain that I feel. "Why trust him? Why him?"
"The same question I have for you, why you don't trust me?" she replied in question and I couldn't hold her longer, I sadly let go of her shoulders. "What? You're surprised?"
"Shu…" I don't know what else to say.
"Explain it all, will you." She spoke. "Even though I already asked Kanik, I didn't let him explain everything because I still hope that you will explain everything yourself. So, please! While I still have hope in you because of my love for you, tell me the whole truth. I'm begging you." She said as she pleaded with tears in her eyes and I cannot longer hide the whole truth from her.
Past…
I decided to walk through the mountain on this special day, though. The word 'special' really meant nothing to me since another year will be added. Five hundred years old is too much for me to live. From my old friends to my old neighborhood, they all get older and soon death came to fetch them all. Leaving me behind, alive and never grows old with a soul even though I'm a Vampire. I live with my soul intact on me. Make me feel more human rather than a monster unlike the other tribe that lives without a soul, they are known the Manu Clan. While our tribe call the Edelweiss Clan and every one of us blessed with a soul that the God of the underground given to us when our original sacrifices herself just to give birth to the chosen one.
The chosen one that gives us freedom to redeem our souls and gives us our chance to conceive our own flesh and blood just like a normal human does. Giving us also a chance to live among the humans, even though they all knew we are Vampires, they give all their trust on us. Because the Edelweiss Leader already made a rule that no one of us will drink human blood not unless humans allow us to drink their bloods, which are our chance to drink a fresh blood coming from a human.
As for that rule, humans and Vampires pledges a treaty that will last long to forever and our Leader really do his part even if the ones that our Leader pledges was already been long gone. Our Leader continues to protect the two clans though as the years passes by, we slowly hide ourselves not literary hide ourselves but the knowledge of us being a Vampire.
We continue to live amongst humans and at the same time, we hide our true selves even though the war between our clans always collide we maintain our status as humans around them. Still we cannot stop the Manu Clan to get bigger and stronger. Even though the form of creating their own Vampire is to let a human's life be on the edge of death and drink the blood of Manu Vampire before killing them. Creating a new one as Vampire without a soul the reason why we in silence, protects the humans as much as we can.
Now, back to my 'special' day, this is the day of my birth but I choose to stay away from my families and friends. For some reason, I don't want to celebrate it as if I'm getting bored and tired of my life. If some humans wish to have a long life or an immortal life, well I could say that at first it was exciting and fun. To see things on a different angle, on a different way and even try to kill yourself repeatedly. What a wonder to take a chance, to see death and live at the same time but as it goes longer things changes. Soon, you'll feel something is missing. You wouldn't understand it at first but as your age added more, slowly but surely realization will soon hits you.
Immortality isn't just simple excitement and fun but it will lead you to an immortality of sorrow and madness. A feeling that hardly to describe and I'm on the edge of it. Almost going to fall but in the end what should I do? I can no longer die nor live no matter what I do.
The reason why I take some time to think of nothing, and just go into the deepest of the mountains, hoping I could find something that will lead me to continue to live. To get great reason to continue living my life as a Vampire even though that hopes is hardly to expect.
Why? Because I don't know what reason may able to change my thinking, even though my Uncle already told me if I learn how to truly love someone then maybe that will be a good reason for me to continue on. But true love? What is true love?
For my five hundred years of living, I never really found the true love. I won't say I never had a woman in my life, I do. But all of it was just a simple fun for me. Nothing else but only fun so, the word true love never occurs me.
The reason why I ignore and forget about it, I just wonder around the mountains without directions and without thinking. I just go with the flow as I cross each mountain paths. Until I reach a fall, tired and thirsty I just jumps in to the water and let myself plunge in into the deep. I just close my eyes tightly and let the water drown me until someone pulled me up out of the water.
"Hey!" a woman's voice suddenly called out and as I open my eyes, I see a mysterious beautiful woman.
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