I lay on my bed and stared at the
ceiling.
Every night, my ambitions take me to the secrets of my mind, except today I was tired and woke up early.
So without going into thoughts, I fell asleep quickly. When I closed my eyes, my mind drifted into dreams.
And I had a strange dream.!
Four people around the altar, standing three against one while their features were distorted.
I could only see the shape of their bodies. There were two girls and two guys. One of them had golden, almost white hair and the other was completely red like blood. As for the two men, they were fighting fiercely. One of them was wearing black metal armor and had strange white hair, and the other was wearing white armor and had dark black hair.
I felt like I was standing as a spectator among them, but what was really strange was that I felt like one of them, as if I were inside it, and this person seemed to have terrifying feelings as if he wanted to destroy the world with his brute force.
I did not like this dream for some reason.
I tried with all my might to wake up, but I was finally able to do so.
I slowly opened my eyes and saw the figure of someone at the door of the room as if preparing to leave.
I focused more, but the distinctive black hair and physique became clear.
I pushed away sleep and sat on the bed trying to wake up.
Then I stood up and moved slowly until I was fully awake, and soon I moved lightly and quickly using my ability.
His figure was slowly descending the stairs.
I followed him, but he finished going down when I was about to.
Then he approached the large door, and although this door made an annoying creak when opened, he opened it smoothly without making a sound and quickly went outside.
I followed him quietly until he was almost past the big gate.
Then I called him:
"Saif! .."
He stopped where he was and seemed to sigh. He turned around slowly.
"Why are you awake now?"
I ignored his question and moved closer.
"Serdar, where are you going? .."
"..."
He was silent, staring at me with his usual calm.
I came closer and stood in front of him. "Answer Saif, where are you going?"
Serdar exhaled slowly and replied.
"...I will travel..."
".Traveling?!!.."
He was silent for a moment, staring into my eyes.
"Lubna...I really need to travel."
".Why??! .."
"... It is important to me... I need to complete my studies..."
".And where are you going?!."
Serdar was strangely calm despite my great excitement.
"Penny...you know that I love physics and I love invention?"
"..Yes, Saif.. But what does that have to do with that?!"
"There is a prestigious and famous university in Europe at that time, and I have been trying for a long time to arrange myself to study there."
I furrowed my brow.
"University?..in Europe?.."
He nodded slowly, and for the first time I noticed the object in his hand.
"Yes, it is a university for higher studies. I have wanted to study there for a while...but my grandfather did not allow it."
I said sarcastically.
"This is expected from my grandfather، How could he allow his best assistant to leave so easily.."
It was in his hand. Something in the shape of a column, but the cover over it prevented me from knowing its details.
"I was unable to convince him..."
"So you ran away without his knowledge?.."
he smiled sadly,
"Yes.. I have to do that..."
I lowered my head sadly, I really don't like this. Serdar will travel to a place far away from me!
"And when will you come back?"
I asked him frowning. In return, he approached me and put his hand on my shoulder.
"I don't know when... but I will definitely come back better.."
I nodded with a sad face.
"If this is your dream.... then go achieve it and do not miss the opportunity..."
"... and you, Penny?... Don't you want to fulfill your dream? "
I stared into his dark eyes under the moonlight.
". Of course I want to.. but... I will wait for the opportunity."
"No dream comes true by waiting... Your dreams will not come to you easily.."
I lowered my head. He was right! Whenever I think about it, waiting is nothing but wasting time.
"And what do you think?.."
Seif raised my head and put his hand under my chin.
". I think your dream is not clear, your goals are not clear, Benny... and you are looking at opportunities. In vain. "
". Why do you think my dream is not clear. !?"
". Because you simply cannot stand on top of the world without effort and without any achievement. Whoever stands on top of the world is either unjust or just. He will either be a tyrant or a savior... or at least carry a great achievement.."
Come to think. In the matter, Serdar was not mistaken in his words.
I have always wanted to make my mark in this world - life is short and time is fast, I do not want to die without leaving a mark in this world.
At least I can accomplish something great, but will I really wait this time for the opportunity to think about the achievement?
I returned my eyes to focus on him. "What achievement do you think is memorable... and how can I accomplish it?"
Serdar smiled helplessly. "Penny, you are a genius. You have an open and active mind. You can research anything."
I smiled at him with the same smile.
"I thought that before...but it turns out I'm lazy!"
Saif let out a deep laugh. "Laziness is beautiful, I agree with you, but too much of it is bad for me. You can get very tired and then rest as much as you want.."
I turned my head.
"I will try, Saif.. I will try..."
I wanted to take time with myself and think deeply.
Maybe I will find my chance at the right time, but I will definitely start striving from this moment with everything I have. For a moment, I forgot why I was now standing under the moonlight in the back garden with my runaway cousin. Saif said in a harsh tone.
"I don't want that answer. I need a convincing answer!"
I smiled then, as the wind blew and my hair flew. "I promise you, Serdar de Lier... I will strive from now on to prepare my achievement! .."
He then gave a satisfied smile.
"This is what I wanted to hear."
I nodded to him and then pushed him slowly,
"Now, Saif, leave before anyone wakes up! Come on, leave."
But he did not move from his place. I know that his build is much larger than mine, but I tried to push him with all my might.
"Wait a minute, I haven't finished what I'm talking about!"
I stopped then and said sarcastically.
"Look who was sneaking someone in without even telling me..."
"I want to offer one last bit of help!"
I put my hands on my waist and stared at him,
"Go ahead, Mr. Genius.."
A ghost of a smile appeared as he spoke, and his eyes sparkled strongly as if he was waiting.
"I suggest you follow me..."
I frowned in surprise.
"I follow you?...And how will I do it, Serdar?!?"
His smile widened at my reaction, "There are many ways, you have the villagers and my grandfather's acquaintances, you can come with me now if you want.."
I lowered my head thinking, this is a perfect opportunity! But I'm not ready yet.
I still haven't spent enough time with my family, and I still haven't lived my days the way I want.
I do not deny that I was excited about his idea, and for a moment I was.
I would say yes, but rushing now is not good.
"Saif... I'm not ready now.."
He nodded slowly, maintaining his comfortable smile.
"I get it...you can catch me in time then."
I lowered my head again. But he continued saying. "I left you a message with the names of the people who will help you travel safely.."
I raised my head with a sincere smile. ".Were you planning that?.."
".Yes..I knew you were crazy and would do anything to get ahead.."
I stared at him deeply until my attention returned to the thing in his hand.
"Sirdar, what is that in your hand?.."
Serdar shifted his gaze when I pointed, and for a moment a clear frown appeared, which he quickly concealed with a comforting smile.
"It's a tool I had to take."
"Why do you take it?"
"I am entrusted with protecting this thing. It is a responsibility that my grandfather carried for me."
I nodded in understanding. There was something suspicious as I stared at the tool with him.
But truth be told, I didn't find myself caring about that sort of thing, so I ignored it for the time being and said excitedly.
"Enough wasting your time for now, let's go, Serdar!"
But he came closer to me and unexpectedly hugged me gently.
"I will miss my crazy cousin."
I laughed at his words and hugged him back.
".And I will miss my weird brother too.."
********
After separating the hug, Serdar left immediately.
There was little sadness at his departure, that is certainly to be expected.
We are like shadows to each other, I create problems and Serdar accompanies me and even covers me.
I love to play and explore, and he is the one who suggests every new experience to me.
Since we were children, before I climbed the mountain. Saif was always there for me and loved playing with me despite the age difference, but he was truly the best brother and best friend.
I went up to my room again and sat on my bed thinking.
It occurred to me to write down what happened in my diary.
I quickly grabbed it and opened the page where writing had stopped... I will certainly never forget transcribing what happened in my secret notebook.
[Morning of October 16, 1899. Moonlight... and sunrise... This is the day that changed my life.
I had always aspired to influence the world by using my strange power... but for the first time today I realized that my power was worthless as long as I did not accomplish anything.
I have to rely on my mind and other abilities.
Now I have another dream. I want to travel and explore the world! ]
I actually had a lucid dream.