The breezy autumn winds dance, while I look out over the still village from the balcony of my room, in the small rural villages under the authority of the old Baron De Lier.
He was over seventy years old, and although he had three sons, two of whom died, the latter did not inherit his title.
My cousin is about three years older than me, but he left the palace three more years ago.
So to speak, he fled in search of his dream...
just as he instructed me - to search for my dream as well.
However, I couldn't be ungrateful and separate from my family, as I was still eighteen, almost an adult.
Velvet women did not miss the opportunity to criticize me because of my age. They say that women my age are married and have children, unlike me.
Truth be told, despite my age, I still play with the children and roam freely in the village. I sometimes participate in agriculture and sometimes in management.
According to my family's strict mentality, I am a weak and fragile girl in their eyes, gentle, shy, and reckless, and I need my family's help and kindness in order for my life to be easier.
Regardless of my sharp personality, I am much stronger than the average person... in addition to my strong and reckless personality.
But I am very frank and... My frankness annoys them, and my love of comfortable clothes, which Respected miss like me is not supposed to wear, annoys them due to my bad manners.
So... quite simply, I felt it was the right time to take a rash step to change my family's view of me.
I think it would be better to follow in my cousin's footsteps...
Over the past few years, I decided to work on myself and develop my mental and physical abilities.
Perhaps Serdar explained something to me that I was unaware of, my ambition was without foundation, I relied only on my strange strength and did not pay attention to reason.
Power without an active mind and intelligence is like a donkey carrying books. It does not understand anything and does not use it correctly.
I secretly practiced some simple exercises to strengthen my body muscles, and I read many useful books on philosophy, physics, medicine, and pharmacy.
We have a large library in the palace that includes thousands of books, and without exaggeration, I read them all and benefited from them.
Every night I asked myself what I would most like to know, regardless of my love of hitting bad people.
I really wanted to know my strength, and know more about its secret, but despite reading thousands of books, I could not find an accurate answer. I researched more about the human body, and I do not deny that I liked discovering it. The way the body works and the interconnection of the organs with precision is in itself a wonderful magic.
So I made myself a convincing reason to follow Saif. If he traveled for love in the world of physics, I would travel for love in the field of medicine and anatomy.
That incomplete moon, and the stars next to it sparkling in the curtain tonight, this sight is enough to remove some worries from my heart, and it also motivated me to take that step.
I do not deny that I am like a little child attached to its mother, or like a little chick attached to its mother, but in the end the system of life is strict.
The child must grow up and depend on himself, and the bird must depend on himself and fly.
In fact, this was not the only night of preparation. It was preceded by many nights in which I stood on the balcony preparing to leave, but in the end I hesitated and deluded myself that I needed some time with my family.
However, I finally realized that I was clearly procrastinating and making weak arguments for myself, and the day had come when I would erase those arguments.
Tonight I will travel, I will travel to my cousin's place. Maybe I'll explore more and learn more about the world beyond the manor's borders, and maybe I'll learn more about my powers and how far they reach.
Without thinking further...I grabbed my handbag and put some supplies in it, then put on that black jacket. Finally, I threw the rope from the third floor across my room. [I really hope to find this bright future.]
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I went down slowly so as not to make a sound and someone would come and stop me, and then I would be dead!
The words echoed in my mind,
"I hope no one sees me, with all my heart I will run away!"
You wonder why I didn't sneak through the back door like Saif, but it was simply that today was my birthday, and there were certainly many servants downstairs, and Serdar had been arrested by me. I won't risk anyone finding out.
There was a rustle near the bushes, and for a moment of confusion the rope slipped from my hand and I fell heavily to the ground. Thank God I did not die! , .
"Oh my God! Why don't things end so easily!"
I was lying on my back, which was very painful from falling.
I tried to get up and grabbed the bag after dusting off my clothes. It was good not to wear those damned dresses, and black leather clothes are good and suitable for such situations.
Thanks, of course, to Serdar for leaving his comfortable clothes for me.
I took a deep breath and let the encouraging words float inside me. And then, I felt someone standing behind me. With a soft whisper.
"Where to?" A shiver ran down my spine from that voice.
I quickly walked away and looked at the whisperer, who turned out to be... my grandfather!!
"C-Grandpa, I...I'm not going anywhere!...I just wanted some fresh air."
I was really terrified. The idea of him blocking my path and preventing me from traveling was terrifying enough, as well as punishment, even though I know very well his thinking.
Reserved and serious, but the strange thing is that he is now staring at me with a wide smile and there is no reaction.
"Really, what is that bag? Is it for hiking?"
The sarcastic way in his voice made me feel insulted, and at that moment I could only smile broadly, and then I ran as fast as I could, muttering,
"I will run away, meaning I will run away! And I will travel, meaning I will travel! No one will stop me!"
While I was running quickly, I was suddenly surprised by someone grabbing my wrist and preventing me from continuing. I stopped and turned around, grinding my teeth with a face stained with anger that quickly turned into amazement.
Is this reasonable? It was my grandfather who stopped me from running.. This is strange!! . How was he able to follow me despite that speed, and how was he able to catch me in the first place? I wonder if that old man has such a good body?
"How did you come so quickly, grandfather??!! .."
I quickly ignored the matter and began to buy time to try to escape again: "It doesn't matter, let me travel, please, grandfather. I want to achieve my dream, grandfather..."
My grandfather feigned ignorance as he raised his eyebrows
. "Weren't you walking?..."
I let out a hot breath, this was expected! He won't let me go easily.
"I'm sorry about my lie...but please, Grandpa, allow me to leave. It's better for you to stay still. You know I'm ambitious, Grandpa!"
"..."
"Please let me go and I will be fine, please please please please."
He looked at me for a long time without reacting, and I knew his answer in advance. I quietly tricked him a lot into letting me travel, but he sternly refused! So, I had to run away!.. But now I'm in real trouble!
However, my grandfather's response was surprising.
"If that is the case...then the path is ahead of you."
He let go of my already tightly held hand. I put my hands on my chest and said childishly, with a certainty that he was making fun of me:
"Don't make fun of me, Grandpa, please!" However, his relaxed tone was even more strange.
"I'm not making fun... You can travel now.."
I frowned in amazement at what he said, if anything. It's that easy, so why did he previously reject the idea of my travel?
"Wait a minute, are you serious?! Do you really want me to travel!? Or are you preparing to punish me?!"
The second possibility was great for me, as that smile coming from him did not make me feel comfortable!
"Yes, go achieve your dream. I will not prevent you, and this is a promise. I will not punish you for your desire and goal."
My mouth dropped in disbelief. In fact, his words seemed so warm and sincere. I narrowed my eyes in doubt. This is definitely unreasonable.
"Please grandpa, don't play with my thoughts and in the end you will punish me. Be honest with me... You can catch me now if you want."
I extended my hand to him like a criminal waiting for shackles, but he surprised me again with his embrace and his quiet laugh.
"Were you even that strict?"
He pulled away and put both his hands on my shoulders and sighed to continue:
"You can travel as you wish, but my condition is that you take care of yourself and be... Safe..."
The description of my condition was a little short of shock...it was shock mixed with surprise and astonishment.
Since when has my grandfather been like this?! ...I was not accustomed to or did not believe that those words came from a man who was always serious and strict! .. If someone came and told me that he would allow me to travel easily and also hug me, I would have definitely thought he was crazy.
She exclaimed in skepticism and disbelief. "But I thought you would stop me.... Why?!"
"And why should I stop you? Since you were young, you have wanted to achieve that dream that you have always challenged me and rebelled against my words because of. I still do not know what it is, but... I trust you and I know how good your heart is, so I am sure that it is a wonderful goal..."
Tears gathered in my eyes Out of the corner of my eye, those were definitely the warmest and most beautiful words I had ever heard from my grandfather in my entire life.
I have a habit when I cry that I can never change, which is my face turning red and my lower lip sticking out, so now I looked like a crying little baby. I scratched my nose with my arm, I'm not crying guys!
"Grandpa... I can never believe you are the one saying this... You are always so strict and controlling."
"If you spend your life like me, you will know why..."
"..and what caused the big change?!..."
My grandfather let out a short sigh and stared deeply into my eyes. My grandfather has distinctive gray eyes as do my father and my uncles, but I don't understand why Serdar and I have similar eye color though.
"I will tell you the truth, but... promise me first that you will tell me the whole truth when you come back and fulfill your dream..."
His words now were doubtful, and I felt disturbed by that. "Okay, I swear to you, grandfather, when I fulfill my dream and come back... I will tell you the whole truth. "
He said with a small smile:
"This is good... I know about your strength..."
It was as if a snow mountain had fallen on top of me. I could not describe my condition now.. I was afraid and disturbed by what he said.. ...؟