Ch 30: I have feelings for you.
The next day i sat on my desk , looking at the outside view. I kind of got used to this time travelling thingy.
I had to say this but thinking about all the possibilities on the reason why I was sent back to the past is a headache.
Currently I sit nervously at my desk, staring at the textbook in front of me but not really seeing the words. My mind is consumed by thoughts of Sensei Yuuta – her kind smile, her encouraging words, the way she always seems to believe in me even when I doubt myself. As the minutes tick by, I become increasingly aware of the weight of the words I need to say.
Sensei Yuuta enters the room, and my heart skips a beat. This is it, the moment I've been dreading and anticipating in equal measure. I swallow hard and force myself to stand as she approaches.
"Toku-chan, could I have a moment of your time?"
I nod, my mouth suddenly dry, and follow her to the back of the classroom where we can speak privately. My palms are clammy, and I have to resist the urge to wipe them on my pants.
"What is it, Sensei?"
Sensei Yuuta looks at me, her expression serious yet gentle, and I can feel my heart pounding in my chest.
"Toku-chan there's something I need to tell you. It's been on my mind for a while now, and I can't keep it to myself any longer."
I hold my breath, my pulse racing as I wait for her to continue.
"Its..that..." the anticipation is building inside me like a lava.
"I actually needed some help with the papers after school..well is it okay?"
A quote said by myself : keep your expectations on the ground when it's for a woman.
And he was damn right.
"Yes sensei..." I told her as the two of us walked in the classroom and got stares from all of them.
"Sensei wanted help with the papers right?" Ren flips through her book as she said that.
'How?!' that was the question in my mind. How can she tell what sensei said without her being there?
"How did you know?!"
The expression of shock came from sensei who was just as shocked as myself.
"Really sensei your voice was cracking ain't gonna lie that's a give away." she said while looking outside of the window with an expression which said that this deduction was like a piece of cake to her.
"Also your voice turned monotonous the moment you entered the room. So that's another give away that you wanted to ask one of us to help you." Akeshi said while reading a book called 「Blood Martian 」. It is a really old book.
"Hey I wanted to say that!"
"Well you snooze you lose."
"Yup that's the only thing you can do cuz you can't even deduce anything on your own so you used my strings to get to the conclusion."
"Well madam I just say I didn't. And that was my own deduction so please back off. You saw my face and looked through my mind and then put pieces together to reach the conclusion. Didn't you?"
"Eh~ look at you in your own dreams~. But dreaming is good but too much dreaming might invite nightmares you know that right?"
"Yup and I know for a fact that you will piss yourself when you are in that said nightmare."
"Oh my~ using me to tell you about your own cowardly actions? How cute of you."
"Well –!"
*Slam!*
"Silence!" Sensei slammed her hand on the board almost cracking the screen.
"If the two of you keep on taking then I will take away 20 points from your exam! Got it?!"
The two nodded their heads and sat down.
While others were talking about this and that and sensei was taking out some notes , I was thinking that how the hell the two of them were able to see each other and notice such things when the two didn't even look at each other.
That's a god damn nice chemistry between them.
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In the afternoon I told my parents that I will be late to get home . When they asked why I told them that sensei needed some help with the works. Which they weren't ready for but were okay with it.
I looked at Sensei who looked much calmer than before. It was a shock that the sensei who was so cheerful is now wearing a hard mask on her face and it's hard to tell what she is thinking.
"Anything you wanted to say?" I was asked by sensei who looked at me with an eyebrow raise.
Without knowing that I was staring at her for a long time , I flustered.
"No.." I denied.
But I started to think about something. What if I confess now? I get this feeling off my chest and can calm my mind for some time although I think I will still feel nervous about the answer she might give me.
"Sensei there is something I need to tell you." I managed to take the voice out of my mouth . Sensei looked at me.
The entire teachers room was empty. It's because it's already time to go home but sensei and myself are here because of the work that she pilled up for a while.
"Yes," she gave a gentle smile ,"What is it?"
Here you go , you can do it. Don't fuck it up.
"I... I have feelings for you. More than just as a student to a teacher. It's something I've tried to ignore, but it's become impossible to deny."