"It happened like this. I don't know what to do now." I was walking in the house and talking to Atoosa on the phone.
"I don't get it! Why didn't you let him explain?" She asked.
"Don't know. I lost control when I saw my clothes changed."
"Why is it so important to you? He's just your neighbor!"
I didn't tell her about falling in love with Edwin. Didn't dare. Don't know why! Maybe I was afraid that she would judge me because I haven't met Edwin for a long time.
"I…well… He's my neighbor. I don't want him to be upset with me. I have to find a way to forgive me."
"Why don't you apologize to him? I'm sure he will accept. As you described him, he must be a gentleman."
"He is," I got blush. Even thinking about him makes me blush,"you know what?! You're right. I will apologize to him,"
*****
It was 7PM when I went to the police station with several cold sandwiches. Edwin is kind, I'm sure he will forgive me. I just bought him the most expensive sandwiches.
"Excuse me, I'm looking for Edwin Horabin," I asked the first person I saw.
He pointed to the end of the corridor. where there was a room with a big window. Edwin was inside. Busy working on the computer and constantly writing something down. I went forward and knocked on the door. He looked at me. Oh, my heart rate went up again.
Without saying anything, he started taking notes again.
"Hey, may I come in?"
He said nothing. He was upset with me. I went in and wanted to close the door.
"Don't, I don't wanna be in a closed place with you." Edwin said poker face.
I was so upset by his words that I almost cried. didn't know when I fall in love, my whole soul will be wounded so much by a small carelessness.
"You okay?!" I asked.
"What you want?"
"I'm here to see you. I brought you some sandwiches."
"I'm a pervert. Why do you have to do this to me?!" He teased.
"I'm… sorry. I judged you too soon, I was confused,"
Edwin closed his office and turned off his computer. Getting as if he wanted to go somewhere.
"Leaving?!"
"Don't have to explain"
I was fed up with this placelessness. wanted to hug him tightly and let myself go and he would forgive me.
"Do you forgive me?!" I asked.
"I don't know what I did to make you think I was taking advantage of you. I always tried not to cross the line." He said.
"I know, I just thought…,"
"Do you know why you thought I was a bad person? Because you're a proud person Elizabeth! You think you're better than everyone,"
"It's not true," I said sadly.
"Yes it is. You're proud now too. Did you think I don't know why you speak slowly? You don't want anyone to know that you did something wrong!"
Edwin's words hurt me,"I swear it's not true," I said with sad eyes.
"I liked you Elizabeth, I thought you're different." He said.
"Wait, you like me?!"
Inside my hopes were formed. I smiled.
"See?! You're laughing at me! Yes I liked you before but not now," Edwin said. He left with no goodbye.
Now that I realized Edwin loves me all my oppression to forgive me. Even to spend all my assets.
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Edwin's girl! Was the name that Edwin's friends had chosen for me in the police department. The reason was that I went to Edwin's work every night, brought Sandwich for him.
He wasn't willing to talk to me or walk me to his room. but I could see him at least. And that was enough for me.
This was the punishment that Edwin was considered for me and I accepted. Even his torture is enjoyable for me.
In the office, I became acquainted with a few of Edwin's friends. One of them was Josh. Josh was a tall and blonde. Originally German. he was kind and had two children. Josh and I were talking about Edwin a lot. He said when I'm not here, Edwin looks at the door and waiting for me. He said that he is sure Edwin likes me.
One cold day, when I went to the office with some sandwiches, the guard didn't let me in. He said Edwin ordered him not to let me come again. He told me that Edwin has now gone to the city to investigate the case.
I waited outside for him to come. I can't sleep if I don't see him.
The weather was so cold that my nose was frozen and I could hardly move my fingers. I was sitting on a bench next to the office, shivering from the cold. a red scarf was around my neck.
It started raining. Edwin came. He got out of the car and I got up happily. He smiles. A policewoman came out from the driver's seat. Who is this bitch?!
She was blonde and skinny. She was looking at Edwin with a smile. The girl was very cold and when Edwin noticed, he took off his jacket and gave it to her. Then they stuck together under an umbrella and went inside laughing.
I got shocked. My heart stopped and didn't know what's happening! Even the cold weather and heavy rain didn't matter anymore. I died of grief. Tears were falling from my eyes and I was staring at them without moving.
Edwin saw me but left without noticing my sadness. This distroyed me. I didn't care about anything. Not cold, not rain, not if someone see my weak.
I lowered my head. Why?! I kept blaming myself for being so angry that day. I hate myself.
An hour passed and I was still down. Crying and still raining. My clothes got wet.
There came a moment when I no longer felt the rain on my head. I raised my head and saw a man holding an umbrella above me. Edwin was there. I stood up, barely.
"You're still here?!" He said softly.
"I am not proud" I said with sad.
"Why is it so important to you that I forgive you?"
I staring into his eyes,"because...be... because...," Dam you Ella! Say it. what are you afraid of?!,"because I love you,"
I finally did it. I Finally say it. I calmed down a bit, but now I was worried about Edwin's answer. What if he doesn't love me anymore?! if… .
"I love you too," Edwin said.
"You...you don't hate me?!" I asked with smile.
"No! How can I hate you?!"
"What about those words?! That girl?!"
"She is my colleague. We have no special relationship,"
I was happy and Edwin was looking at me with special tenderness and I blushed.
"Is this Elizabeth Adelinga who is blushing?!" I can not believe it!"
I smiled and wiped my wet eyes. Edwin took my hand, pulled me towards him. My eyes opened and my heart beat fast. I was in Edwin's arms. I could hear his heart. I raised my head and looked at him. to his eyes and lips Involuntarily, I was drawn to his lips. He came close and put his lips on mine and kissed me.
I closed my eyes and let myself go. Throwing my hands around his neck and touching my body to his body. Heat spread throughout my body. I have never had this feeling before. An incredible pleasure filled my whole body and moved down from the lips. Everything was incredible.