I waved bye to Kartik and stepped inside with so many thoughts clouded in my head. Yes Kartik's words assured me that he would never leave my side.
And I know he will never, as his heart is so pure and kind.
I don't want to spoil his mood further, he is not free like me he have so many business deals to handle... I can't stress him now and then. So I smiled as he was making too many efforts to make me laugh... He always does.
When I am with him, I really feel home... Day by day I am getting too attached to him, too much that I can't imagine my life, even a day Or second without him.
He is too perfect, he is too sweet, he is everything a girl could have imagined about as her dream boy, as her sapno ka rajkumar! Yes he is my prince but.... But suddenly all my insecurities captivated my heart...
Am I enough for him? Do he deserve me... After all am just an orphan abandoned by everyone... Who is just an average girl...
An average looking girl with average physique may be good for nothing and Kartik.... A billionaire who is admired and wanted by everyone...
Me... Who is left alone by everyone...
Kartik... Desired by everyone..
Me.. Who have no future..
Kartik.. Who is self made successful business man, with whom multinational companies want to work...
My own brother, yes not by blood but he was, he is my brother Yuvraj bhai. I love him so much no matter if he doesn't take me as his sister, Didn't even bothered to contact me. Even Ayashu bhabhi didn't called me once. Am I that vulnerable?
And A lump formed in my chest. I don't know why all of the sudden I am thinking this way...! Ruining mine as well as his mood too. He must be worried about me, he cares about me too much, more than I deserve. And here I am, always gives him trouble because of my overthinking.
Shivi Shivi... You can't just be like this in front of him again and again. He deserves a girl with whom he'll not get ashamed in future. With whom he can proudly go anywhere. And A girl to whom he can proudly say that Yes She is my girl.
And the thing is... Haahh!! I can't see him with anyone else, My heart would burn with jealously and my blood would boil out of anger. So..... I'll try to be that girl for him whom he can show off with pride to the world. Yes I can do it!! And I smiled at the thought
But how??? And again I felt sad. Okay Don't be sad!! I'll find some way... I'll definitely find some way!! Plan ka title mil gya hai.... Plan bhi mil jayga!!
And I motivated my heart A little. And with this motivation session I reached my class.
Ahhh!!! Am already feeling dizzy and exhausted and it's just the start of the day.
I searched for Srishti and she was sitting at the last bench. She waved at me the moment she saw me and I waved back with a smile. I walked towards her and settle down beside her.
"And Mrs. Shivanya Kartik Rajput, how things are going hm hmm??? " She said teasingly with a sneer smile.
Her words made me blush and I tried to suppress my smile. Okay!! This name gives me many butterflies. I would more than love this name.... I never got any identity but his name beside me... Ahhhh would be the best day of my life... Really!! Krishna Ji zada ni mang rahi bass itna saa kar dein apni pyari shivi ke liye!! I know you love me right!!!
And I blushed more at the thought...!!!
And Srishti giggled.... "Aaye haaye dekho toh hamari Shivi ko" And hit me teasingly on my shoulder with her's.
And butterflies started dancing in my stomach! But, sir came and we sat straight and tried to concentrate... Focus Shivi Focus you have to be successful like him and make him feel proud on you!!!
Honestly speaking... Before I wanted to be self independent that's why I wanted to continue my studies so that I don't have to ask for anything from anyone....
But now, I wanted to study to make Kartik feel that his girl is not just a dumb kiddo but an optimistic and determined woman, I know he wants such qualities in his girl and I'll make sure I have them!!
It's just 3rd period and I am trying to attend all classes with my complete concentration but a sudden pain started in my stomach!
Which was literally unbearable... Is it because of heavy breakfast?? I hadn't even had anything junk. I covered my stomach with both my hand and did head down on the desk.
Srishti noticed and asked in worried tone "What happen shivi?? "
"Nothing just stomach ache" I said in low tone.
"Do you want to go to medical room" She added keeping her hand on my back.
I have no energy to walk all way there... So I shaked my head in no. But ufff!!! This pain is unbearable.. And I remembered!! Oh shit....
And I asked Srishti "What's the date today??? "
"It's.. It's 25th...but why?? " She replied leaning towards me as sir was still in the class giving lecture..
25th?? How can I forget..!!
"Srishti... Can You help me to washroom" I said almost whispering grabbing my bag.
"Ohh okk" She replied, she understood what's the matter and held my hand.
"Excuse me sir" She said standing up from the seat
"Yes..??" Sir replied
"Sorry but, may we just leave, Shivanya is not feeling well" She added and sir nodded
She grabbed her bag too and helped me to washroom. Ahhh!! This cramping pain in my abdomen...!! Why this have to be this worst every month?? Can't it just come without any pain and pass away just like that!! I barely can walk, leaning all over Srishti...
On reaching washroom, I checked and my doubt was right... My periods arrived. I gained courage and changed into pads and walked outside with the support of wall. Okay!! That's it I can do it more!!
Srishti held me again and gave me support, we struggled outside the washroom and I settled on the chair nearby!
This pain is so severe, that I can feel all my body aching like hell now. And tears gathered in my eyes...!! I want to go home!!
Srishti was standing near me, when she saw tears in my eyes she hugged me and creased my back, "Shhh shhh Shivu, it's okay you are so brave hmm don't cry like this"
She tried to console me but more tears left my eyes.
"Do I call The nurse hmm??" She asked worried "or you need anything just tell me" She added
"Call Kartik... I want to go home" I said sobbing. With home I meant him, my only comfort home.
I know he must be busy with work but... But I can't bear this!!
"Oh... Ohhkay" She said and took my phone immediately and called him while still rubbing my back.
He picked up the call in one ring
He said something but Srishti cut in between I guess
"Am not shivi, kartik jiju" She said in a fast tone
He replied something I didn't hear that. I was busy crying!
"She is sobbing she got...."
And she looked at the phone screen 'Battery off'
"Shit!! Ise bhi abhi off hona tha" She said annoyed
Ahhh!! Why didn't I charged it!! Kartik must be worried!!
Why Krishna Ji you always have to make things complicated!!
And More tears left my eyes.
I don't know but I can't stop crying!! They are coming automatically... I just can't control.. I am feeling like hell at this moment... I hate these days. And I bowed down at the table near by , tightly holding my stomach.
"Shivi, you want to have some pain killer?? " Srishti asked
I shook my head in no again. I don't want anything, I just want Kartik....!!
I was there doing head down with silent sobs I think for 5 minutes while Srishti was creasing my back, trying to comfort me A little, that an announcement was made in the college.
"Miss Shivanya, BBA 1st year where ever you are, if you listen to us please contact" Someone said in mic.
I looked up with confusion. What the?? Did they call me?? What I had done..? And I looked at Srishti who was looking equally confused.
"Miss Shivanya, please contact" Again that voice came.
"I'll go and see what's happening... " Srishti said and hurried towards the auditorium from where that voice was coming. I was in no mood of going anywhere, pain in my body was literally killing me.
She came back with our principal sir, our college dean and two - three teachers after few minutes and I tried to stand up look but principal sir gestured me to keep sitting while dean sir was on call with someone,
" Yeah she is in front of our eyes.... "
"Yes yes sir.. She is safe" He added
"Ok sure sir" He further said and hanged up the call.
Principal sir walked towards me and gently patted on my shoulder "Beta, are you fine? Do you need anything or should I call doctor"
He didn't even know me I guess... But out of sudden this behavior?? But my brain is not in any condition to process anything so I just shook my head in no and managed to reply with teary eyes
"No sir... Am fine"
"You sure beta?? " He asked with concern
I nodded.
He along with others teachers, dean sir and Srishti keep standing beside me all the time.
And I again did head down.
After sometime, I heard a loud voice "Shivi.... " I looked up and realized Kartik is running towards me from the corridor and on looking at him more tears left my eyes and I started sobbing again. He took long steps and kneel down near my chair, he was almost reaching my height.
"Kya ho gya mera bachaa" He asked worried and I get down the chair on his lap and hugged him while clutching the corner of his coat tightly.
He softly rubbed my back and pecked on my head.
He said something to dean sir, I don't know what and I continued sobbing.
"Shhh shona mei aa gya hoon na shhhh" He said softly
"Tell me who the fu.... Hell is counting on his last breathe hmm tell me" He said with gritted teeth while holding me tightly in his embrace.
"Jiju relax, it's just period cramps" Srishti replied
"Shivi bol na warna kisi ko maar waar denge" She said looking towards me and Kartik sighed.
"Hmm Kartik... It's... It's... Paining" I said looking at him with my teary eyes and he creased my cheeks wiping the tears off.
"Am so sorry baby, Come.. Let's go to doctor hmm" He said softly and picked me up in his arms while I hugged his neck tightly and my tears are not falling from my eyes like someone left tap of water opened inside there!
"Sir, we are taking leave" He said to Dean sir
"It's ok Kartik Sir, we understand" Dean sir replied.
And he walked outside with me in his arms.
While walking he called someone on phone and said
"Yeah, bring me a hot watter bottle... A hot water bag and Umm pain killer and.... And some ice cream,
chocolate.... Chocolate flavour IMMEDIATELY, before I reach my car " And hanged up the call
He opened the door of his side and settled inside, gently keeping me on his lap and creasing my head and someone gave him a bag from window.
"Thanks" He replied and started the car.