I know it's just her college fest, but this is for the first time my baby is going to experience such kind of fests and all. She never did before because of his fucker brother.
But now, as she is with me I don't want her to miss anything. I want everything to be perfect, just in the way she wants. If anyone wants to call me crazy, go on I don't give a fuck, all that matters to me is her little happiness. If this is making her happy then I'll do anything to give her more.
And suddenly while walking I heard my stomach rumbling. I realized I hadn't ate anything after morning and it's dusk now. I forget to have anything in stress of meeting and then health of sweeta.
I looked at Shivi leaning tiredly on my arm while walking, she too must be hurgry by now as she too just had some berries.
By now, we already had reached outside the mall so I decided to bring something for us after safely leaving her inside car as she is looking in no mood of going anywhere.
On reaching car, I kept those bags at back seat and opened the door from her side.
"Sweeta, you be here I'll be back in some time okay" I said creasing her head.
"But where are you going" She asked tiredly.
"Nothing just give me two minutes, and don't come outside. I'll be back soon" I said pecking her head.
And she nodded. I smiled at her and looked around to spot some shop to buy food for both of us.
I first spotted the pani puri stall, then I looked back at Shivi sitting with closed eyes. Anything but not this!! I checked if this stall is in view of shivi and phew!! Fortunately it's not.
And then there it is, I walked towards a shop with fruits and vegetables. I said them to prepare one bowl fruit salad and one vegetable salad with one strawberry and one lichi milkshake because I don't know what she'll have, sometimes her favorite is strawberry, some time its litchi, sometime she eat fruits happily and sometime vegetables and I can have anything at this time!!
I again looked back at Shivi and she was there only.
"Sir, here's your order" One of them said and I paid them money.
And suddenly my phone buzzed.
"One second" I said to the one giving packed order.
It was from Ruhi. I answered the call and put airpods on taking the order from him.
"Yeah" I replied walking towards the car.
"Sir, Raj sir is asking for the presentation file of tomorrow's meeting" She said
"What? And why is he asking" I asked confused as I have already sent that to him even before he came to my house.
"I don't know sir, he said me to ask you for the file" She replied
May be he misplaced the file! What else should we expect! He have his attention in everything but work now a days. I surely need to talk to him regarding this.
"Oh okay, I'll send him" I replied.
I hanged up and reached the car. I opened the door at shivi's side and Wait... Where is shee??? I kept those packets inside and was too confused to react. Where the hell is shivi! The two minutes before she was here only.
I closed the door and looked around tensed. I called her name "Shivii... " But she was nowhere to see.
"Hey!! Have you... Have you seen a girl wearing purple hoodie anywhere? She was sitting in the car" I asked a man nearby but he shooked his head in no.
"Shivii..... " I said loudly looking all around in search of her.
Where the fuck she gone in just two minutes!!! I ruffled my hair to calm down but how can I calm down!! My heart started beating hard and tears gathered in my eyes. Where is my sweeta....? The thought that she is not near me is killing me and I moved around not in my senses to find her.
When I was near the road I saw someone sitting between the road on her toes. I looked carefully and realized Haaaah!! She was shivi..... But what the fuck she's doing here. I sucked a mouth full of breath which almost stopped few seconds before.
She stood up from there, I was walking towards her when I noticed a car moving towards her in full speed. Hell!!!....
I rushed towards her huridly, in the maximum speed possible and called her name loudly,
"Shiviiiiii move from there" But she didn't heard.
I took her arm and pulled her and that car just missed her by few millimeters.
Her hand landed on my chest and her breaths as well as mine was too fast in fear. I almost had seen her.... I pulled her back from my arms and glared at her like what she was thinking???
"WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU DOING IN BETWEEN THIS ROAD" I yelled her at the possible high pitch that I can feel nevers in my neck vibrating.
"WHAT I HAD TOLD YOU HMM???" I said frowning in anger.
"You have promised na that You'll never listen to Kartik??" I added with rage "Abhi kuch ho jata toh mera kya hota hm??" I realized my vision getting blurred with tears. I turned around and wiped them off calming my anger.
I looked back at her realizing a cat in her hands which was looking wounded. Then I looked back at her face, eyes fixed down and dropes of tears falling on her hand holding cat.
Ahhhhh....!! I took a breath to lower the anger flowing in me.
I saw a crowd of people looking at us, FUCK....!!
I took her hand which was locked around cat in front of her chest hugging it tightly. She didn't opened that lock.
I sighed and dragged her to car through that only and she followed silently looking down.
I opened the door and she sat inside with that wounded creature in its hand. I looked at them both for a minute before shutting the door of her side and going to my side.
When I settled at my side, she was applying anticeptic to that cat from the first aid box kept in the car. I sighed and started the car. This girl literally gave me heart attack and she is crying then also first thing she wants to do is to apply anticeptic to that cat because of which she was almost......!!!
What should I do now!! I buckled her seat belt and wiped the tears on her face with the back of my hand.
I started the car and kept hand on her seat, she didn't lifted her head up, as she was busy dressing the wound and that cat is snuggling into her lap. I shaked my head and looked back to reverse the car and then turned towards the road.
I was driving but all my attention was on shivi who I knew was sobbing, hugging that animal!! I don't know how to react because rage in my nerves is still the same and I don't want to scold her more. At the first place, I shouldn't have shouted at her in between the road too, I am feeling guilty for that. I don't want to add.
But her giving attention to something else and giving me ignore treatment is killing me now. I pulled the gear shift with a jerk.
Meanwhile, I opened the strawberry milkshake and pushed it towards her but she didn't took and even didn't looked up.
I held the starring with all the force I have, like I am trying to express out my anger at it and then took a deep breathe and took off the lichi milkshake. I pushed that towards her, and as expected she didn't even took that.
Now this is enough!! I looked at her direction but she didn't even tilted her head a bit.
I then took out the fruit bowl and passed it to her. I kept that hand near her for the whole two minutes i.e., 60 seconds and she finally took that.
I gasped a breathe of relief and when I looked back at her she was feeding that to..... To that fucker cat!!!!
FUCKING HELL.....!!! Ask me how I am controlling to throw it outside the window.
I hit the starring in Frustation which made shivi wince. Which made me more Frustated with myself. I didn't want this to happen, but why does she want to test my patience now? Okay give that fucker as much food she wants to but at least have something by herself.
I changed the gear and kept it on neutral. Then I picked up A piece of apple and stretched my hand towards her mouth.
But she again didn't opened her mouth. I sighed. No Kartik..... Relax!!! You have to calm down....!!!
I took a deep breath. And decided to reach home first.
On reaching home, I parked the car in front of the door and she opened the door from her side and went inside, even before I realized what happened.
Leaving me baffled. KARTIK YOU DESERVE THIS AFTER YELLING AT HER....!!! I reminded myself.
I opened the door and took all the bags from back seat along with the milkshake and other things. And yes of course her pikachu too.
I shutted the door behind with my foot. There were so many parcels too at the door step already waiting for us. I entered the already opened door, and kept the bags in my hand inside and then took the parcels at the door step too. I took complete fifteen minutes to keep all the things inside.
And finally, I went inside in the search of Shivi, who was no where to see. GOD THIS IS REALLY ENOUGH FOR ONE DAY!!!
She was not in the living room, she was not in the kitchen. Then I went upstairs in my room, she was not there too even not in her room. Where the hell she is gone now!! I settled on her bed and massaged my head for a bit, which is aching now! She is in mood of playing hide and seek with me now!!
And then I heard voice of that cat from behind.
I looked behind to find from where this voice came. I stood up and called her, "Shivi are you here...." But no one replied.
I went inside her dressing room, but she was not there too. I was on the way to go back but again I heard the voice of the cat and then a shhhh sound with that.
I again looked back to realize all the clothes from almirah are laying outside. Is she...!???
I went towards her almirah which was opened a bit and suppressed the urge to laugh.
Mann toh kar raha hai yahi par band kar doon bahr se!!
I shaked my head to bring back the normal expression and opened the door of almirah just to find her sitting inside with her cat.
And she again closed it even before I completely opened it.
"Shivi, What is this now! Come outside.....!!" I said and again was opening the door but she held it tightly from inside. I can open it in one go but it would hurt her. Ufff.....
"Bachaa, listen mera bachaa please come outside" I said softly.
But she didn't replied.
"Shivan... Shivi..... " I called strictly but..... Still....!!
Enough!! "Take off your hands from the door I am opening it" I said and opened it after two seconds.
With that, her cat went outside somewhere in the room and shivi gasped looking at it but again turned her head down at looking at me.
"Oyeee What is this behavior hmm???" I said holding the door.
But she folded her hand and turned around looking at the wall of almirah.
"So you don't want to come out" I asked her only to listen.... FLOWING AIR.
"I'll lock you inside here I am telling you" I said to her as her ignorance is getting on my nerves now.
When still she doesn't respond, I added " With lights off "
And she slowly looked at me over her shoulder in scared expression.
"I am serious" I said further but when she still didn't replied I said slowly, "Okay your wish" With almost half way closing the door, obviously not seriously! But as I had hoped she turned around quickly and said
"No.... No.... No.. Am coming"
Hahhhh!! She finally agreed. I tried hard to maintain the strict expression on my face as I am still angry with her and opened my arms for her.
She unwilling held on my shoulder and I picked her up and walked outside, in her room.
I kept her gently on the bed and her satyagrah was still going on!! She folded her legs and arm sitting at the far away corner on the bed.
I too folded my arm and said,
"Naraz toh mujhe hona chahiye"
And she just replied "Huhhh!!" And looked at other side.
I again massaged my temple a bit to ease the ache! And settled beside her pulling her towards me. But instead of sitting in my lap she stood up on the bed. I looked up at her and she was standing folding her arms like a fierce kitten!
I stood up on the floor and kept both the hands on each side of my waist and looked at her and then down.
She was searching with her eyes something on me and the moment I looked up, she again started looking side wards.
And then her cat came out of no where and she sat and kept her in lap creasing her hair while she was relaxing over there.
Okay God can you turn me into a cat? Am done being Kartik, I thought looking up at him and then again at them sitting in middle of the bed.
"And by the way what about this cat hm??" I asked looking at her hand which were creasing on it and then on her face which was now looking at me with doe eyes.
"She was all alone" She said again pulling her face towards that "she".
Is her 'she' living with us now??
I don't want a traitor in here for sure but enough of scolding and crying session today I don't want her to cry again!!
" But I'll leave her back again tomorrow " She added in disappointed tone.
I thought for a second and replied "No need its ok your 'she' can stay"
And she looked at me and almost smiled but then again looked back down.
I sighed and settled beside her supporting on my elbow.
"And how long this ballon would take to burst" I said touching her cheek. And she winced away. But this time I held her with waist and pulled her back that her back was touching my chest. She wiggled to get off but I held her tightly and said in calm yet serious tone "Sweeta, don't go wiggling or I'll kiss you until your lips swell badly and dare to try me"
She finally stayed still holding her cat tightly in her arms Ufff!!! Can't this animal give some privacy?
I held her both arms and opened it to free that cat and thank god she ranned away. I heard a scoff from shivi but I held her thighs and turned her around.
I held both her hands in a lock so that she doesn't skip away as I have no energy left to catch her again.
"Now tell me, why you are not talking hm?? " I asked her placing my finger on her chin making her look up. She parted her eyes away from me with sad expressions.
"Kha jaunga aapko mei I am telling you, if you keep on behaving this way! " I said and she slowly moved her eyes innocently in my direction.
I took a deep breath and said,
"Okay! Am sorry I know I shouldn't have behaved that way... Am really sorry baby but I was scared, I was really scared when I didn't find you anywhere"
I tugged her loose strands behind her ear and added
"And when I saw that car almost....... My heart stopped for a moment out of fear! That's why I..... Ahhh"
"I know I shouldn't have shouted at you... Am sorry... But the way you are ignoring me is really killing me" I said controlling my emotions in the calmest way possible.
And tears gathered in her eyes again, "That kitty... Kitty was all alone.... wounded.... In between..... The road..... so many cars..... Were moving..... That's why" And she started sobbing.
I pulled her into my arms and rubbed her back " It's.... It's okay... Meri jaaan.... It's okay..... Now be a good girl and don't cry, you are my big girl na.... Am sorry"
And she clutched my shirt while sniffling. All I want is her smile her safety.... But why it never goes in that way? In the end of the day no matter what because of something I always make her cry!! Now I am hating myself for that..... !! Am I minimizing or adding on her already messed up life? My heart is aching by seeing her tears falling down that too because of me! All because of me.....!!
The way she is holding me and sobbing..... is hurting like someone is ripping my heart with a knife!
She pulled herself back and looked at me with her teary eyes. I wiped her face with my hand and creased her face softly. She sniffled and wiped the tears from my face too which I don't know when fall off. "Am sorry Kartik.... I made you cry. I am so sorry" She said and more tears left her eyes.
"No.... No no.... My baby... Don't.... Don't cry, not you but your tears are hurting me" And I wiped them again from her face which are rolling down her cheeks and straight away stinging my heart.
And she sniffed again and hoped over my lap and wrapped her arms around my neck,
"Am sorry" She said while sniffling
"Don't be" I said rubbing her back.
"I love you" She further said and I smiled "Love you more my kiddo" And pecked her shoulder.
I noticed her kitty was watching us from corner of the room.
"See shivu, your kitty is also laughing at you while seeing you cry" I said with a fake chuckle to make her mood normal.
She looked back at her direction and then looked at me thinning her eyebrows.
"Really she was laughing two seconds before" I said innocently.
And she finally giggled.
And I pecked her forhead.
"See how pretty you are looking while smiling but you always choose to sniffle like a pre nursery student" I said in a teasing tone.
And she hit me slowly on my arm "Kartik... "
"Sweetaaaa" And I replied mocking her.