Her tears and those words were enough to make me realize that she had been in love with me since the very beginning she started to know me. Watching Nikita cry made me realize my mistake, and my heart slowly started feeling sympathetic towards her. Even staying apart from her this long after so many close interactions made me realize that I'm in love with her as well.
Why Suraj? Do you hate me? Do you think that I will use you? Why don't you understand that the person I love is just you? (Nikita sobbing)
Watching her sob and say those words made my heart heavier and heavier slowly. Every word from her felt like 1 kg of weight on my heart. I never saw a girl crying in my life. I remember the time when my mother used to hide tears just to not let me know about her condition.
Every drop of rain fell from her eyes and landed on the ground, along with the drops of rain as well. I realized that it had started raining. I told her to take shelter, but she wasn't listening to me. I decided to listen to her complaints in the rain.
Why? Why? Reply to me. Why are you silent? (Nikita)
I was watching her silently and kept listening. I knew that it was my fault; I couldn't help myself. It was the very first time something like that was in front of me.
Everything I did so far was just for you. I changed my hairstyle and dress. Even now, I am wearing this dress just for you. I wanted to celebrate my moments with you, not with anyone else, Suraj. (Nikita)
Each time she said something, she started feeling even heavier. I don't know what I should do. My inner voice was stopping me from reacting to her.
Hey, dude, what are you so sad about? (Inner voice)
It's Nikita; she is crying, and I couldn't help her. (Suraj)
Why are you worrying about a girl? You already know that she could betray you, just like your friend did to you and your mother did to your father. (Inner voice)
Do you think like that? My father loved her all along, even though they never had great moments, but both of them had important roles for me. (Suraj)
I don't think so. Your mother left you behind the shadows of your father, and even your friend left you dying in that pit. (Inner voice)
Shut up!!! My mother wasn't like that; she saved me from everything. Whatever she did was for me. (Suraj)
Didn't she leave you by saying that you and your father are a disgrace? I am saving you from the danger. (Inner voice)
I know that, but when I grew up, I found the reason. I hated her when she left me and my dad for a reason, but that doesn't mean Nikita will never do that. She loves me, and I love her as well. (Suraj)
Grow up, my child. This isn't you. You don't love anyone. You just want her in your bed and want to extinguish your fire of lust. Just look at her body. This is your chance to become a real man. (Inner voice)
Shut up; I am not like that. Maybe you could think of doing this to someone, but I won't. (Suraj)
Just listen to me, my boy. I am trying to save you, not harm you. (Inner voice)
You have already saved me enough until now. You are just a replica of what I needed at that time. Now, I have realized that you are destroying me from the inside. I won't listen to you now; just go away and let me handle this on my own. (Suraj)
Okay, I am going away from you, but you will regret it later. (Inner Voice)
I won't. I don't need you. (Suraj)
At the time, Nikita was sobbing and crying. I was trying to overcome my inner voice that had been stopping me from trusting people. Now that I've realized it was all just my past and everyone's different, I will start trusting again.
After that, I tried remembering my father's words and actions. That is what he used to do when my mom used to cry over such things.
When I got back to my senses and decided to say Nikita stopped, Then she started walking from behind, watching the ground. She was in sorrow and deep pain. Her silence and position, including her facial expression, were enough to inform me about her mental state.
Before she could go further, I grabbed her and pulled her towards me. She saw my face.
What has happened to you now? Why are you crying? Did I hurt you? (Nikita in a trembling voice)
Nothing, just a small bug, went into my eyes. (Suraj)
Oh!!! Stop lying by now. And if that's so, then let me go by now. (Nikita in a trembling voice)
Nikita, I know I have hurt you. I don't want to be a bother to you. When I heard those words, it made me feel insecure about us, so I started distancing myself from you. Even I fell for you at the time when we were apart. I realized my feelings for you aren't just limited to lust or attraction. Until now, I have encountered many girls, but I have never felt this way when I had interactions with you. My heart starts to race just listening to your voice. It makes me comfortable at the same time. I was scared that I would get hurt again and wouldn't be able to face you off because of my past. I was really scared. Now that I have realized that I was not scared of getting hurt again but scared of losing you, you will give me a chance to celebrate the rest of your time with me! I want to celebrate this moment with you.
I LOVE YOU, Nikita! (Suraj)
Saying those words made Nikita calm down, and her face was all red. She was happy and angry at the same time. It looked like the girl I liked was normal now. I was feeling happy, and drops of rain were making a very different sound than usual on the silent street where we were standing and looking into each other's eyes. I looked at her with ease, and she was also normal. This time, holding didn't make me nervous at all, and even though she was blushing red, she didn't resist. I took out my coat and covered both of us so that we could avoid the rain, then we went under the shelter of a shop. After getting under the roof, we had some talk.
What happened? Why are you so silent now? (Suraj)
Nothing; that was unexpected from you. Hearing those words changed my mind and mood all of a sudden. (Nikita)
What?!? (Suraj)
Yes, I thought of you as a shy guy, but you are quite aggressive. The way she held me and pulled me off, then held me tightly from my waist, was unexpected. (Nikita)
Oh!!! Come on. It took all my courage and balls to speak up and at least understand that much. (Suraj)
LOL!!! I am just kidding, but you know. It made me. (Nikita)
Yeah, I am happy as well. I am also glad that you are normal now. (Suraj)
Yup, as always, good and chilled. (Nikita)
Well, I will do it 1000 times if it makes you feel good. (Suraj)
What? (Nikita blushes again.)
Yes, now we still have enough time to celebrate your birthday. (Suraj)
Ah!!! Let it be. It's enough for today. (Nikita)
No, I am booking seats in a restaurant. We will have dinner there together. (Suraj)
No, you don't have to do all of that for me. (Nikita)
Nope, I have plans, so I'm proceeding to pay now. (Suraj)
Okay (Nikita)
Nikita, in her thoughts...
He is so caring. I never knew that he would ever do that for me. I chose a good man. But why is he sweating all of a sudden? I should go and have a peek at his phone.
Meanwhile, I was proceeding to pay...
Oh no! This will cost me almost 25% of my savings; if I sum up everything in total, it would take me almost $25,000 per person. Nope, don't worry about it. I will save money again. This is just for her.
She took a peek and saw my bill.
Suraj, Why are you paying this much from your savings? (Nikita with an angry look.)
Ahh!!! Nikita, I thought that we should have a great time and a good dinner. (Suraj scared)
You don't have to spend this much money on me... (Nikita in anger.)
No, it's alright. Let me pay for it. (Suraj)
I suddenly snatched my phone and deleted the application, and she looked at me with anger.
Ahh Nikita, Why are you giving a dangerous look? (Suraj)
Nothing; it's just that I have realized I need to teach you some lessons. (Nikita)
Hahaha!!! You are kidding, right? (Suraj)
No, I'm not kidding! (Nikita)
I'm sorry!!! (Suraj)
After that, we decided to have dinner at home, so we left. I had a scar on my face, and Nikita was all happy. It looked like she was back to normal, and just now I learned something new about her again.
When we both arrived at my place, Nikita decided to cook all of the dinner for her, and the rest I had to do was help her. So, I did everything according to what she said.
Before she could do that, she asked me to borrow her pair of clothes because they were all wet. So, I gave her my pair of T-shirts and shorts. We both changed our clothes one by one. Nikita came out after changing her clothes. The red T-shirt and gray pants suited her. She was looking cute in that outfit. It looked like she was trying to maintain her composure.
Her open hair and that outfit were making her even more cute. I saw a very simple and mature side of Nikita in her childish and cheerful behavior.
What are you looking at? (Nikita)
Nothing; that outfit suits you. (Suraj)
Thank you, but if you are done, then we should head to make dinner, as it is already late. (Nikita blushing)
Yes, why not? But still, it's 9 o'clock. We have enough time. (Suraj)
Still... Early to bed, early to rise... (Nikita)
After that, I agreed with her. I was also hungry, so we went to the kitchen area to prepare dinner.
To be continued...