JULIAN OLIVAREZ
I wonder how I will face Adrien tomorrow.
I have sort of been distancing myself a bit after discovering that he is into the BDSM world.
He's kinky and dominant.
I completely have no idea how to tread those tides,I don't think it's weird or bad, but I'm scared. I'm scared because it's an alien aspect in my small mundane world.
When we met almost five months ago,Adrien didn't come off as such a person. But I guess he's got more layers onto him like lettuce. Whenever you think you have him figured out,he reveals another layer. But I doubt he meant to show me this side of him,it happened in a way that seemed like he had lost control of his usually composed self.
Yes,he told me to do research on my own and figure out if it would be my cup of tea, but really! This whole BDSM thing is a wide aspect. I dare not maneuver into something so daring on my own,he needs to lead the way if he wants to be my Master Dom.
Mmm, I think I like the sound of that endearment. The way it rolls off my tongue is so natural.
I was surfing through websites,from those that teach about man to man sexual intercourse,do's and don't,to those explaining BDSM. Currently, I think I have a grasp of what I'm getting myself into.
Adrien's name popped on the top of my screen while I had just clicked on a not so holy video,depicting how submissives prepare before playing with their doms. It was a big,bald,dark skin,muscular man with a caucasian twink. I unfortunately couldn't continue, so I paused the video and answered Adrien's call.
"Hey,why are you red? Are you sick?"
Oh my God!! I didn't notice that it was a video call. I tried looking away to hide my flustered face and embarrassment.
"That's not helping either. Your ears and neck are showing that you're flustered." Adrien chuckled. I hadn't said a word, but when I looked back onto the screen,he was skeptically squinting at me. "Wait,don't tell me you're aroused! Is that it?" His brows raised as if in realization when I shyly looked down at my lap.
"It's not what you think it is."
"Then care to tell me what it is!"
"Well,I was researching about,you know!" Oh my God! This is so embarrassing.
"What? Oh!!" He chuckled. I doubt he's aware of the things his chuckles do to me. They aren't helping my current situation.
"So, how far with the research? Do you need any help?" He offered.
"Uhm,no? I don't know if I need to ask you anything." I declined.
Honestly,with the amount of information I've acquired in the last three days,I'm good to explore the next step.
"Okay,if you say so!" He just shrugged it off, and that made me sigh in relief. "I'm actually not exactly happy with what you did to me. How could you have a wholesome conversation with my brother in front of me and not dare to ask about me or even say hi! Am I that insignificant?"
"Are you throwing tantrums?" I fired back.
I can't believe my eyes and ears. Is The Adrien really throwing tantrums? What for? That I didn't say hi!
"I'm not! Who's throwing tantrums? I'm not some brat." I started suppressing my laughter but couldn't keep it in. I burst into a fit of laughter at his playful denial.
"Yeah,you're not. Anyway I didn't ask about you because it was his time. We talked whenever you called, so if he called me once in a while,I'd give him all my attention. You know how Azrael gets when he doesn't receive all the attention he needs,Adrien."
"Yeah,I know. What did I do to deserve you, Jules babe?"
"Oh please! By the way,what are you wearing tomorrow?" Azrael had sent me the pin, but I had no outfit in mind for the day. So matching with my boyfriend could work.
"I'll try slacks and polo t-shirt,probably color maroon or crimson. Why?"
"Well, I want to wear matching outfits with you. I wouldn't want to color crash,it's a double date for God's sake!"
"I think you're overthinking this. Just be yourself,let loose a little,okay!"
"Okay"
Ding dong! The bell rang,notifying me that I was needed at the door.
"I'll go get that!" I told Adrien before getting up and walking to the door.
It was the courier,with a big box from Mwezi.com in hand. "Here's your package, sir. Please sign here and here. " he showed me where to sign, and I did as told.
I received my package and walked back into my humble abode. To unpack my impure package.
I had ordered a few items off the Mwezi app after finding out that apparently, bottoms had to do a lot of prior prep before getting nasty with their tops. So I had placed my order for everything I think I'll need.
I wanna get some birthday sex.
"Lube,douche,condoms....." I went on and on,placing all items aside,reading them out loud.
"Someone's prepared. Are you planning on getting nasty without me?" Adrien's voice vibrated through the phone. I had not hung up thinking he would do it, and even after I returned with the package,I never bothered to check if he was still there or not. Why? Because I wasn't expecting it at all.
Now he is aware of each and everything I ordered. Oh Jeez,did I have to say everything out loud? Even the dildos that I added to the cart last minute and the collar and cuffs.
Somebody kill me now!!
"Did you hear everything?" I picked up the phone and voilà,his face etched with a smug look.
"You don't need to answer that!" I told him after reading his face. I knew I wouldn't like it when he said it out loud. So, I dismissed the topic right away. "Bye for now,I need to check on a few things."
"Okay,bye. But you don't need to be shy, especially with me."
"I'm hanging up." I couldn't hold the second-hand embarrassment I felt for myself anymore and hung up. I even hurriedly shut the phone down,fuck the research. I'm ashamed.
I stomped back to the table where I had placed everything and threw them back into the box and walked up the stairs to my room to store them. Away from the light of the world.
Why has today been so embarrassing? It's not yet evening but I've been caught in 4k more than I could count.
"Ughh"