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Chapter 5 - ch 5 meaning

"Alright, guys, after a bit of time, I'm pretty sure I may have figured out how to escape my thoughts: anima is energy, and this new energy, which I'll call vita, is the actualizer or giving it meaning, so I think it's time to give it a try."

"But before I get to any of that, let me tell you what I got to. Well, first off, I allowed the vita to fuse with the external anima, making up my body, while keeping the core and creating a separate core of vita energy, allowing me to draw in it using my ia. I chose to allow the vita energy to flow throughout my body as if it were pseudo-blood. then condensed the internal anima core, moved it to where my head is, and allowed the energy to flow through my body in circuit-like channels as a pseudo-nervous system. Now, of course, I didn't just succeed immediately. I'm not a genius, but I have something that they might not have infinite time for. I mean, look at me. I'm trapped in a fucking ocean of energy. I should be so grateful to still be alive, but this isn't fucking living. Part of me wants to give up, but no, sorry, I don't know where that came from. It must be losing my edge or something."

"Alright, now where were we? Ah, yes, my current theory is that I need to compress energy and then actualize it to create a hole out of this place. Unfortunately, I'm on my own this time and can't use a whole dimension. To be honest, it was definitely a dimension. Back on topic, I'm ready to start."

I began releasing small bursts raising the power incrementally till I reached close to my limit without succeeding 

"Am I fucking stuck? You think this is funny? Don't you fuck if I care. I would rather die than stay in this prison. I miss everyone. What did I do to deserve this? I refuse to be a prisoner any longer. "

I began using every last bit of vita and anima possible without outright disappearing, compressing both and fusing them while infusing the intent for my last escape attempt.

I released the building energy and yelled with all my strength.

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everything went white at that moment