"I think we should stop doing this, I am tired now", I said in a restless tone
"Yeah, I think we should... it's too much now", he said while reaching for his car keys and heading out the door...
Not that I didn't expect this reaction but it doesn't mean that it hurts any less. I could feel my eyes becoming teary but I had to keep it together, atleast until he was out of sight. I mean what did I expect, that he will all of sudden be in love with me and beg me to stay, I guess a small part of me did, given my reaction right now.
In all the three years I have known him, he has never been the type to beg. Despite knowing his cold and distant demeanor, I continued to fall deeply in love with him. I broke one of the most important rules of a situationship, I caught feelings...but let me tell you how I came to let my guard down and allowed myself to be swept off my feet.
***3 years ago***
I recently just broke up with my boyfriend of 1 year after I discovered a heft of texts from him to girls. The jerk had the nerve to not only cheat on me with one girl...but 5 girls! one of them was his ex-girlfriend. As much as I felt betrayed about it I was not that heartbroken, the last time I felt heartbroken and cried over a man was 2 years ago, that was the worst I have felt. I promised myself that I will never cry for a guy ever again. But that didn't mean the feelings of betrayal and anger were the exception, I guess one can expect such when dealing with emotions and feelings.
Anyway, after breaking up with him, it so happened that luck was on my side, I found myself in a new city for my very first job. I did the interview a week ago, I guess they loved me so much because I got the job on the same day, and today was my first day at work.
I went to the office to see my manager, she was one of the interviewers and she so happened to be the President of the company. She is very well-spoken and sounded very decisive. Not only was she beautiful, but she looked quite young and looked like she had it all together.
"Welcome Ms. Lohan, please take a sit", she said pointing at the empty chair in front of me, "I was very impressed with you during the interview, so we need to create a work plan, I need to know your expectations on this job, and lastly, you will be occupying the empty desk on that corner, I hope you like it", she pointed at a workstation at the corner. As I was heading towards it, in came barging this beautiful man, he had a very bubbly personality or so I thought at the time and they looked quite close with my manager, I think they felt me watching because he turned to me and gave me one of the loveliest smiles I have ever seen in my life, I felt my heart skip a beat....'Oh my, I am in trouble', I immediately thought to myself...