Hello I am Daisy and this is my perspective.
Lately I have been feeling guilty. I know it wouldn't make sense for me to talk about it with my friends but I feel guilty for not wanting to do the right thing. The truth is, I don't want to marry that monster. I want to be selfish. I want to think about myself. I want to leave this place forever. This is not even the worst part. I will tell you the worst part. I want to leave this place with Neil. I don't know how and I don't know when but I have fallen for this man that stands before me. I don't know what to do.
Every time I see him, I just want to hug him. I want to be with him so bad. I try to keep my eyes low to avoid being caught. Anna is a girl like me. I know she will immediately guess if she ever found me looking at Neil, but it is impossible for me to hide it. I am getting married tomorrow. It is impossible for me to even think about it, how am I going to go through with it. God help me. I know there is only one possible way for me to even walk down that nasty isle. It is if I imagine Neil standing on the other end of it. God, I wish that were true.
I know for sure that Neil is over me. I know he says he will wait for me and all of this is for the plan but he doesn't even look at me anymore. He doesn't try to bring out those dimples anymore. He doesn't even talk about the fact that he is going to lose me to that monster soon. None of them talk about it. In fact, ever since we had that last conversation, none of them have even mentioned the word marriage. Sometimes I start to wonder if they even remember that my fate is about to change tomorrow.
I knew I ha to be the one to man up and speak. The night was about to end and Anna and I were just leaving but something was wrong. My feet had betrayed me. All the cells in my body were starting to betray me. I couldn't leave. That's when I knew, I couldn't leave Neil without that one hug I was dying for. There was no telling what the game master might do once I was married to him. There was no telling whether I would even be allowed to leave that place any time soon. This could probably be my last time meeting Neil and I couldn't leave without telling him what I felt. Even though it was completely wrong to feel this way after all I had done, I had to tell him I loved him. I had to tell him I was madly, deeply and completely in love with him.
Neil asked, "is something wrong? Did you forget something?"
I knew this was my last chance. I ran into his arms. I tightened my grip around his shoulders as I felt his arms slowly hug me back. I felt his arms around my waist. I felt his heart beating like crazy through his chest. I felt his grip tighten along with mine. I knew I had probably made a mistake by bringing this to the table but I knew I would be making a far bigger one by not doing this. As he started to pull away, I pulled him back in. He hugged me back tighter. Anna and Henry watched us with tears in their eyes. They knew all along. They could see our feelings brewing but they never bought it up because we were helpless.
We slowly moved away with a little distance between our faces. I felt his warm breath on my nose. It was a sense of comfort in this highly uncomfortable life I was stuck in. I moved in closer. He moved in closer with me. I felt his pearly soft lips against mine as we finally kissed. I felt his warmth. The kiss was slow and deep and I wanted it to last forever. I wished for a hundred more kisses before I had to leave. Then I remembered I had to leave. I stayed for another minute as his lips pursed up against mine. I felt his grip around my waist tighten further, as if he never wanted me to leave. I could hear his thoughts out loud. I could hear him asking me to run away with him. I wish it was that simple. I wish life gave me this man sooner. I wish I didn't make the mistakes I had made.
We eventually let go of each-others body. "I am sorry to interrupt guys but we really should get going." Anna was right. We were getting late. The moment that Neil and I had just had was epic. I hugged him once again. He whispered in my ears, "I love you, Daisy. I love you so much."
I went down the stairs and sat in my car. I wiped off the tears falling against my cheek and tried to stay strong. I knew that this wasn't the time to fall weak. Every one was counting on me. the man I loved was counting on me. I had to make sure none of them felt like a burden because of me. I had to make sure I left them with a smile and make sure I return to them with a smile. I had to save the women in order to save my life. I had to save the women in order to be with Neil. the truth was undeniable. We were meant to be together all this time but none of us felt strong enough to say it.
As the car started to move, I rolled down my window to see Neil sitting at the edge of his. He stared at me. I mouthed, "I love you forever." His smile after that will be the one speck of hope for the next phase of my life.