I'm still hoping.
For the whole day, I'm still hoping that I would meet him. Not tonight, but maybe next month. My parents got into a fight, and before, I usually got depressed by hearing their voices and screams, but now, I didn't have enough time for that.
My orders came today, both bond papers and the dissecting set for the dissecting activity we're gonna do in our Anatomy & Physiology Laboratory. And I updated Tesha about it, for some chit chat, too.
Me: I didn't know it would come so soon. Since it said it would come two to five days after placing an order. And we have the same set.
Tesha: I thought so, too. All of us probably have the same dissecting sets, since we just bought it at the same shop online.
Me: I forgot that I shouldn't have bought the dissecting set. Scalpel is too dangerous for me.
Tesha: JUST TRY IT.
Which she obviously means, don't even try.
Tesha: Don't put the blade in yet. Put it at school. And don't you dare take the scalpel home with you after.
Me: No! But it's mine! It's a good tool for opening parcels.
Tesha: Wow, fancy. Scalpel for opening parcels.
I didn't want to admit it, but I was so happy. It feels like she's worried about me. I never felt like this before. No one has ever been worried for me like this.
Tesha: It's annoying. Professor didn't upload the copy of the powerpoint presentation of the Urinary system lesson.
Me: Maybe she wants us to use the copy of trans she sent us on group chat.
Tesha: It's not complete most of the time. Sometimes, it is.
Me: Hahaha, just use it for now.
Tesha: I'll do the Reproductive system lessons for now, since we'll have a quiz about it on Friday.
Me: I need to do the Theoretical Foundation, too. But I'm still too lazy to do it.
For information, Tesha and I are the friends in the circle who do the trans for the entire circle or for some classmates who ask for it. And since we have seven subjects, before, I do the three subjects, while she does the other three. And that one other subject which is the hardest, Theoretical Foundation, one of our mutual friends does it for us.
But this time, after being Vin's girlfriend, I decided to do the hardest, too. I might do four subjects, and Tesha will do the other three.
Me: This is Vin's fault. Kidding HAHAHA
Tesha: This is what I'm talking about. I told you not to get crazy about him. But it seems like you'll be crazy anytime soon.
Me: I already am. Kidding HAHAHAHA
And since we don't have class the next day, I promised Tesha that I would start the trans for Theoretical Foundation. And I promised myself, whether I would see him or not, I need to get back on myself. Because this isn't me. I'm strong, I have goals in life. I have revenge to do.
Even when I already promised myself, as I said, I'm still hoping. And so, I slept early. I'm not expecting anymore. I ready myself to find myself in an empty dim white room, alone, like I usually am.
I got there, and found myself alone.
"As expected…" I mumbled. But then I heard a voice, a familiar voice. He's singing with a guitar. "V-Vin?"
"Baby please stay near
Don't know how I'd live without you here
It feels like I'm drowning I've got no air
My life is nothing without you here"
"Vin? Where are you?" I can hear his voice and the guitar playing but I can't see him anywhere. I turned around multiple times, but he's not here.
"So baby, please don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go, ohh"
"I won't. I won't leave you. Please, where are you?" I'm getting uneasy. I feel like I'm just imagining his voice right now.
"You built me up
Then you break me down.
You could break my heart
Without a sound."
"Vin, please…" My tears start to fall. My head is getting dizzy, I keep turning around, hoping he'll show up.
"You've got the softest touch
And no deceit
No money or car could change
What you mean to me.
'Cause I'm falling in love with you
And I just can't help myself
'Cause I'm falling in love with you
And I just can't help myself."
He hit those high notes with no problem. "Vin… me, too. I do, too. I'm falling in love with you, too! So please, come out now, please!" His voice suddenly got so clear behind me, and I turned around like a flash, and finally saw him, with a guitar in his arms. I want to be mad, but his smile and the look on his face just made me happy that he's here. He's not gone.
"Oh please don't go
Don't leave me now
Don't let me… go."
He smiled even brighter, and wiped my tears with his thumb. "Where have you been?" I asked.
"Long story, lots of reason." He answered. "But before anything else, could you repeat that?"
"Repeat what?"
"The thing you said earlier after I sang the part that I'm falling in love with you."
I blushed when I remembered what I just sprouted a moment ago. "No."
"Oh come on, please? Just one more time."
I can't really help but blush and hide myself with my hands, "I… I love you…" I barely even whispered.
He tilted his head, "I didn't hear it."
It pissed me off and I shouted a bit accidentally, "I said I love you!"
He chuckled and caressed my cheek. I was blushing when suddenly his face went serious as if he's mad, and I got literal chills, "Then stop looking at other guys."
With that, I suddenly woke up. Too early in the morning. I immediately updated Devyn and Tesha that I finally saw him again, but I didn't tell them the details yet. I don't understand what just happened, so I decided to go back to sleep, without knowing what's waiting for me.
"Thank god, you came back." He welcomed me with this terrifying aura as soon as I came back.
"Vin, what's happening? What's wrong…?" I asked, almost trembling. I've never seen him like this before.
He grabbed my neck, and massaged it with his thumb, "This vocal cords of yours, almost lost its voice for screaming to that handsome guy. Not one, but three?!" His hand is getting tighter. I held his hand with my hands. I want to escape his grasp but he's too strong.
"V-Vin…"
"A dancer. A volleyball player. A model. I didn't know those are your types."
"Vin, they're all gay…"
"I don't care!" His hand grasping on my neck loosen a bit but still not letting me go, as his other hand pulled me by my waist, "Since you said you love me, you're mine, do you understand that?" I didn't answer him because I was too terrified to answer. "Answer me! You're mine, do you understand that?!"
"Yes… Yes, I'm yours…" but for some reason, I like it. I love this. I'm loving this. Am I… a masochist? I know I'm into BDSM, but this is… this is different, and I love it.
He pulled me into a kiss, an aggressive kiss. I suddenly felt the surroundings change into a bedroom. But I'm not familiar with this bedroom. It feels like I've seen it in comics but I don't remember what it is.
He carried me into the bed, and started trailing kisses down on my neck. He seems aggressive but tender at the same time. He's like a hungry lion trying to slowly taste the most delicious meat he'll ever have.
He took his shirt off, and slowly took mine. His lips traveled from my neck to my abdomen to my chest. He unclasped my bra so fast that I didn't even get to say no, or fight back. I just let him do whatever he wants. He captured my nipples with his mouth, and all I could do was moan and gasp.
Everything was too fast, and the next thing I know is that we're both fully naked, and a bottle of lubricant is in his hand.
"W-wait, Vin? What are you planning to do?"
All of the sudden, his middle finger went into my entrance, "You're already wet. Don't push me away. Just once…" he leaned in and whispered, "...accept me." As he pushed his middle finger inside me. The wetness of me, and the lubricant in his finger mixed up, and all I could do was moan.
"V-vin…! Ah…! W-wait… Nngh…!"
"I'm gonna add more." He said as I felt another finger go inside me. He started thrusting two fingers inside me. I gripped into the sheets, involuntarily arched my back, and moaned a little bit louder, "Ah, Vin…! Mmm…!" But then he pulled out his fingers. I looked at him, "Why'd you stop?"
He smirked, "You didn't think you're the only one who's gonna have fun, did you?"
"Wait, Vin. No. I'm not—" Before I could say anything, he thrusted his dick inside me. I gasped louder and my hands went into his shoulders, as if pushing him away.
"Relax. You're too tight." He whispered, kissing my neck and pinning my hands beside me using his. "Don't worry. You won't bleed, I prepared with my fingers, didn't I?"
My eyes widened when I heard bleed, "Fuck, Vin! I'm on my period!"
He chuckled, "Not in your dream." As he started thrusting slowly when he realized that I'm finally distracted away from the pain.
The pain that I was feeling a moment ago slowly went into pleasure. I've never felt this. This pleasure is something I didn't expect to have. This pleasure is something I never expected existed.
He fastened the pace of his thrust. The mixture of his moan and groan in my ear turned me on even more. My one hand gripped his hair, while my other hand scratched his bare back.
"Ah Vin… Mmm… Fuck… ah…"
"It feels good… fuck. Princess, you're mine… You're mine. Ahh. Ugh. You're mine… and mine alone." he kisses and bites my skin, almost every inch of my body.
"Vin… I'm…! I'm close!"
"Me, too." As he thrusted faster and deeper inside me. So this is what my friends mean. That a dick that is too big isn't a good thing. It feels good but it hurts at the same time. But how would I know if this is a good thing or a bad thing? This is my first anyway.
"I'm cumming…!" He declared, and we both came at the same time. It feels hot. His cum inside me feels so hot. It feels like hot thick water is filling me inside. It feels weird, yet it feels good.
I thought we're done. I thought he's gonna start apologizing for doing it so suddenly, or at least start kissing me or saying romantic lines. But I thought wrong.
Without pulling his dick out, he started thrusting again. "What are you doing?"
"We're not done yet. I waited for this. I won't let you go that easily. Especially when…" he bit my neck, a little bit harder this time, "...you look at those guys too much. I'm fucking jealous."
We did it again… and again… and again. If someone sees me with those bite marks and kiss marks he gave me, people would think I got fucked by multiple guys or a guy who has been drugged. I got so tired, to the point that I said the words 'you know what' just to finally wake up. And I woke up at exactly 8:30 AM.