Mikkeli POV
I shove Gideon away from her so quickly and with full force; he screams in pain.
Rose tries to stop me, but it's futile.
I grab Hannah, she starts to struggle, but I have no problem with dragging her into my study. I shove her inside and lock the door behind me.
"I am an Alpha; don't you dare ever do something like that again! You are MINE! I make rules here!" I yell at her.
"You may be the Alpha, but you are also an asshole! I'm not your property!" she screams. "Open the door. I want to leave!"
"Everything here is mine! Every person breathing here is mine, including you! You. Are. Mine!!!"I shout, and she tries to walk past me, but I don't allow her.
I yank her towards me, ignoring her squirming. I press my lips towards hers and forcibly enter her mouth with my tongue. She refuses to yield, trying to push me away and biting my lips hard. I really don't care; she tastes so good; I want more of her; I want everything.
I take a small step away, releasing her lips. Immediately she slaps my face hard.
"What the hell is your problem !" She shouts, " I'm not some booty call. I won't be your whore! I hate you, do you hear me? I hate you!"
I pounce at her, throwing both of us on the carpet, me on top of her. I pin both of her arms above her head with one hand; my second hand moves on her body; she can't scream because I cage her lips again with mine.
In a matter of seconds, I am between her legs, a growing bulge in my jeans pressed to her crotch. My tongue explores her mouth, my hand slips under her dress, and I squeeze one of her breasts firmly.
She keeps struggling, but her small frame has no chance against my alpha's. I release her lips and immediately latch mine to her neck; I press my whole body more into her, thinking only about how much I want to be inside her. I move my hand to unbutton my jeans, and I start nipping her collarbone with my teeth.
And that's when I feel it, I feel her tears.
And that's it when I snap out of it.
My wolf is trashing like crazy, sensing her distress, trying to get control. My still clouded with lust mind slowly takes in what I have just tried to do. She lies under me in disheveled clothes, shaking in fear and crying. She's terrified; I can smell her fear. She's terrified of me, of what I was trying to do to her.
I let go of her arms and let her crawl away from me.
I realize someone, probably more than one person, is standing behind the door, banging and screaming for me to let them in. Hannah keeps shaking on the floor, trying to cover herself with her hands. I stand up, take off my jacket and slowly approach her; she flinches when I place my it on her arms.
"I'm so sorry," I only manage to whisper before Tony breaks down the door.
He enters the room and immediately yanks me away from her, pressing me into the nearest wall; I can feel his nails dug into my flesh, his eyes are sharp and dark, and I can smell his furious wolf.
I let him; I let him bare his teeth. I let him claw my skin. I let him punch me.
Still pressed to the wall, I see Rose, Kyle, and the twins entering the room and going straight to Hannah. Kyle takes her into his arms, all of them look at me as if I was some kind of dirt, and at that moment, I honestly agree with them. They leave, and Tony slowly lets me go.
"What the hell, Mikkeli? What the hell have you tried to do!" he growls at me.
"I lost it; I wanted her so much, I almost..." my voice trembles, "but I stopped, I stopped Tony. I managed to get control again; I stopped; I'm sorry," I whisper, crouching on the floor.
Tony sighs and sits next to me; he puts his arm over my shoulder and presses me into his chest. I don't cry, but I hold him for dear life.
When around half an hour later, Hayden enters my study, I am mostly calm and sitting behind my desk, but I still feel disgusted with myself. To my surprise, Hayden isn't furious; he seems more concerned. He sits in front of me and, for a couple of minutes, does nothing except look sadly at me.
"I'm sorry," he finally says, making me look at him surprised. "I should have foreseen it, and I shouldn't have allowed you to deny it all that long."
"You're not angry with me?" I say softly, almost in a whisper.
"I'm not the one who should be judging you, Mikkeli, especially not me. I'm angry with myself because I knew what the risk is with keeping you and Hannah so close to each other, and I should have known that you wouldn't have been able to restrain yourself no matter how much you had wanted it. This is what bond does, the desire for your mate is something almost impossible to control, even after rejection, and you haven't done that."
"I didn't want to hurt her. I swear I... I will never lose control again," I finally say, trying to convince both of us.
"You won't because Hannah won't stay here. I should have taken her away from you as soon as I had found out about you being mates; that was my mistake and..."
"She's not going anywhere," I interrupt him in a low voice.
I feel my blood rushing up, and Byron's distress intensifies. She can't leave; I will never allow it.
"Mikkeli, you need to understand..."
"NO, she's staying here; she's not going anywhere," I growl lowly, my canines are starting to get out, and I feel my heart rate getting faster.
"Mikkeli, it's not good for both of you to be in the same house. I have to make sure that Hannah is safe; she can't stay here," Hayden tries to keep calm both of us. But it's futile.
"NO" I bare my teeth. "You want to take your sons away; you're free to do it, but Hannah will stay here. Do you understand!"
Hayden tries to fight against my alpha's voice, but finally, he has no choice but to avert his eyes and slowly bow in submission. I'm not happy I used my alpha's voice on my brother, but Hannah will stay here. I know deep down inside me that Hayden only wants to keep her safe, but I can't do it. I will never let her go. She's mine, only mine, and she won't leave.
"You can arrange any necessary precautions you think should be good, I'll listen to you, but Hannah stays here. Have I made myself clear?" my alpha's voice forces him to nod "and this, give it back to her," I reach into my desk and pull out the silver knife, the same one she scratched me during our first meeting.
I stand up and walk past him. He looks at me with lots of concern, but I also can see the fury in his eyes; he is angry and feels helpless. I know that he doesn't trust me. I can keep convincing him that I'm not a threat to Hannah, but honestly, I'm not so sure either.
"I want to see her" I stop near the door and look at Hayden, who turns his head towards me.
"Mikkeli, you shouldn't...."
"And that's why you should come with me," I say; I feel tired.
Tired, guilty, and sad. The fact that I hurt someone who I should protect in the most despicable way is difficult to accept and go on. Hayden avoids looking at me. I know he's pissed off; as a wolf of my pack, he cannot define me unless he chooses to challenge me for the Alpha's title.
We are getting close to the bedroom door when it bursts open, and Jason leaves the room heading in my direction. I can see his eyes shifting; his wolf is very close to the surface.
"You will never touch my sister again!" he screams at me.
Rose and James are behind him, and I can see Tony near the door; Hannah stands next to him. I honestly don't know what I should do. Apologize? Will she believe me? Promise that I will never do it again? I am the Alpha. I haven't apologized since I became one, and honestly, I thought I would never have to because I would never do anything to be ashamed of.
Thank Goddess, Hayden puts a hand on Jason's shoulder and calmly says:
"Don't worry, Hannah will never be with him alone again. Please go with James to your room; we have to talk to your sister."
Jason snarls, but the twins do what they are told to do, and the rest of us enter the room.
Hannah is avoiding looking at me; I can sense her fear, and my wolf is whimpering in my mind, sensing it too. She makes sure we are standing as far away from each other as possible. I want to touch her and hold her in my arms so much. Or I want her at least to look at me; I will be happy with anything.
"I'm listening," she finally says, and her voice is trembling.
"Starting today, you will be sleeping with your siblings and Rose again," Hayden says. "I will be in the next room, and just in case, Tony will be in the room next to Alpha. And Hannah, you will never be alone in the house or around the territory again; Kyle or Rose or somebody else should always be next to you. And Mikkeli, if you happen to meet Hannah alone, you are to turn around and leave a room. I know that separation is not the solution unless you reject Hannah, so I will have to think about something else, but for tonight this will do".
"Why?" Hannah says, finally looking straight into my eyes. "Why can't you just reject me and get over it? I want this to be over."
"No," I manage not to turn my eyes away from hers.
She looks at me, confused and hurt, her eyes are still red and puffy after what happened, and she looks so defenseless.
"Why not? You don't want me; it's Byron who wants me; it's all because of our bond! Why do you keep torturing yourself and me!" she shouts at me.
I want to touch her, comfort her, but I'm sure Hayden will try to break my arm if I even lift it in her direction.
"I think Byron and I will die without you," I finally say, turning around and leaving the room.