Mikkeli POV
It's been a whole three days. Three days of political negotiations, talking about treaty conditions, and discussing rogues and hunters' movements. But I was so unfocused that Tony, Hayden, Patrick, my Gamma, and Becca had to do most of the job. And I'm pretty sure they noticed it. During these three days, my eyes were constantly on her. I couldn't focus on anything except her.
During the welcoming night, when she was serving the drinks, I noticed some of the looks my guests were sending toward her. When one of my friends started flirting with her, I thought I would kill him. I was barely able to control myself. And he wasn't the only one; some of them also had very lustful eyes. Thank Goddess, most of them were only surprised by her presence. I'm pretty sure no human has set foot on my land in at least 50 years.
I was happy she didn't recognize anybody because, with the current hunters' threat, problems with allies would be very unwelcome. I certainly trust the treaties I made myself, but I'm not so sure about the treaties that my father forged. Thankfully, the strategies I developed with my closest allies should be enough to keep us safe in case of a hunter's attack.
Thank Goddess, I also have a lot of possibilities to train with other alphas and betas, and it suited me well because I am in a foul mood almost all the time, and thanks to the sparring, I had a chance to unleash at least a little bit of my anger. Byron is restless; he's so unhappy that he can't spend time with her any longer that I'm surprised I didn't kill anybody during the training by accident.
I keep trying to convince myself that Byron is the only one who misses her, but I know it's a lie. I want her so much I can't stop thinking about it. I still wonder why she allowed me to get so close during our little encounter in the kitchen. My body pressed to her body, her arms around my neck, the smell of her skin. Goddess, I have never felt this good in my entire life, and for sure, I have never been that aroused in my whole life. I've slept with many women, I'm no saint, and I have never paid too much attention to mate bond to stay pure for my destinated one, but Hannah passing me in the hall is enough to send me into the cold shower for at least an hour. And I fucking hate it. I hate that I can't stop thinking about her and can't turn my eyes away from her.
Just like now, I can see her through the window of my study. She's talking with Gideon, who shows her some of his books, probably medicine books. I remember I heard that was what she wanted to study. He's definitely too close to her, and the fact that she's smiling isn't helping at all. Byron keeps pacing in my subconsciousness, ready to run and put his claws in Gideon.
"Is there a chance I will get your full attention, Alpha?" I can hear Jake's irritated voice.
I growl a little bit. I do not appreciate his tone, but he sends me a pitiful look.
"I think you should reject her; the sooner, the better. You keep feeling the pull towards her, but after rejection, it will be weaker and weaker."
"What if I don't want to reject her?" I reply with a slight snarl.
Jake looks at me; we've cold eyes. During my whole childhood, he was never one to give me pity looks; he was always straightforward and formal, as Beta should be, and I appreciated it.
"You don't want to accept her either. Let's be honest, Mikkeli, you are your father's son; weak human Luna doesn't suit you. You should have a strong warrior as your mate, someone who can lead with you, someone who can be loyal and not emotional all the time. You need a strong heir, not some half-breed, so your father's legacy can be upheld. And this jealous look doesn't suit you. Gideon knows she's your mate. He won't touch her. I'm sure he wants, but he won't touch her even if you reject her. He knows his position and the fact he's no match for you. Although I wouldn't be so sure about Hayden."
"What do you mean?" I ask, and I strongly feel I won't like his answer.
"Hayden wants a family, and she can give him family. I don't know all the details, but I'm not stupid. I know the twins are here because they are Hayden's sons; they resemble him too much. And because the twins' mother is dead, he no longer has to worry about a mating bond. I'm sure he didn't make any move because you still haven't made your decision. If you are worried about getting weaker because of a rejection, you shouldn't. Giving up Maddie didn't weaken Hayden; he became weaker because he allowed himself to be so. That will be so different with you; you are not weak, Mikkeli. Rejection will be painful, but you can live with it."
I won't comment on his statement; my wolf is not happy with the suggestion of rejection, and the thought of Hannah with my brother also doesn't suit me very well. Well, let's be honest, the thought of Hannah or whoever else doesn't suit me.
"I used to think that your father made a big mistake because he wasn't accepting you for so long or wasn't treating you and Hayden equally. I still think it was unfair, but because of that, you are strong, Mikkeli and Hayden isn't. Really, please accept my advice and reject her; it will be better for the pack." he says and leaves.
I sigh and close my eyes, trying to suppress the feeling of irritation. Thank Goddess that most of my allies went home this morning; the rest is leaving very soon. I need some peace and quiet; of course, I can't get it. I see that bastard, Beta of Full Moon pack, approaching Hannah and Gideon.
To my surprise, they talk, and neither Hannah nor Gideon seems uncomfortable. The fucking Beta even gets to sit next to Rosie and tries to play with her. I clench my jaw and fists; I shouldn't care; they are in an open view, and he poses no threat. I shouldn't care what they do together. I can hear the door to my study open, and Connie enters. She smirks, giving me her best seductive look.
"I'm leaving in an hour; maybe we should enjoy ourselves a little bit?"
In a moment, her hands are all over me; I kiss her back and try to make out with her. Try is the keyword here; I don't feel anything. I was never too much into Connie, but she is sexually very attractive, and it always felt nice to flirt with her.
Nevertheless, I don't push her away; I keep interacting with her, even though I'm not sure if I want to convince her or myself that I'm still interested in other women except Hannah.
I press her onto the desk, hovering over her and locking her lips with mine. She moans and wraps her legs around me, but I feel nothing but increasing irritation.
The door to my study opens again, and her Beta stands there. And behind him stands Hannah with Rosie in her arms and Gideon beside her. She quickly turns away her eyes, but I can see she looks hurt; Gideon quickly puts his hand on her shoulder, squeezing it gently. I'm really lucky Hayden doesn't see it; he would be furious.
"Connie, your father is looking for you; he wants to leave a little bit earlier. He has some business to attend to," Beta says, smirking cynically at us.
"Thank you, Hank. Then I should hurry; I should still change my underwear," she says, kissing my cheek and slowly leaving. Hannah and Gideon are long gone. Beta also turns around with the intention to leave, but I stop him.
"I warned you not to get too close to what is mine," I bare my teeth a little bit.
"I don't think she's yours, considering the fact, but you were literally lying on my Alpha's daughter a moment ago. But don't worry; I only apologized to her for my rude behavior in the kitchen that day. I just wonder, but this human girl must be very special that you bend your rules for her. First, you let a human into your territory, are protective of her, and are very handsy with her. It just makes me wonder why she is so special. Still, I'm sorry for my disrespect also towards you. I wish you all good for the sake of our alliance," with these words, he turns around and tries to leave, but I quickly shove him over the wall.
"Get out from my land, or I will make you," I snarl, holding his throat, my nails in his skin.
He bows his head in submission, and I try to avoid looking at Connie, who, turned out, has been standing all the time behind the door listening, or more accurately, eavesdropping.
I pass them and go into the living room, looking for Hayden. And, of course, I find him hovering around Hannah, whose eyes are slightly red. Shit, have I made her cry?
"Hayden, escort our guests out of our territory," I say, and he nods and leaves.
Hannah doesn't look at me, focusing totally on Rosie sitting on her lap. James and Jason notice me and come closer. They both want to know if I can train them now that the gathering is over. They are so loud, they keep pestering me, and my patience is not at a high level today.
"Shut up, you mutts. I'm not in the mood for this!" I yell at them.
I yell loudly; they both jump away from me because I've raised my hand as if I wanted to slap them. I can see fear in their eyes; the room goes quiet, the remaining omegas look scared, and some warriors look confused. Hannah finally looks at me with disappointment and anger in her eyes. She comes closer to the boys, and they, of course, immediately hug her.
"Come, boys; I'm sure Hayden will agree to train you. Alpha of the Blackwood Pack is for sure too busy. He had to say goodbye to a special guest of his, and I'm sure that drained him out very much. Please, take Rosie upstairs".
We stay alone after they leave; not only them everybody seems eager to leave the room quickly. She keeps looking at me, and I'm sure she's angry.
"Don't you dare to raise your hand against my brothers just because your mood is foul! It's not their fault you didn't get laid," she turns around.
"Don't you dare to walk away from me," I yell, and she turns around.
The way she looks at me, always judging, always with no respect.
"What the hell do you want from me, Mikkeli? What is your fucking problem? You keep discussing respect, but what should I respect you, Mikkeli? You, not the Alpha. It's always about you and your pride. You want respect; earn it!" she passes me and walks to the hall.
Gideon and Rose stand there; they both look at us, surprised.
And that is when Hannah looks at me and smirks,
"You seem to like to play, so let's play," she hisses and goes in the direction of Gideon, grabs his face, and kisses him.
And that's when I see red, and that's when I lose it.