She didn't mean to make the mood heavy, she just spoke without thinking too much about it. The voice had warned her not to, she regretted not listening to it instantly.
"Well, I'm honored you'll be trying mine first" Adam smirked, the tension in his brows were gone and he was back to being playful.
"I never said I was going to" Jenna said
"So you'd rather waste food?" Adam asked
Jenna winced, he had her there. Jenna hated wasting food since there was never even enough. The concept of wasting food never even crossed her mind, whatever she didn't eat was game for her remaining siblings.
She reached for the cutlery hesitantly, she lifted it up and dropped it back down immediately. It was heavy, she had only used plastic spoons in her house and she had never eaten out so she didn't know how heavy metal forks actually were.
Jenna knew Adam was looking at her and it made her extremely embarrassed to have him see her in such a disgraceful state, she attempted to pick it up again and stopped when her wrist began to hurt.
"What's wrong?" Adam asked, his eyes bored holes into her, it made her feel naked and bare. She didn't like it but yet his stare made her feel fuzzy all over. Jenna was conflicted.
"It's too heavy" Jenna said after a moment's hesitation. She looked down at the stain on her blue jean and wished the ground would just open and swallow her.
She heard a chair scrape back but she couldn't bring herself to look up, she couldn't understand it. They had just met, they were strangers, yet she felt comfortable enough in his presence to share her weakness. It was stupid.
A cool finger lifted Jenna's face up and she found herself staring into Adam's eyes, they were clear and calm. It was like staring at a mirror, she could see herself in his eyes and her stomach twisted into painful knots.
Adam tapped the tip of her nose and rose from his crouching position beside her chair, he pulled a chair to her side and sat slowly in it. Jenna watched his every move, she devoured his every move.
He reached for her fork and lifted it, he scooped a forkful of the spaghetti and lifted it to her lips.
This was new, she knew people did this, feeding each other but it didn't feel right. It was another thing that no one had ever done for her, maybe her mom did it for her when she was a baby but not anymore. It was foreign, alien.
"You don't have to" Jenna said, her eyes searched Adam's face for a hidden intention, for a reason as to why he was being that nice to her.
"But I want to" Adam urged and brought the fork closer to Jenna's lips.
Jenna reluctantly parted his lips and accepted the food from his hand. She knew he was watching her chew; his eyes were trained on her lips and she watched as his eyes turned dark. It was scary yet it felt thrilling at the same time.
His eyes devoured her, it made her feel weird things in her stomach.
"He's dangerous" the voice whispered, "He's way too nice"
It was true, but she enjoyed the kindness. It was extremely out of pocket and weird for her to be having dinner all alone in the house of someone she had just met that morning.
It was screaming danger yet she didn't want to leave, she wanted to stay and revel in the warmth he was offering.
It was selfish but she felt she deserved to feel that way, to think about only herself even if it was for a brief while.
"Its delicious" Jenna said after swallowing, delicious was an understatement. It was the best thing she had ever had in her life, she didn't know food could taste that good and it made her want to cry.
It felt unfair to her that other people got to enjoy these things while she suffered.
"Then have some more" Adam cajoled, he already had another forkful waiting for her, it was cute, endearing.
*
She was beautiful, she looked beautiful, everything about her was beautiful.
It wasn't even up to 24 hours but he was already in way too deep. Just watching her eat made him feel things in his chest.
He wanted to protect her, to keep her close to him, he wanted to keep her in his house, to feed her and shower her with everything she probably never got.
She ate well enough which proved she wasn't anorexic; he was curious as to what kind of situation she lived in that had her looking so worn out and tired.
He reached over slowly, watching her eyes widen in surprise as he wiped sauce off the corner of her mouth. He would have loved to kiss it off her but it was way too early for that and he didn't want to scare her off.
He brought his thumb to his mouth and slowly licked the sauce off, her eyes watched him with so much intensity it made his insides hot. He wanted nothing more than to lean in and kiss her, it was all he could think about from the moment he saw her chewing.
The way she looked at him was doing things to him that she possibly couldn't imagine, she looked at him like she could see him inside and out, like she knew his every thought and desires.
He reigned his thoughts in, it wasn't the time for this, it was bad of him to have such thoughts about a woman he just met. He was behaving like an animal.
"Stop looking at me like that" Jenna said, he liked the sound of her voice and he damn well knew he would like it even more if she ever called out his name, and even better if she screamed it.
"I can't help myself kitten" he said, he watched as her eyes widened like saucer at the use of a pet name. It just came to him, probably because he she acted like a stray kitten.
"D-don't call me that" she stuttered
She was adorable, he wanted her to be his and his alone, "I'll think about it if you finish off your food like a good girl"
She spluttered, caught unaware and definitely turned on, he knew it from the way her eyes changed, she looked him in the eye and Adam knew he was a goner.
She had him real good and he was sinking really fast for this woman he just met.