Chapter 5 - 5_ I feel different

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I heard a knock on the door and without my permission the person came in, it was Beatrice. I knew she was going to come after me anyway so I wasn't surprised.

"Hey Ranell, what's wrong, you didn't finish your meal." She said with concern as she sat on my bed, arranging my hair that was spread across my face.

"Why, why did she leave me, Didn't she love me?" I kept on asking, years began to roll down my cheeks, I was emotional and would cry at the littlest things. And right now the pain of realizing my mother left me tugged at my heart.

"No, no, do not cry Ranell, You are perfect, she's at fault, not you. Do not beat yourself up over someone else's mistake. It's her loss for abandoning you. I would not let you sit here and sulk." Bea said cupping my face with her palm.

I nodded at her words of affirmation, it made me calm and relaxed. She was right, I shouldn't beat myself up, She left me, and I will not sit here and cry for her. I will build up my defenses that even if she comes back if she ever will, there will be no place in my heart to forgive her. 

"Get up, we're going out tonight," Bea said and walked over to my closet, taking a jacket and throwing it at me.

"Where?" I sniffled and she smiled.

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"OMG, this is so good," I said as I ate the hot spicy sausages and meats. The restaurant we went to across the street specialized in spicy foods.

"Right, it tastes heavenly,Bea said with a smile as she took in some water to quench the hotness of the spicy food.

When we were done eating we went to the amusement park, it looked so ethereal in the night. We strolled around eating cotton candy and licking ice cream. We went into a photo booth and took silly pictures also dressed in silly costumes. It was so much fun that I forgot my problems for a moment there, well, until I bumped into someone.

"Can't you watch where you're going, Arrgh!" Charlotte said with a grunt as she looked at her now-stained crop top.

"Oh, look who we have here, It's Pignella." She said and she and her coheirs burst out in laughter.

"I didn't know she was coming out of her home. Isn't she ashamed?" Danielle said she was one of Charlotte's coheirs with bees controlling powers, while the other, Cassie had the power of invisibility. 

"I'm sorry," I said, fiddling with my fingers. They were trembling. I was scared down to my wits, these monsters bullied me in school and now that am in an open space, they could do more and embarrass me even more.

"We should teach you a little lesson," Cassie said walking forward while I took a step backward.

"Back off bitch, she already apologized," Bea said stepping forward to meet with Cassie's gaze and as if scared of her, Cassie scurried away and stood next to Charlotte.

"You should learn not to be nosy, it'll do you more harm than good," Charlotte said, chewing gum like the bitch she was.

"Let's go girls," Charlotte said and walked away first, her short dress swaying with her buttocks with a step, While her slaves followed.

"See you tomorrow Pignella," Danielle said with a smirk as she walked away.

"Are you okay?" Bea asked and I nodded, the little fun time I had was ruined.

"I'll head home now," I said, flashing a smile and she nodded while patting my shoulder.

I walked under the soft glow of the moonlight, the road back to the mansion was clear and there was no one around so I decided to let out my feelings instead of bottling them up. I broke out into a loud cry, sniffling and sobbing.

"Why is it always me, I don't have a mother, I am called an outcast because I don't have powers and I was the type of person no one would look at!!" I yelled as I looked at the moon.

 

"I am tired of waiting, waiting for my mother to return, tired of waiting for a miracle to happen!!" I yelled again and sobbed.

I went back home feeling much better, letting all my frustration out helped me feel a little lighter. I climbed the stairs leading to my room and when I got there I closed the door behind me and opened the doors to the porch. I inhaled the nice fresh air as the wind whipped my face.

I was tired, tired of hating myself, tired of waiting for a miracle to happen, I had tried everything except one thing. I was going to try to love and accept myself.

My situation was better than others who don't have some part of their bodies, It was better than those in the hospital. 

With determination gleaming through my eyes, I was going to try this one last thing. I walked to the mirror with a smile on my face, I looked quite cuddly and cute. I smiled at myself in the mirror and I let go of every dejectedness I felt.

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"What's wrong, why are you grinning like a cat?" Cherry asked, looking at me with a judging gaze.

"Shut up and get in the car," I said, pushing her into the car.

"Wow, there's something different about you today my angel," Dad said.

"I feel different," I said with a smile.

"That's my girl," Dad said giving me a high five before driving away. We got to the school building and I tried to see it in a different light.

I walked into the school and through the halls with a smile on my face. I opened my locker and took out my books and other things I would need for the next class.

As usual, I was invisible to the students and thankfully I hadn't sighted the three she-devils at all. 

Students ran back in the direction of the school's hall entrance, the girls were screaming like fangirls and then the Angelz came in, looking blessed and handsome as always, they were the only ones in school who didn't wear a uniform, even Charlotte and the she-devils does. I guess they thought they were too cool for uniforms.

I kept gazing at them as they walked in, I was farther away from the hall, and I held my book up to my chest as I watched Liam, he just looked so handsome in his black skinny jeans and boots. With a big plain white t-shirt while his hair draped on his shoulders and dangled with a step. Vc, Leo, and Alex were also with him in their cool outfits but I was so focused on Liam.

'Why does it look like he's walking towards me?' I asked myself. my heart began to race in my chest when he stopped right in front of me and gazed directly at me.