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Chapter 36 - 36_What's going on with me?

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I arrived at school and the first thing I did was look around for Liam, I caught a glimpse of him walking out of the male restroom, he was in a white t-shirt, black leather jacket, black pants, and black boots. His blond hair was packed in a ponytail with his eyeglass on.

I couldn't help but gape at that angelic beauty, Why was Liam so handsome? He walked away like a lone wolf, there was no sign of his friends, not his brother. 

I was taking him today, in the library, for the tutoring and I was going to use the opportunity to start my mission.

I hastily walked after him trying to catch up with him when he entered the library, he took an empty seat at the corner of the library,

I could only stand at the entrance and watch his movements, he was taking this tutoring seriously, I guess he didn't wanna be expelled.

He came in earlier than expected and it looked like he was waiting for me cause he kept glancing at his watch.

After some time he lay on the table, resting his head on the table.

I went in quietly and took a seat right next to him, there was no one in the library, it was too early for even the librarian to be there.

I was expecting him to wake up at the sound of the chair moving but he was fast asleep. Which made me wonder if he hadn't been sleeping well.

I took off his glasses and put them aside, but that wasn't enough to make him open his eyes, maybe he was just a deep sleeper.

I lay next to Liam, admiring his angelic features, his eyelashes were long and curved, and I could see it clearly since he had his eyes closed, his eyes were almond-shaped and his nose was pointy. His lips were heart-shaped and he had strong jawlines that I couldn't help but trail my fingers through.

I also felt sleepy watching him sleep and before I knew it my eyelids felt heavy and I closed them. 

Liam's POV

I opened my eyes, feeling someone's breath on my face, I hated that.

As soon as I saw her face, I froze, our faces were only inches apart, and her warm breath that smelled like milk caressed my face.

She was fast asleep and I couldn't move away, I felt paralyzed even as much as I hated to be breathed upon, I couldn't move away, her breath smelled enticing and her cute baby-like face was an image to behold.

Her eyelashes fluttered open like butterflies and her gaze met with mine, even with that I still felt paralyzed to pull away. Her brown eyes were like wormholes, dragging me in without warning.

My gaze traveled to her lips, they were dry and pale red, and they needed kissing. I couldn't help but gulp the lump I felt in my throat just by staring at her seemingly delicious lips.

"You shouldn't be too close to a guy in this kind of situation, you have no idea what he might do," I said and she jolted, sitting upright and arranging her hair.

With a smirk, I also sat upright, we had no idea how long we had been sleeping here together but thankfully, no one was there to see us, or there would be rumors. Even the Librarian hadn't arrived yet, which was strange.

"I'm sorry about that, I didn't realize I was also sleepy," She said, tucking her hair behind her ear.

"No problem, I was told my sleeping face makes people wanna sleep," I said with a smile and I saw her freeze, just staring at me as if I was some kind of perfect artwork.

"We--We should get to the teaching," I stuttered cause I could feel my heart beating the more she stared at me that way. This was the first time I stuttered while I was talking to someone. 

She turned away, reaching into her backpack to take her textbooks, my hands traveled to my chest and I clenched my shirt as if it were my heart.

'What's this, what's going on with me?' I asked myself inwardly.

We started with the teachings and I could feel everything she said being imprinted in my brain, I was finally learning something.

She asked me some questions and I got all correctly. We were both so excited that we jumped and hugged each other, still jumping in excitement that we didn't notice how close we were. Well, until later.

She pulled away and cleared her throat while fiddling with her fingers, I noticed it was something she does when she was nervous, but what was she nervous about? We were just excited.

I had no clue that what she was about to do next would make me run out of breath.

Ranella hugged me, she embraced me, wrapping her hands around my back and drawing me in her warmth.

The sensation was foreign cause I had never been hugged with this much passion before.

I could feel her warmth seep into my cold-blooded body and do something to my insides. 

My eyes were wide open and my hands were up, I contemplated whether to hug her back or not. I could feel my heartbeat pick up its pace.

"You are not a monster Liam, forget about what happened the other day with those girls, I don't see you like a monster I see you as an angel, an angel sent by my late mother to give me hope, any time I look at you, I see hope, you are my hope and not a monster," She said with a lot of emotion in her voice.

I didn't notice but a tear rolled down my eyes and dropped, she pulled away and looked at my face, she carried her hand to my face and wiped the tear away.

She was about to embrace me again but I was scared she might hear the drumming of my heart in my chest and mistake it for something else, so I pulled away this time.

Pushing her harshly she hit the table slightly, I was about to rush to her and check if I had hurt her but she seemed fine.

"Uhm, th--thanks, I understand," I said and hastily walked out of the library, when I was out of the library, I exhaled, a sigh of relief escaped my lips and my hand went to my chest again.

I touched my face and felt the trail of dampness caused by the tear she wiped away earlier, I couldn't remember the last time I shed tears but now I was doing it just because of some words she spoke to me.

'What is wrong with me, what am I feeling?' I asked myself inwardly again.

I walked through the hall like a Zombie, I couldn't stop thinking about Ranella's words, she called me her hope. Me, I was someone's hope. A murderer like me, I didn't deserve it, her friendship, her love.

I was dragged into an empty class and I saw Charlotte, grinning at me, argh, what was it now?

"You are doing great, it isn't that hard, I could tell from the look in her eyes when she hugged you that our plan is working, she's falling head over heels in love with you," Charlotte said with a grin. I looked down at her, Charlotte whom I think I loved never said some encouraging words to me, but she was pushing me to break the only person who has.

I had to heed her cause my secret was in her palm and a misstep from me would blow it out like a vacuum in reverse blowing out all the dirt.

I nodded and she grinned again, clapping her hands as she jumped up and down. 

"You are the best, before prom night, I'm sure she would have already had your face imprinted on her heart, keep it up and we might just work," She said and gave me a peck on my cheek before running off.

Ranella's POV

I stood there like a fool, did I say something wrong, shit, I talked about my late mom not considering he also didn't have a mother, maybe my words triggered a painful memory.

'Ahh, I am such a fool!' I cursed myself inwardly while slapping and tugging at my hair.

I needed to apologize, I was doing everything wrong today. First I slept on the same desk with him, then I got carried away and celebrated with him while jumping together and then I hugged him and said some inconsiderate words.

I grabbed my backpack and went in search of him, I needed to apologize before he took my words to heart.