to do with my baby. Was that even professional?
"I am not aborting my baby. I am keeping him."I said. This was something I didn't need to think about. My friend and I had talked about a situation like this.
Liv and I sometimes theoretically talked child?" she asked and I wanted to chuckle.
Father of the child? There was no way I was about to destroy an upcoming marriage because of my stupid mistake. I made a mental note there and then that I would do me. I would be the talk of the school.
"I'll just drop out."I declared not knowing if it was an impulsive decision or not. I didn't have much time to think about anything.
"And go where?"
"I don't know, anywhere far away from ? Won't you inform them why you are dropping out of school?"
"They don't need to know till I need them to know and right now I don't feel like saying anything because I would just worry them. It's better I just leave them out of my problems and figure things out myself on my own."I smiled sadly. My mother couldn't afford added stress, she had a lot she was dealing with.
The nurse looked at me and she smiled." I admire your independence." she praised.
I chuckled knowingly." I'm not independent, I just feel like I don't deserve help. You see how I look right? Who would even want to help me?"I smiled pained.
"Me, I would want to help you and I don't see how you don't deserve help because of your physical appearance. Everyone deserves opportunities," she said.
I nodded scoffing." It's easier for you to say that, you are beautiful and have a nice body. Isn't that what they define as pretty and sexy? I have none of those features."I opened up. This nurse was so gentle she made me want to just pour my heart out.
"You think I looked like this?" she chuckled like she just remembered something so ridiculous." I didn't, I had to work for this body. I was tired of people bullying and body-shaming me so I decided to change that. I hit the gym sweetheart. I still do because this is not a strong body," she said and frowned.
"But you have a very nice body, isn't that the definition of strong?"I decided to ask.
She chuckled again."Most people you see with nice bodies are not physically strong. They focus on physical appearance more instead of working towards getting physically strong."
"But isn't physical appearance everything now? Being pretty is everything. When you are pretty, you have added advantages. I want to be pretty too."I confessed.
She looked at me smiling."And you can, you just have to change your mentality and be ready to work towards being pretty but not now. Give birth first then you can do that. You need to be strong physically and mentally don't ever forget about that." she said with finality and I nodded.
I've never met someone this nice."I'll support you with a little cash if you are planning to go through what you just said."She changed the subject.
"Thank you so much but you don't have to. I have enough to get me through life before I get a job," I said politely declining her kind offer.
"But I insist," she said and I didn't know what to tell her."So I take it that you are dropping out of college then? Welcome to the real life, sister. It's not easy out here but I wish you good luck." she smiled at me walking towards the door but before she left she said."I'll wire you the money, I want your bank details," she said getting her phone out.
I gave her the details and my phone dinged with a bank notification. She wired me the money and looking at the amount, my jaw dropped. She was so generous.
"Thank you so much," I smiled. "Wait, I didn't get your name."
"I'm Sophie and good luck again," she said and then left.
I was left dumbfounded and overwhelmed at the same time. I needed to move out and I didn't how. I didn't want to alert anyone about my disappearance.
Later I was out of the hospital and the following day I had already gone through half my plans.
To make my mother worry less, I left a note vaguely