also confused about why I was laughing. Maybe I just felt so hurt, that I couldn't cry anymore.
I looked at Nick and suddenly I frowned, I stood up and with a final glance at Kira who was smirking at me victoriously, I walked out.
There was no use for crying or begging. Nick made his choice and I deserved it. I was unfaithful at first anyway and I was not beautiful like Kira.
I wanted to walk back to the room Olivia was in but I remembered Nicks's words. Maybe he was right and Olivia was only with me out of sympathy. I felt like I didn't deserve love, maybe I didn't. I did not have anything worth loving anyway. I was just an ugly nerd.
So I roamed to the bar downstairs. Where we were getting drunk yesterday. The bartenders there were familiar with me and they welcomed me but I did not miss the weird look they gave me. At this point, I did not care. I didn't want their validation, it's not like they would like me anyway.
"Two shots of tequila, "I ordered knowing they were going to do as I said since the bill was on their boss's daughter who was my best friend but I wasn't sure was my best friend anymore. My thoughts said a lot of things.