I banged the pen on the desk and gripped my hair like a mad woman. I've been trying to fucking fill these sheets for an hour now. It's absolutely annoying!
It's like 10 minutes job for me. But the chills. They are making me go crazy. Wherever I go they follow me. It's like they are attached to me by some kind of electrocuted string.
I just can't get that shit out of my mind and it's frustrating. I thought that coming to the library would calm my nerves down. But look at me getting hyped up over fucking festive papers.
Books always calm me down but they just seem to bring me to the edge today. I stared at the pile of books on my right. I tried every single genre to get those sparks out of my mind. Even economical theory.
It's just not working.
I took a deep breath. Okay I can do this. I picked up my pen and looked down at the papers. Everything just looked so complicated suddenly. I banged my head on the desk as everyone around me started staring at me. That hurt. I rubbed my head.
Oh god. I think I need some actual oxygen. I got up from my seat and started packing my stuff up. I looked at the pile of books and snorted.
What was I thinking?
Now, I have to go through all over the library with each book for each genre. I turned around in frustration and tripped on my own feet. I fell straight on my face but my hands are strong. They saved me. Oh what an amazing day at a library. I looked around and found everyone staring at me. Some with pity, some laughing and some annoyed.
I got up slowly and the guy beside me was about to say something. I gave him a dirty look and he knew better than messing with me right now. "I'll keep the books, you can go one" he encouraged.
Usually I don't like people doing things for me but this time I'll take it.
I nodded and got up. "Thanks" I said briefly and sprinted out of the library.
The librarian gave me a look as I exited. Guess I'm getting a lecture next time I go in. But for now, I don't care about shit. I walked towards the other side of the collage and slowly took over a jog.
The North campus. I slowly stopped jogging and walked down the path. It's so beautiful. It's green everywhere. I walk down the pathway surrounded by trees on both sides. Oh goodness. How come I never even once stepped foot in here.
I'd often look through the library window and wondered how much greenery this place has. Like, it looked like a forest from the window.
The air is also so much more fresh here. I looked around and saw different plants with different shades of flowers. Just so majestic.
The buildings were calm. A few students walked by. They all looked at me weirdly. Um okay? I don't really care about people right now. I'm encircled by this beautiful place and that's all I need.
Fantasy. It was the only thing my brain yelled. It looked like a modern fantasy world. And I think fantasy would be just the perfect theme for this campus. It would blend so well with the nature. I guess I'll just have to pass by here again for business. But for now, it's for myself.
My nerves calmed down automatically. My mind was at ace as I kept walking through the campus. After walking for a while the pathway was split into two. I stood there with a hand on my chin. Hmmm. Left? Or Right?
I'll just go left.
I walked down the path and ended up in front of a gigantic greenhouse. Wow, we have a greenhouse in our college? I never realised my college was so fucking rich. Who the fuck even maintains all this?
I went closer and the door was opened. Gotta make sure there's no botany class going on. I stepped in carefully and the place was empty.
The greenhouse had a calm feeling to it. I was surrounded by different trees and vegetables. It almost looked like a farm inside a house.
If we could take the word farmhouse literally. I'd definitely call this a farmhouse. I walked around looking at plants. The refreshing scent of soil filled my nose every time I bent down to inspect a vegetable. A smile crept up my lips and I sat on a bench looking at the surroundings.
I realised I have classes but my heart just wanted to stay here. So I did. Just for this time I guess. Surprisingly I found no chemicals around the greenhouse. This means, the vegetables were fresh and grew up on their own naturally. I found fertilizers though.
They take care of this place very carefully. The weather seemed to have dulled down. The greenhouse got a bit darker and it looked like it was about to rain. It'll be perfect.
I sat silently closing my eyes. I love this place already. I'm definitely coming back.
I sat for a while until the silence was broken. I heard someone opening the door. "No mom! I'm not doing it" I heard the voice getting closer. It sounded familiar.
"No! NO. You can't force me" the person yelled. Guess they are on their phone. Oh goddess, does this count as eavesdropping? I don't think it does.
Okay, no. I shall announce my presence. I don't want to give someone wrong ideas about me. I got up and walked towards the voice and I heard a loud thump.
Did they fall? I heard sobs as I neared. I walked all the way in front of the person.
She was sitting down with her knees to her chest and her face hidden in between them. Oh god, poor girl must be having a bad day.
I almost turned around ready to walk out giving her some space but then I heard sniffles. Okay no, I can't leave like this.
How do I deal with a crying person? Are there any candies for grown ups? But I don't have any candy with me. I took a deep breath. Okay I can say a few words to calm her. I gained some courage and walked directly in front of her. I think she felt my presence as I say got down to her eye level.
"Hey are you alright?" I asked her and she slowly raised her head to look at me.
Cassy?