Beth was not used to trying to live in a one-room place with all her kids. She found that even though her kids were on their best behavior they were still kids, and sometimes they just had to act that way. The living space was tight, and she was glad that this was not going to be a permanent living situation. As she thought about it at least they had a bed and a couple of cots for the boys, and they were not on the street. She was glad that they had at least been able to go to bed with a full stomach. She smiled at the thought that she was going to be able to bring in the food and now had a way of paying for the room from now on. So, she would not have to ever worry about them being homeless now, at least while they were there.
The only thing was that all the girls were in the bed with her and that made it tight. She had not realized just how tight it was until the four of them were lying in it. She remembered when Sadie was young, she would be brought into the bed so that she would sleep. It was not bad because she could cuddle with her, but Rodger had stopped it because he was afraid of the baby making a mess. Not to mention at that point, they were very sexually active, and he didn't want it in the way. Beth thought that it was more about her being in the way since she was the only one who took care of the messes.
For a long time, Rodger and she had slept close together but as the years passed the distance between them just seemed to grow. Now for the past 5 years, it seems to her like she has been sleeping alone. So now she is in bed with the three of them. It was nice but almost too much with them constantly shifting and the hands laying on her, but worst was the kicks that she was getting.
It seemed like every time that Beth would just about get sound asleep, she would get another kick waking her back up. Even though she was getting restless sleep it was good that she felt someone was holding her again. She had not realized just how much she was missing it until she was feeling it once again. It was not like she was expecting to get all that much sleep anyway since she couldn't stop thinking about the letter that Rodger had sent her. She knew that he must be in some kind of dire straits to send it to her since he had originally told her to stay away and hide herself and the children.
It had been weighing heavy on her mind since the guard delivered it. Beth blushed thinking of how the guard had her remove her dress for him, how it made her feel, and how the desire in his eyes had awoken the feeling that her sexual power had returned. She knew that once she removed her bra he would have done anything that she had asked him to do just to please her and to try and get more.
As a girl, she had felt the power before but had not used it, or not really used it much. She had gotten with Rodger before she had discovered just what she could do with it. Once she had married and had kids, she figured by the way that Rodger had started treating her that her sexual appeal had gone. It left her less than she was. At least by the way Rodger had started treating her it made her feel worthless and unwanted. She felt that if he didn't want her then who would?
Now she was seeing that she was desirable to men and not just one. The men following her around was proof and then when the guard went into a daze just looking at her, she knew that she would have that effect on others as well.
Beth thought about how in the letter Rodger wanted her to come see him wearing something sexy. That had not been anything that he had wanted in years he had not cared just what she looked like good or bad. Beth thought well, he was going to see her now the sexiest that she could muster, and he was going to see just what he had been missing by not caring and not showing her that he even wanted to see her looking this way. In a way, she wanted to rub it in his face.
Beth knew that he said that he had a plan to get out, but she knew him better than anyone and he was lucky to figure out a good plan one time in a hundred. She doubted that whatever he was going to try would work.
Deep down she wanted his plan to work whatever it was. Part of her wanted her old life back. She wanted her house and the things that made it a home back to her. Even though she felt desirable here, she knew that once they went back home it all would be gone again. Including the way that she was going to be able to make money to support her family. Once they were back she was once again going to need Rodger or at least a man to help bring in some money so they could survive.
The night passed without Beth getting any restful sleep. It was either her thoughts keeping her awake, or it was the kids tossing and turning in the bed, and at times it was both. There were several times that she thought about getting up, but she knew that would do no good. After all, there was nothing for her to do not even a room that she could move around in, and anything that she did would wake the kids. In a way, she would not have minded if it was just Sadie awake with her. She felt like she really needed to talk to her, but with everything going on she just was having a hard time getting alone time with any of them. She started feeling guilty about that but there never seemed to be a spare moment that she had extra time, especially now that she was having to deal with issues with Rodger.
Before Beth knew it the sun was rising. So, she got up and went through everything she had gotten that she thought she wanted to get so she could make a filling breakfast for the kids. It delighted her heart to feed the kids since they had started to go hungry and started looking like they were starving. Beth knew when you have no money and no food it is hard to feed them. Now she was going to make up for it all and make sure they didn't go hungry again.
Beth thought about the trial for Rodger and how she needed them to look as pathetic as she could get them, but she was not going to let them go hungry again. Even if it meant that Rodger was in prison forever. Out of everything in her life that she was sure of it was that she was sure of now she was going to make sure that the kids were safe and fed from now on. She just needed to figure out the best way to do it. Even if she had to move her family here because it was here that she could get the money that she needed.
Beth stopped at that thought. Yes, she could make money here, but would it be the best thing for her children. This would be a terrible place for them to grow up, and she would live in constant fear that something would happen to her children. Especially the girls but going back home was not any better. There they would just starve and then they would be thrown out of the house as soon as her money ran out. Facing those two choices she was a lot better off staying here where they could at least be fed and have a roof over their heads. But neither option was a good one, she knew that she was going to have to keep looking for something better.
It didn't take long for all the children to start waking up from the smell of breakfast cooking as the smell started filling the room. Beth sent them to the bathroom together just to make sure no one would bother them. Beth knew that she was becoming more paranoid about it, but she couldn't ignore where she was or the way that the people were acting.
By the time all the children were back and ready to eat the food was done. At this point, Beth started getting nervous since she knew that she was going to have to get ready to go see Rodger. It was funny she was a little nervous yesterday when she was getting ready to go into the prison, but today she was finding that she was a lot more nervous about it. She looked in the mirror at her face and thought she just needed a good way to take care of her kids. She didn't know why he wanted her to look sexy. Unless he was thinking that he was going to be locked up for a long time, and he wanted to remember her this way. Beth thought about it but it really didn't sound like something that Rodger would do though.
She finished cooking and sat down with the kids. She knew that she had to get ready and go to see Rodger, but being nervous about the way that he wanted her to dress was slowing her down. At first, Beth was thinking that she was going to wear the panties anyway but then she thought that she might as well show him exactly how sexy she is and just what he has been ignoring for years. Who knows maybe with her looking sexy it will make him try and keep her if he sees the other guys falling all over themselves trying to get her.
If he gets released and comes back to her, she is going to need him to change. He was going to have to treat her like she had value and was wanted and loved. She didn't want him coming back and treating her the same way that he had been for so long.
Once they were all done eating Beth pulled Sadie off to the side and told her that she needed help in looking her best and that included her hair and makeup. She had been putting on her makeup for a long time, but she wanted it to look perfect and there was just no way to do it here without help. Besides she wanted the time with her daughter. They were bonding now more than they had been in years. She liked the fact that Sadie was looking at her like a friend now instead of just her mom who didn't know things.
With some effort, Beth slipped on the dress and Sadie insisted that she take off the old lady panties right away. Sadie didn't want her to get comfortable in them and thought that she didn't need to remove them. Beth slipped them off as she blushed, but she wanted to look her best and was going to do whatever it took to look that way. After all, it was not like anyone could see up the tight dress to see anything anyway. Beth knew that she just had to keep thinking that it all was for the best. Either it was going to help Rodger think of a way to get out faster or it was going to give him a memory of her that he could hold on to.
No matter what happened she knew that it was time that she looked her best. Beth had forgotten just how tight the dress was. She had skipped eating breakfast because she knew that it would show. But even eating last night might have been a mistake. She knew that she was older, and her body was not perfect, but she knew that she was still in good shape. At least based on the reaction of the guys from last night. As Beth looked in the mirror from what she could see the dress was tight enough that it was showing some bulge at her belly. Which she was hating, but it was also pushing her belly down. At the same time, it was giving her a little lift pushing it to her breasts making them look fuller and bigger, which she thought was a plus not that she needed help there.
Sadie helped Beth get her makeup just right and then went to work and gave her a hairstyle that made her neckline stand out putting her hair up and leaving some curls hanging down. Beth had to admit she had not gotten dressed up like this in what seemed to be a lifetime. Just like before, once she had the dress on, she started feeling a lot more self-assured. She knew with her hair and make-up on she could have any man that she wanted. It was like when she was young, but even better because she knew that men would do things just to please her. She could take advantage of them if she wanted to, and they didn't mind. In fact, the more that she would use them the more they would do just to please her.
Sadie did her best to make her mom look as pretty as she could, but she did not understand why she was going through all this trouble just to see her dad. She started to wonder if it was one of the guards who wanted her to dress up like this. Especially since it was one of the guards who had given her the note, but if anyone should have been able to identify Rodger's handwriting it was her mom.
Beth thought that she had not looked this good in over fifteen years about the same time that Rodger had stopped caring what she looked like and just ignored her. Beth thought that there was no way that he was going to ignore how she looked today. She would do the lure thing that she needed to do every day to get men into the butcher shop after she returned from the prison. That way she wouldn't have to go back out to do it.
Beth thought that who knows if she lured enough of them in there, she would not need to do it again the rest of the week.
Once Beth was ready, she looked over at the kids who were all smiling at her. She said, "I will be back as soon as I can. You kids stay here and stay out of trouble. Sadie, you and Tommy look after them. There is still some food left for lunch. I will be bringing more food home for supper with me when I come back."
Tommy said, "We will make sure that everything will be fine here till you get back. And mom you look great."
That was just the boost that Beth needed. With a huge smile on her face, she walked out the door ready to hear the big plan that Rodger had to save them all.